Here is an excerpt from my first blog post. It's the way I felt at the time, and, sadly, how I still feel in man ways. ---------------------------

Have your flings and your sexcapades you destroyers of lives. You’ve taken from me a precious thing; a love and appreciation for good men. Men with respect for women. Men who would never harm a woman. You beasts who walk the earth scheming, lying, cheating, yelling, beating, raping, mutilating and murdering women who worship you, cherish you, care for you, cry for you and trust you. Those who troll late at night looking for strangers to stab, bludgeon, strangle. You love to look into their eyes while you choke the life out of them. The power it gives you – you weak, sniveling, pathetic individuals whose mother is the only safe one. “My boy is a good boy. He would never do something like this”.
You rodents who take a child and do unspeakable things to them. Can a child in his formative years ever recover from such abuse. No! You have killed that child and should be tried for murder. You have killed the person he or she was to become. You have condemned her to a life of suffering, self-reproachment and shame.
I believe I have been killed thus. Maybe I deserved it for not being resourceful enough. I should have used my looks, and put aside my pride, to find some man - any employed man, to marry. Now it’s far too late for many reasons. My judgment and reasoning are shattered. I am so confused and damaged - nothing but a husk, an empty shell of a once vibrant human being. The thought of going back to a normal life is like reaching for a star from the bottom of a well.

I go out each night wondering when I will feel those dirty mitts and greasy thumbnails press upon my trachea. What will happen to my precious babies when I am snuffed out and dumped into a pit like so much garbage?

Here is my URL. I dont know if this is allowed but I will try to post it. 

http://myescortdiary.blogspot.com/