This morning, as I was sitting on the love seat watching television, my husband said something to me that inspired this thread. He told me that if I do not do something to get myself out of this rut, that I will be so depressed, that nothing will be able to get me out of it. As he said this, I saw the pain and sadness in his eyes. He wants to protect me, but he is helpless against my emotions. For me, it was a wake-up call.

So I decided I would create an Emotional Trash Bin.

This thread is where we can dispose of emotional garbage.

Read Rules of Thrash Bin

Obey Rules of Trash Bin

Rules:

Absolutely no political correctness police allowed on duty here. I admit, I have been told I am very politically correct. That is the way I was raised, and I don't even think about it. It is a part of who I am. But in here, political incorrectness is legal and accepted.

Absolutely no taking anything personally on this thread. If you feel you will take something personally or be insulted, please do not read this thread.

Absolutely no dumpster diving. I understand there are people who believe in recycling trash, but no matter how nice the wrapping is, regifting someone else's trash is forbidden.

Absolutely no taking anyone else's trash to deposit onto another site. This means, no copying any trash that someone else has thrown away...no matter how insulting you may find it...and if you find anything insulting, please refer back to the "do not take anything personally" rule.

Absolutely no digging through trash. I understand there are people who like to search through other people's trash to try to find "dirt" to use against a person. This is absolutely forbidden.

Absolutely no picking on a person about their trash. Criticizing or condemning a person for their trash is forbidden.

Absolutely no advicing a person about their clutter. It is hard enough to throw stuff out without being told what to throw out or how it should be disposed.

Hugs are welcomed and encouraged

I agree with you in everything you wrote.

I am not ready to throw this away yet, since I still don't know how to deal with it.

Because I am not able to throw it away yet, I posted it in anyother thread at

http://www.care2.com/c2c/groups/disc.html?gpp=473&pst=648451&archival=

I still need to deal with it and I can't.

I can't even write it yet.

Here is trash I am throwing out:

Anger over my husband's serogate mom & a dear friend both dying 3 days before my husband and I were suppose to get married in 2001. We spent a year planning a Greek Orthodox wedding, just to have to cancel it 3 days before the day we were suppose to get married, to go to a funeral instead. I didn't think it was fair. I was mad at God. I felt it was supppose to be my day...my wedding day...and instead, we had to go to a funeral with people who condemned me for living with a man I was suppose to marry that day, out of wedlock. I am letting that go and throwing the anger from that day into the trash bin.

And Iam always thinking of you Galadriel!

I´m not a hugging person right now, but I used to be. So I will send  my kisses or my words to anyone who need it.

In a group in spanish where I belong I put a space to improve the self-esteem of everyone. Some people have problem to say good things about themselves, but I think seeing our virtues will help them a lot.

(((Linda)))

Linda for thinking of me.

I don't know why but my head is acheing very strongly. It just started a half hour ago. I should feel good because I just came back from exercising on my bicycle. Maybe age is catching up physically,I am tired and will go take a nap. My daughter is nice and said she'll cook dinner today.Yeah. Most of the time I feel young,but this headache is a real draaaag!!!

Galadriel, first of all, here's a hug for you! I can only imagine how much a funeral instead of a wedding could hurt, especially beacuse of that one person that disapproved of your relationship. Almost as if they purposefully ruined your day (and now even in death they are getting to you). It can be so hard to let go of some of our emotions, especially if you're not sure what to do with them, or if you are too politically correct to allow yourself to be furious.

Second of all, what a great idea to build a virtual trash bin. You are very creative when it comes to topics for this group.

I am looking forward to discarding some emotions, however they are still brewing at this point.  I'll have to stop by later...

Iva

I should clear something up...

Everyone in my husband's serogate family disapproved of my husband and I living together because they do not believe is sex before marriage.

It was the living out of wedlock that they disapproved of.

