Hey, let's keep the group going February 28, 2010 8:11 AM
As I've said in the past: it's sort of like church - you may not need it all the time, but it needs to be there when you need it.
Bill's two year anniversary is just over a week away. For anyone who may feel some guilt over carrying on with your life: I, too, find that some of my feelings have changed.
I still miss him every day; I just don't miss him every minute of every day.
I will always love him. The part of my heart that belonged only to him left when he died.
But what is growing in its place is also warm and alive and capable of love in its many forms. I believe that he wanted it so.
I think he stuck around long enough to know that I would be able to carry on. Some things have stopped happening....the violets are out of bloom now. (A violet that hadn't bloomed in four years started blooming vigorously right after his death and continued to do so until about a month ago.)
But the Easter lilies from his service that I planted in the front yard are poking through the ground again. He goes on, just in a different form, and always in my heart.
Sorry to have been away for a bit - a variety of things just kind of ganged up on me...my wife had foot surgery and has been totally down and recuperating, my 60th birthday passed three weeks ago (which was, for some reason, very difficult as Laurel's absence hit me hard), and I've recently changed jobs.
Sounds like yoiur remembrances are going well, and that his memory is physically represented, too! That's great...
For me, the upcoming Easter season is one of the better ones, because of its message of eternal life and the promise that we will be reunited with our loved ones...