Hi Linda,

Please forgive me if I have done this wrong but I am not very computer literate and am not sure how to work this site.

I think being lied to by the one you love and trust is worse than being ridiculed in public.  It is easier to know the truth and what you're dealing with so it can be worked on than to find out what you believed to be truth has been lies.

At least if I knew the truth from the beginning, I could have made an informed decision about whether I would've wanted the relationship to move forward for me.

Now I am trying to trust again with great difficulty and pretending I'm doing a good job at it because I want things to be as nice as they were before I found out about all the lies.

Anyway... sorry to ramble and go off the topic

Take Care

*Snowflake555*

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I don´t know, because I was completely ignored several times, by my family (some cousins) and one of them said something that made my cousin Gonzalo laugh. I don´t remember what she said but it was like my self-esteem fall.

Sorry for my english, but my first language is Spanish.

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           I have survived!

 And I am here ...still

I am alive, and lived longer...
 
then my mother did...

longer then her brother (my dear Uncle Artie)lived...

Longer then my grampa lived...

(Heart trouble in the family....

that is why it is amazingly wonderful...)

I am well....

I thank God, I am as well as I can be....

I have been through alot in life,
 
just like we all do....

I can smile....

I can laugh....

I can still love....

So much love, in me still..left to give...

I can walk...

After that big wreck of an accident back in 92.....

Who knew that I would ever walk again?...

I am blessed....

Oh thank God I am blessed...

I take nothing for granted...

Nothing!

I cherish every moment of my life...

Even now that I am no longer anyone's wife....

He, all of the He's  didn't deserve me....

I took it for  too long....

He, all  of the he's  were wrong....

No more charity relationships....

For me....

I am worth more!

I know my worth now!

I have survived long enough ..

to realize that....I am worth more!

But I had to learn....

Life is a journey....

Of ups and downs...

And sorrows.....


And happy moments....

And I can chose to be happy ...

If I want to....

Or be a grump....

Which isn't my thing to do....

I can choose...now...

And I do choose now....

To be happy ...

at any moment.....

of any day.....

or night.....

I choose not to fight....

Not to hear yelling....

Not to cry.....

I can live alone.....

I am not bitter...

I am free to be me....

I don't need any him's anymore...

Although I still love men!  And would love to have the right one in my life...if that is possible...

That last one, He, well they all , were really a bore....and more....

Troubles....always....they were troubled...

And I tried to save them....

Yes, that is what I think I thought I would do...

Without realizing it ...at the time...!

Why, Why did I even let them  have the time...

So much time with me.....

What was I thinking?

Not of me?....no not of me.....

Thinking of him, whichever him , he was at the time

....is he happy?....

is he fed?...."what's for dinner?"

does he have shoes on his feet that don't hurt....

is his underwear not ripped....

Long time ago now....long time ago....

No more of that now....

It's 2007 for heaven's sakes....

and I can't believe....I don't even look very damaged...

Actually....

I have survived....

life with He, He and He and Him....and him....

I have cried me a river of tears...so much so that it left me empty...and yet...

looking back...

I have

Survived a childhood.... Don't remember a happy day.

And ..Survived womanhood...And made a few happy days..!

Survived motherhood...

Survived in the Hood....  [ send green star]  [ accepted]

You survive, you thank God...you let go....

you help someone else, you bless God...you let go.....

you join care2

combined wisdom will wash minds clean

and....begin healing.

Amen!

Love you darling girl!

Karen

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