My husband's serogate mom died of coronary failure.  She died peacefully, but unexpectedly.  We made a ot of concessions during the first almost wedding for them, like a unity candle, which does not exist in a Greek Orthodox wedding, for her and my mom to light, plus she was going to be the organist.  She had made a dress for herself just for the wedding.  And she had even saved up pizza coupons for the rehearsal.  So I never felt she was trying to stop the wedding by dying.

Chuck, who also died, was going to be the best man.  He died of colon cancer, which the doctors thought was a stomach virus and kept sending him home.  So by the time they actually saw it was cancer, it was too late.  He died very painfully. 

I do not blame them.  I am not angry about it...not any more.

I was horrible to my bridesmaids and maid of honor during the year of planning, and then to cancel 3 days before the wedding when they had all bought their dresses, shoes, and other items for the wedding, and were all coming from out of state...I don't think they have forgiven me yet.  I do not blame them though.

When I read your problems, my problems are so little.

We were talking with a cousin who lives now in Naples, Fla. about some things I want to clean with some cousins of my father. Indiference, cruelty, things like that. She recommended that some things must be kept inside. Like a president of Boca Juniors said about their coach: he practiced sincericidio (a mix of sincerity and social suicide). He made me laugh with his description because I felt we was describing me.

I am sure your bridesmaids didn't blame you for having to cancel your wedding.  We can't account for funerals arising at unexpected moments.  I also think that knowing you, you are warmly appreciated by all your friends, and I can't imagine anyone who really cares about you staying angry with you for long.  They may have been dismayed by the expense and change of plan, but I doubt if they blamed you for it. 

I'm glad you are trashing this aspect.  Stop beating yourself up about it. 

Love and hugs

Ruth

Ruth, the trash is thrown out.  I gave an explanation when it seemed appropriate from a statement made above, but this is a trash bin.  I don't have to explain myself here, and I don't have to argue.  What happened happened.  Now it is trash. 

Yesterday I was talking to Marisa, a friend from Argentina and I told about the trash bin. It was a great idea.

I remember that some years ago I used to write letters in bed. It was great because I was so relaxing that makes me sleep better and quickly. It was a kind of trash bin. I sent some of my letters but they never understand them because what I wrote is horrible. I don´t know how to write in english.

Writing without thinking too much sometimes is positive, Marisa loves my letters because I trying to help her with her self-esteem.

(((Veronica)))

I taking that telling someone about the trash bin is not sharing what is written in the trash bin.

Everytime I see her (she lives in my neighbour.. two blocks from home) I feel so bad. One day I met her in the gym (in a day we considered unlucky as tuesday 13). It was the only day I feel this day brought me bad luck

You know the sensation of avoiding subjects because you know from the start that you might break some eggs.

I believe I have to go to a professional who help me to resolve things of my past. Since I saw Patricia, I remember all the bad things and forget all the good things. The only good thing is that I decide to avoid the same problems with my other two friends from this period.

I remember hearing an ex-friend saying a lot of insulting words about me and my mother in the past, which I knew they weren´t true. I didn´t say a word to defend myself. She insulted my mom because she felt that she insulted her, but she was saying something about me (when I started to talk to a friend we don´t know when I will finish, because I love to talk) I dídn´t say a word because I felt the problem could be solved in the future. I told the story to other friends, and they were shocked for the level of agression she had in this phone call. I mentioned what I did wrong (refuse to go to dance once). Everyone said that it was ok, that I ended this, but I´m not sure I did it in the right way.

Hi Veronica,

   You are fine. You are an intelligent thinker. I understand because I have experienced similar things. No!,You don't need a professional to help you. Just believe in yourself and the goodness in yourself. Rather than a "professional." you can do better with yourself. When meditateing alone(praying if your prefer the word praying..because we are still speaking with good spirits.)you will rid yourself of past negative experiences,and the better,happy memories will shine through. This is just a suggestion,because I decided long ago,I will try to understand past experiences,then throw the ugly past in the "trash bin." and remember only the good,happy memories which shine through now in the present. Forgive.

Age 1-to-5yrs.  What happened to make me angry,sad,happy. Did it really happen that way.Why? Is it worth worrying about remembering now,in my present?

