I think that I am basically a good person with a good heart. I tend to think of family and friends before I think of myself and sometimes go without so others can have things that they need. I love to make people happy and a smile is all I need in return. I don't really have to many regrets, at one time everything I have done or will do is exactly what I wanted for one reason or another, What I do may not make much sense to some people but I am following my heart and they have to follow theres. I like everyone else have hopes and dreams. Some may come true and some may never happen. But I feel that I am lucky to have been givin this life that I have, I am lucky to have the people that I have in my life. You learn something from every single person that you meet at any givin moment, it might be something so small that it takes years to realize it and you think back and think wow...I never realized it until now. I hope to someday write a #1 top selling book about my life and experiences with all the good, the bad and even the ugly and all the in between. I hope that someday my children can read it after I am long gone and learn from my life and what my life was all about, maybe they won't have to live through what I have lived though and maybe just maybe they can learn from my mistakes so they don't have to make the same mistakes I made and wont have to feel how I have felt. My book would be a sucess even if would help just one person in anyway. I am not perfect and I will never claim to be. I can remember my mom telling for over and over and for as long as I can remember that I am not better then anyone in this world and there will never be anyone better then me, she would say that some people might have more then me and I might have more then some people but no one is better then the next person. I am sometimes an emotional train wreck, but on the other hand I can hold my own if I need to, I wont back down if I know I am right and I sometimes hold grudges over the smallest things and I will always stand up for something I believe in. When it comes to my family I would die for anyone of them, I would take the bullet so that they could keep living. But hey this is me and this is what I am all about, you can love me or hate me, take me or leave me. I am Me and that is how I like it. I am not hard to get along with, I mix well with all types of people and I make friends easily. I love with all my heart, but usually don't let that part be known. I have learned that if you let people you love more then life it's self know how you truely feel then you are opening the door for them to hurt you, or they will leave you by walking out on you just when you need them the most or they die. After my moms death I made alot of changes and put up many many high walls and I have only let a few people get in. I am getting better and I am learning to let go and just "Let it be". So this is how I discribe myself. Just Stephi, just me!
I can't dance and I can't sing either. I have a bad habit of biting my fingernails when I am mad sad nervous or just hungry.
We only get one chance to make our lives into something we want to be remembered by. If we dont do anything no one will remember us, but if just one person remembers us by that one thing then we did good.
What Gives Me Hope
Just being able to get up out of bed every morning. Thats something alot of people take for granted. There are people in this world who would love to be able to get up and just walk. Simple things that we take for granted.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
I would start by getting the homeless into a place that was warm and they would never be hungry. I would bring home our troops from over seas and bring them home where they belong. I would make health insurance available to those whose can't afford it, but who are working hard and making an effort.
What/who changed my life and why
My mothers death changed my life because while she was alive she would help anyone, if they were hungry she would feed them, If they were cold she would give them her shirt, if they were hurt she would give them her shoulder to lean on. Most of all she never expected anything back from them. She taught me to do the same. She taught me to just take life by the horns and just run with it.