Age 6-to11 yrs.  Agell-l6-yrs. What happened to make me angry... Did it really happend that way?..Was it worth my time,energy,to be upset?

Age12-to-17yrs. .....  Or just start at your current age. Will you get health problems,stress,if you keep it in your mind, or will you be happier now in the present?   In Lama Yeshe's book,"The Stillness of the Silent Mind." his discussions says similar,but in different way of his own translated language. Really,what"professionals." do is ask questions,listen, for your feelings.,and help you release the negative so the positive,good can shine through in your present life. I know you will be patient and you are fine Veronica!  Another paragrph in Lama Yeshe's,"Becoming your Own Therapist." is," You have to do more checking, If you have more understanding, you can control the kind of reflection that you allow into the mirrow of your mind. If you totally ignore what is happening in your mind,it will reflect whatever garbage it encounters things that make you psychologically sick. Your checking wisdom should distinguish between reflections that are "beneficial and those that bring psychological problems."

But it takes time. (lol.)...I make sure that when I meditate on negativity Iam near my bed so I can jump right in comfortabley! Better to pray on happiness,goodness,and let the Good,shiney energy into you Veronica!!

Thank you Linda. I wrote something for you in the new thread Galadriel opened this week.

I was reading some threads here and I realise how different these persons are from me. I was very sad and angry because something Galadriel thought of me and my family. But I thought that wrote insulting words, will be worst. So I abandoned the group for some days and return. If there was missunderstandings, shoutings and throwing of dishes will not solve anything, from what I read in one of the largest threads here. I learnt a lot of things of the holocaust, of United States, and various subjects.  I tried to help to maintain the peace between them, but I couldn´t. I was so surprised because we talk about tolerance and in the last things written here , tolerance was in other planet. I practised written english. I know a lot of interesting people, so I could say every objective I have when I enter this community is accomplished.I tried to taught you some things about my country. So if I were a little insistent on the subject was because I love to share information about the things and people I love.

Please, if someone doesn´t understand me or disagree with me wrote to me in private, and I will explain better. It´s horrible when they put me this icon: I feel this and

Today I was asking a friend an advice about a toxic relationship with a woman who said I am her friend. This woman, Roxana worked in front the bus stop where I take the bus. It´s strange that I believe I had to have excuses to end something that made me feel bad. I am a great believer in the redemption of the persons and I am always believing in giving them endless chances to improve their personalities. Am I wrong?

So, last year I decided it´s enough. If this means I am wrong, I prefer to feel it´s just to protect me from resentful people.

Hugs For Everyone!! And...Lots of Love!

(((Veronica)))

(((Jazzmin)))

Now that I read the good experiences Helen had with American Airlines, I remember how bad was the flight from Buenos Aires to Milan in april 2005. Since then, I tried to prevent any friend from internet to have a similar experience in Alitalia. Rude flight atendants, horrible food, thirst and a woman who couldn´t stop to talk in all the flight (this wasn´t the fault of the airline, she was crazy because it was strictly forbiden to smoke). I don´t know if they were rude to us because we were considered by some people as third class passengers or they are rude with everyone. I thought, where were the kind italians of the american movies? ( ) because we didn´t see them.

(((Veronica)))

I just got the hint last night, while I was watching the Guru episode of "Avatar: the Last Airbender." (Yes, I watch cartoons and this one is a great cartoon and easy to get hooked on.) Anyhow; during the part where Ang meets the Guru to learn how to get into his Avatar state, the Guru does a beautiful job on describing the chakras. He names each chakra, tells what it represents, and then tells Ang he must clear that part of his mind that is blocking that chakra.....Another words.....trash all negative thoughts.

  Now you're giving me the same hint......So.......I'm throwing away all negative thoughts and the pyschic vampire that keeps cropping up in my mind!  He was one of my acquantances that I really didn't want to be friends with, but he kept hanging around and stalking me until I called the cops on him.  Now, he keeps cropping up in my mind and dreams so I am getting rid of the memories of him, in order to get to the state of enlightenment. Thank you for use of your can.

This is little trash compared to other I have put here. It´s a stupid thing. Why if I wrote one message, it came in pairs. There´s a clon of my last message in the thread of the hero

Other, I went to a place and tried some blouses in a size I suppose it could fit me. I suppose they lie in the sizes, because I haven´t gain weight the last days.

I really hate coachroaches. It was of the most disgusting animals God have created. Since my neighbour decided to modify her kitchen they appear everywhere. So, the last night I found one in the drawer in a plastic bag. I throw the bag in the middle of the room and hit this bug with the recipient of the Elizabeth Arden´s cream (it´s very useful )

I used to say that when my superego disturbed my mind, trying to make me feel guilty without any good reason, the other parts of myself used to stop it hiting like I do with the insects.

You know that sometimes we have problems trying to put emotions into words. I am so inspired to suggest subjects for Melting Pot.

This is one I think, are you guided by first impression? or do you correct a bad idea about somebody or a group? I´m sure the hosts will find a way of expressing this better than me.

From these last days, I heard something very ridiculous, but I believed it nevertheless. But this weekend I was watching a program with a priest. Some persons in the cinema were talking about Benedicto XVI, the last Pope. They believed that he suggest giving the misa in latin. The priest said that he didn´t know latin. Since we don´t have a very good opinion of the last Pope, I suppose that we could believe anything from him, even it sounds very ridiculous.

The other I was talking with Rosa, a woman I know. We talked about the persons who are always saying I´m intelligent, I´m sincere, I, I, I said this to him/her (like they were the heroes of their work. Am I right. (when you know exactly they want you to say: You are right, you have the reason, bla, bla). For one side I think, poor fellow or woman, she only wants to be listened, perhaps nobody hears him/her at home.  But one needs a break of them.

Sometimes I feel I´m a magnet to this kind of people. . I like to consider myself a good listener, but even the best listeners needs a break. So, if I realize that I´m a heavy person that tell all the world about my problem, I´d try to be more positive.

I don´t want anybody to suggest me to admired them. I admire people who are modest.  

Hey Veronica,You don't like mosquitos either?!,lol.I don't know why,but they loved me too.Yuuuuuuck.Did you have a special kind of ointment or something else to try to get rid of them? My mom bought "katoriSenko." I guess it means "incense of mosquito." or something like that,it was a coil-shaped green incense.I can't figure out why she bought it in San Francisco.....maybe it was in Hawaii.Makes more sense there would be mosquitos over there. There's a lot here in the suburbs too. You know Buddhists are not supposed too kill insects(I think.)....but I can't help it,I don't like mosquitos,or spiders. I find the swatter quickly,then swat an inch in front of the spider hopeing it will run its long,thin,stringly legs away quickly,but realized spiders curl up sometimes,or hide very well too.Worst thing is my daughters always ask ME to get rid of the spiders.yuuuuuuuck,yuuuuuuuck,yuuuuuuuck,then my husband comes up the stairs and asks why a big lady like myself is scared of a tiny stringly spider. lol.lol.haah. 

So how have you been lately Galad and Veronica and everyone?

Trash bin for the rain in Argentina this last week. We will have mosquitoes, illnesses and a lot of people will have to begin their life again with nothing. The only good thing that gives me hope is the solidarity of persons from my city, who give their help to the houses of the provinces of Santa Fe and Entre Ríos.

They have to pass the Easter away from their homes. Some years ago Rosario suffered the same problem the city of Santa Fe is suffering now.

In Entre Ríos, Gualeguay also suffered the consequences of the rain.

Last week, I don´t know when, Diego Armando Maradona had to be hospitalised in the same hospital I was born.

MONDAY 39,2007......RRRRRRRGHHHHHH.I WANT MY PLATONIC KISS TOO.LOL.LOL.  as for you Veronica, can they do a broad spectrum mosquito spray...something like the American brand of "off." mosquito spray,except for broad spectrum area spraying?lol.

Trash bin because I can´t send more than one star I want for week.

I´d want to get rid of my stupid worries. If someone sleeps with the mouth open, I don´t know why but it seems like he/she is dead.

I am worried because I feel the president of my country is mad, crazy or have mental issues. Everytime he will open his mouth, I felt very uncomfortable. Now, what is he or his ministers are going to say. It´s strange because I hear our vice-president and he talks as everything is going to be ok.  But when you see that in this planet we are full of presidents and political leaders who doesn´t know where or when shout their mouth (like the president of Venezuela), I believe there´s nothing to be worry about. Perhaps no one knows him besides the countries of South América, and prefer to put their eyes and ears in someone more beatiful and interesting.

Although I was trying to write about positive things, this week has been something very hard for me and my family. My grandmother Juanita is senile and we decided that it´s better to be atended in a home dedicated to take care of old men and women in her state. Looking a woman who was very intelligent act like a child was horrible. She did a lot of things that doctors said that prevent this condition, but still she got it. Her half-brother had the same problem but became aggresive instead.

I have a problem and tomorrow they will know the reason of it. So I had to drink 4 litres of an horrible solution to clean my body. It was horrible because I feel very sick when I have to drink this thing.

I remember that I saw a programme in the 90. There was a man who was afraid to be happy, because he feared that immediately after the happiness, there will be sorrow. He didn´t enjoy the good times. It was like a kind of superstition. The sad part of it is that sometimes I feel the same way.

After I did this exam, eight days before my birthday and it turned better than I thought I´ve been cheerful, feeling great and optimistic. I went to cinema twice in the same week to celebrate with a lot of . And instead of making me feel better, I felt some moments of ness. I know that I can take my holidays now.

I promised myself to reduce my size to a healthy one. And although everything is going quite well, I remember the times when I promised myself the same thing and I couldn´t succeed that.

Some times when I discover I´m wasting time feeling horrible for stupid reasons I try to remember a song from Alejandro Lerner that said: the future that doesn´t come, the past that was, what remains is the present to be well.

I shouldn´t have written in Trash bin since I want to know your opinions and at the same time is a subject for trash bin.

Sometimes I don´t know where I write my comments.

It is for feelings.

And there is also the Kitchen table for chit chatting.

Please let me know which post you would like moved over there.

I´d like to throw in this trash bin all the bad moments I had in my life. I had bad moments, but still I could find one good things from them. But some like fighting for stupid reasons, ruined moments that could have been great, funny or good to remember.

I like to throw my doubts about the english and feel more happy about myself. Sometimes I said to myself, why bother. They know I´m making a great effort. You are more forgiving with my little deffects than myself. (or me).

I have lumbalgia for 10 days. Luckily it is better than the last time, but I have to postpone my pilates classes. I went to the doctor last friday and she suggested to go to swim. She said that she was doing pilates and have the same problem.

It´s incredible, I still have lumbalgia and now I´m beginning to feel sad, which is terrible because I know that I will eat a lot of carbohydrates. I don´t feel sad because I have lumbalgia, I feel bad when I discover that I´m left alone by people that say they are my friends (since 1995).

Did you ever feel that it´s time to begin to declare independence from certain kind of people who describe themselves as friends? I read about toxic relationships and I´m not sure that these women are the opposite of a toxic relationship.

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I´m in several groups where I write in spanish. In La filmoteca virtual, we have two participants who are living in Perú. One of them told us that he is alive and well. We don´t know what happened with the other. I hope he and his family are fine. He told us that it was a long earthquake. Luckily, I have no idea what´s an earthquake, because my city is far away from the Andes and the Pacific. We had two serious earthquakes in our country, in Mendoza province several years ago and one in San Juan.

They need shelter, water and clothes. The government of my country sent a militar airplane (Hercules) with suplies.

Now I´m worried for them and the people of the caribbean sea because of the tornado.

(((Veronica)))

Ay, Ay (ouch, ouch)  Linda.

I tell you a verse that we used in my country but with a version to your knees

First the original:

Sana sana

colita de rana

Sino sana hoy

sanará mańana

And now the second version, for you

Sana Sana

Rodillas de Linda

si no sana hoy

sanará mańana

After this, you`ll know why I know the literature creation is not one of my greatest habilities.

This post was modified from its original form on 07 Nov, 13:01

I hope laughing will cure the pain in your knees.

Not many people realise this, but unlike some brands of disinfectant, laughter is the only known commodity, that can kill 100% of all known 'Squirms'...   

Robbie.... 

I`m completely tired that a lot of people blame me for our communication problems. You have to go to the psychologist (sp?) I`m not guilty of every thing. 

Yesterday it was like the last drop in the glass.

I want to know when to shut my mouth and when to talk. I feel so bad when I open my mouth and tell everybody things they don´t care.

I´m tired that a lot of people think that I´m a bit crazy or inmature. I want to look more mature.

Linda

Robbie

Veronica

Trash I have to throw away:

I forgive Petros' mom.

After my appendix surgery, I was in bed recovering.  Petros' mom came in and beat my abdomen when my stitches were with the heel of her shoe, and broke open my stitches, which took years to heal, and still cause me pain sometimes because of the damage done when the enclosure did heal without the stitches.

I know she resented me because she felt like I took her only living son (as well as child) away from her.

So I am letting this go, and forgiving her.

I´m back. I am enjoying my last four days of vacations at home watching Bones, cleaning my home and trying to eat healthy. I tried to forget about our world for eight days and enjoy my vacations, but I couldn´t. I enjoy my vacations but I made a stupid thing, I went to the swimming pool too early and now I have my back and my limbs almost red. I suffer from insolation and the insects made some volcanoes in my skin.

Veronica

We have fires in Chubut. We are worried. The fire is terrible near Trevelin.

We have rain in Buenos Aires, Hurlingham, Ituzaingo and Chacabuco. 

Yesterday 18 persons died in a stupid accident in Dolores, Buenos Aires, Argentina. We are tired, angry, worried about the stupidity of the drivers in my country.

Veronica

Thinking of you and your countrymen!

It is good that you can get this heavy load of your chest here! I hope things get better for you. Here in the northern hemisphere the spring is almost here - time to renew our spirits.

On the positive note, two of my students just came back from a visit to Argentina and they had a wonderful time.

2 weeks before Christmas 2 of my colleagues got fired. One of them was at work when he found out, and the other one was notified over the phone in a telephone conference that she can come to work only to empty her office.

Technically, they were "laid off", but I am so bothered about the way it happened and overnight. It took several months to find people to take over their jobs, as those 2 positions were eliminated. In the meantime, everyone was even more overworked.


Both people were employed with differrent companies within 3-4 weeks after getting fired, and both got much better salaries. I am happy for both of them, but very sad that I lost them as my colleagues who were dedicated and hard-working, and as my firends whom I get to see very rarely now.

I´m so tired of hearing that our country will have problems. Sometimes I believe that these people would be happy just to know that their horrible escenario they fear, could be true someday. I´m so tired to hear that we are having a kind of civil war, the government blaming the producers of soy and cows for the inflation, when they producers are one of the first victims of the problem. I´m so tired to hear people who believe that this situation could only lead our economy to a dead end. I´m so tired to fear that I could not spend the money I earned honestly in things I need like a pair of shoes and nice clothes. I´m so tired to fear and believe I´m an unconscious because I wanted to spend money and invest in me. I´m so tired of fear in spending money with my credit card, I´m becoming very paranoic and I don´t like this.

Veronica

Chemotherapy is over now, but only just.  I have a headache today because I felt too sick to drink a coffee and even though I have had two, the headache hasn't gone away. 

After I had my semi colon removed, I have healed up well, but I have a lump just above my waistline which is probably just the reorganised plumbing, but I don't know for sure.  I am cured of cancer (for now) and I don't always feel as grateful as I should.  Most of the time I feel positive, but at the moment I am expecting a disaster. 

I went to take Cass for a walk but locked my handbag in the boot of the car.  I forgot to bring it in with me but every time I go downstairs I forget to put my shoes on, so I can't go and get it. 

I shouldn't have to work now because I have no mortgage and the insurance paid my loans, but things are getting so expensive that I might have to work sometimes anyway.  I just wish I could retire properly and sell the house and go and live on a narrowboat.  I wouldn't actually like that unless we had a trailer on the boat for my books. What I really want is a little house on the side of a mountain, with a stream running by and trees all around and a solar panel and a windmill and nobody to bother me.  OK, if the stream floods in winter and I get some water in the skullery, it is still better than other people have.  I would have to have a level bit to grow food, or a pulley arrangement to have my food ferried up to me.  I'd like my O/H to live there too, despite his smoking and other careless housekeeping habits because he is really nice and caring and I love him to bits - sometimes. 

This really feels like whingeing.  Not sure if I really know how to dump.

(((Ruth))) I hope everything will be from now.

(((Ruth)))

I´m so angry with our current government that I couldn´t explain with words. Lies after lies, promoting violence and division among argentinians are and embarrassing. Some people told me that they refuse to hear her speeches. A man died in Plaza de Mayo because of an accident and the president never said a word about him. Feeling that another government believe we are stupids is something very terrible. A friend told me that she was so angry that speak in the tv and lost her temper. Now, the tape with her face was shown in two programmes. Sometimes, one could have the reason in their side, but acting like a crazy person doesn´t help for any cause.

I went to my last appointment yesterday, and I have been discharged to the Surgical team for monitoring.  For now, I'm cured.  Probably for the next 20 years.

I hope that good news is allowed on this thread.

I hate our government as well.  They seem to think they can do just what they like without asking us.  They are clinging on to power by their fingernails, or is it our fingernails?

(((Veronica)))

(((Ruth))) 

I was thinking if we have a place for good news in Melting Pot. I had this idea nd then I read what Ruth wrote and I thought it is a good idea. We need a place to put our good thoughts. Or we have it and I didn´t discovered it yet.

Last saturday I did a stupid movement after the indoor bike class and now I´m suffering. I believe it´s getting better but tonight I feel that any movement I´ll do I´ll see the stars (not the green stars). We heard that a man died in another gym doing indoor bike. I´m so angry with me, because I love this class and now I´m not sure I could go with this problem. It´s so strange, because I was never a gym lover, and I like the professor and my classmates.

I´m fine, but I´m asking myself why when everything is going well, the lazy people for the gym is motivated, something wrong like a lumbalgia happens?

Vero , I am glad you are doing OK! Unfortunately, injuries happen when you work out. I also get gym-lazy, and within the first week of working out I pull something out or catch a cold. Just when I've decided to give it my all... But, don't worry. Make sure you stretch before your work out, and if you love the class so much, I am sure you'll be up and running in no time.

I think I am quite sensible, except that I am too independent.  I have managed to give myself a hernia by lifting and carrying laundry baskets around the house.  Clean upstairs, dirty downstairs.  I made it worse by eating too much and now I have to lose quite a bit of weight before and after the op to repair it. 

I just don't know if I can do it.  I've sent for a book to help me to stop overeating.  My doc has given me dodgy pills to help, but I don't think they will really.  I need to control my eating, not do another bl***y diet!!!

It all makes me feel like an alien.  I sit here and scream at the radio because of the stupid reasons interviewees give for doing what suits them instead of what we need.  I just do not comprehend why ANYONE can bear to drink Coca Cola.  Why are the shops full of Cr*p?

Ahh - that feels a bit better.

I´m in my second week at home. The lumbalgia is killing me. the only good thing I could  find is that I lost two or three kilos.

Today I went to the hospital to have a magnetic resonance of my column. I have been suffering from lumbociatalgia. I can´t sit for minutes, my left leg is suffering and if I´m standing for a long time I feel that I´m going to faint.

Because of

 Ike

 all the accidents this week

 the people who suffer from insecurity in their countries

Firstly: Veronica and Ruth , and everyone actually, poorly people- look after yourselves!!!!!!!!!!!!! as much as you can

Here is ??I think my first use of trash bin.

Am I hormonal? who cares....

I try to be giving and nice at work and I have big puffy eyes and can't breath as I've been bawling on way home and also in front of a colleague!!!!!!!

I am clearly NOT someone's favourite OT in the team and with a massive lack of staff today and piles of patients to be dealt with and seen, and a patient's totally unrealistic wife bending my ear on the 'phone about stuff I really can do nothing about , I have almost had enough.  

THe 'someone' seems to have a bit of a way of talking to people (is it just me??????????) that is like they sit around all day and do nothing -

Also communication about flipping important things is a total joke.  

Also I am stunned by the activities or should I say, lack of activities carried out by my colleagues in a particular hospital.  They are not doing their jobs and passing stuff to us in the community.  And then our 'systems' are so all over the place, it is only our skeletons holding the place up.

But mostly I feel like I am not recognised by some people I work with as being a human being when it suits them .  I don't like to say all this but I only work 2.5 days a week and seem more stressed than when I worked full time.  

Anyone know of any nice holes to creep into???????

From

Mei " AAAAAAAArgh" Lin

I had to go to the hospital or sanatorio four times because of my back. My mom went with me because of my pain I was completely stupid, I was in a kind of cloud of pain and we thought it was wiser to go with her.

We saw how the women in the reception of the traumatologist guard were completely relaxed. A man who was totally crazy was complaining the 5/09 because he broke his rib.  I couldn´t be like them, maybe this happened to make me think that I couldn´t be perfect and attend two or three people at the same time. I saw patients with a suffering in their expression being completely patient.

I have decided not to tell most of my friends. 

Last night, coming back from a very pleasant lunch party, I took a route not entirely familiar to me.  At one point I was at the top of a farm track with a wonderful view of the county.  Then I took another route I had only travelled once, and took a 30 mph bend at 35, and braked too late.  The car skidded into a ditch, and shaken but unhurt, I got out and was escorted by a kind lady into her house and given cups of tea.  She encouraged me to call the RAC which I thought was a very good idea because they wouldn't let me drive home unless the car was OK.  After a couple of hours, the car was extricated and my state was assessed by the patrolman and found wanting.  He winched my car onto a trailer and towed me home. 

I am fine, but my family and friends would only flap and it would spoil my friends' memories of the party, and would make my fellow cancer sufferers' lives worse.  They don't need this tiny minor grief. 

My husband will take me to the park and to the hospital for a Cancer follow-up meeting, and get my car checked out in daylight for damage to brake pipes and fuel lines. 

So I am only ranting about the love of my family and friends not needing the disturbance they would feel, that would be entirely unwarranted.    I'm fine, the car looks OK, checked by an expert, no harm done.  Nobody died, I didn't hit anyone, or either of the 2 trees I could have hit.  

I wasn't drunk.  I had had one glass of wine with the meal, and was fit to drive.  Apparently, according to the hospitable lady, this kind of thing happens from time to time because it is a far worse bend than it looks.

Incidentally, the RAC man put himself in a lot of danger, in pulling my car out of the ditch.  He did a very good job, in a very dangerous place.

I read it today. When I read this I couldn´t say a word. You´re right, there´s no need to worry your fellow cancer sufferers. And if everything went better than expected, it´s good to keep it in your circle of relatives.

And there´s no need to have a drop of alcohol in your blod to have an accident. I had two accidents as a pedestrian, and both were when I was angry for something. The second was when I was going to pay the taxes of my previous work and the machines of the AFIP have problems. So, there´s something I learn after that: never cross a road when I am distracted, angry or very worried. As we say in spanish: "no hay mal que por bien no venga". Now I am more careful and after the accident I had in 1995, the feeling of nothing will happen to me is gone. (it doesn´t mean that sometimes I forget the accident and I do dangerous things)

This summer and fall we are suffering from a dengue epidemic. Now I´m watching La liga, a very interesting programme. It´s educative too. They are now talking about the diseases caused by poverty, like the Chagas disease, dengue and water pollution.