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Christina S.

Clearwater, FL, USA
female, age 38
single
Speaks: Rarely speak anymore
Joined Jun 17, 2006


 
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November 12, 2009:

   Yeah,  so I'm no 'full-blood' American Indian (Excuse me!),
... I'm a f*cking nobody.
My biological father is a criminal
(sex offender, abuser, alcoholic), he kicked me down a flight of stairs when I was 2 years old, but glad I was taken away from him not long after that (he has since been married 7 times, he's a giggilo/user/con-artist/bum and he accidentally/unwantingly had a baby boy about 4 years ago, he broke that infant boy's arm.  My biological father is a disgusting, nasty, cruel, using Irishman and I hate his fn' guts)   ---  ---
 I was born by accident/a mistake, thrown away, and yeah my stepbrother tried to sell me off to a Mexican to make money (he tried to make money off of me many times, putting my safety & health in jeopardy), he also wishes I would go away or die so he'll get all of his parent's inheritance/money one day.   He also calls me a psychopath because I hate going everywhere by myself and doing everything alone now after having been through 3 assaults, one rape and severe abuse by males in the past.  I've been homeless for a time, to get away from a nasty/cruel/spoiled/narcissistic abuser and lost 98 percent of the things I loved and had.  --- I had put up with my stepmother hitting me in the face often when I was a young child and teenager, etc, because I got in her way or did not like everything she liked. Do you know what my stepmother told me after I finally got the nerve to tell her about rape and assaults by men? she nastily told me "That's the way it is, there's nothing you can do about it!"   And when my loving fiance died of cancer, she yelled at me to "get over it" after only 3 weeks after he died. She always told me "I better not tell my stepfather anything that happened to me".   Is'nt it wonderful when your stepbrother comes into your room at night when your stepparents are sleeping so he can hump you & you are 6 years old?? (yeah, he's the same one who tried to sell me for money a few times and wants me out of the way so that he gets his parent's money when they die.)
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Anyway, ... The greatest Man in the world to me
(my partner)
 died of Cancer and he suffered horribly from it.  (We were together for almost 7 years). --- I busted my friggin' ass with extremely physical jobs for many years, now my joints hurt. And I'm still moneyless as hell.  --- This is only the short list, ... So I don't want to hear your friggin bullshit against me or about me, and your crap to try to bring me down, 'cause I'm down at the bottom of hell and misery as far as I can go and feel already.

THANKS!
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November 2009:   Life blows, and then you have to suffer with it some more.



October 12, 2009To all of the crap on T.V. and on the computer 'online' about weight, looks, hate, money, fighting, 'controling others', lieing, abusers,  sl*ts, nudity and money, .... it all makes me so 'sick to my stomach' and puts me into such a horrible depressive state.         I am so SICK of  all of it !!!!
  Enough of the 'unhealthy' T.V. and of being online on the computer, the crap on both of those things are so destructful, disgusting, immature, disrespectful and cruel !!


**(August 3):    Ahhh rain, wonderful wonderful rain.  We have been getting quick heavy rains about twice a day. The plants trees, Geckos and frogs are sooo happy! 
     My old pup is all better now. His right shoulder muscle no longer hurts him and he has been running around fast with energy.   He has been switched over to a high vegetable diet as well, which will insure he will not become extremely obese and he will feel healthier too.




** (July 27, 2009):   Yes!  Finally we got good rain. We recieved rain twice today (the plants and trees were needing it). 
  My old pup is feeling better from his muscle pull, he is walking much better tonight. Soon he will be running around fast and playing with his ball again.  I took him for a ride in my truck tonight.




** (July 26, 2009):  Am in Florida. Please send a little rain a little more often. Thankyou Mother Nature, a kiss from me.

  A hug to my friends. Am missing you.     I have been growing and caring for Bonsai trees, a tiny veggy garden, rose plants and two new fruit trees.     My old pup (
Dakota) loves the large 'fenced in' back yard but he pulled a shoulder muscle a week ago after trying to jump up to catch a frisbee.  Guess he's too old and a tad bit heavy for jumping up after frisbees, so after he is healed he will only be running around without jumping into the air :]




** (April 11, 2009):   I apologize again to my care2 friends. I went missing for another 6 months again.  Wound up in a 'crap-hole' rental house in New Jersey and everything in this house started to fail (the heat, electric, plumbing, everything. And my landlord who lives next door, was a complete disrespectful, nosey Jerk who trampled my boundaries continuously).
So I suffered the whole year. I am moving back to sw Florida this April 18th, 2009. To a beautiful house with a 'fenced-in' back yard, and this time I won't be renting. That means "no more landlords"  :]

I missed my friends on here, I really hope you all have been doing ok.


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Below images with comments were added on June 24, 2007.


"Me,at a park called Hartshorne woods."

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"Look at those trees!! The leaves & the clouds! - "I'm weird I know".
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I am Irish and Native American Indian. Though my last name would say otherwise. (I had been adopted at the age of 2).

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{About abusers}

-- The 'abuser' has a CHOICE, to either be a loving, 'grown up', 'concerned' partner 'and' LEAVE the premisis (for a "little while") of where the disagreement is happening when he thinks he can 'not control' his hate, his physical abuse, threats, scare tactics and selfishness (because he cares for the other), ""OR"", he can choose to stay there and torment, torture, harass, verbally threaten, be selfish, care for himself only, be selfcentered, love himself only, and beat on his partner's mind, emotions, and body!!!

( 'WHICH' ONE ARE YOU ??!!!!!!!?? )


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Advice: You can NOT discuss, explain, 'speak out to', and work things out with an abuser, because they don't give a 'Rat's  *ss'  what you are going through, what happened to you, what is destroying you, what you are saying and what they did to you. - All you can do is leave (with destroyed life, destroyed posessions, destroyed pets, destroyed friendships, destroyed health, destroyed mind & destroyed jobs), and just let them 'con' their next victim into their lives.))

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I do not like games.


I would like to share life with someone that is caring, sweet, "gentle hearted", loyal, reliable, giving, wants to give respect, has no problem falling 'in love' with his partner and has no problem showing it to them, has 'no problem letting them know it' ((it is not an insulting, "weak, or embarassing thing to them to do")).
I don't mind if you are shy, have a goofy side, are 'not' super skinny or are 'not' a muscle-head, (matter of fact, I'd prefer those who are not muscle heads, or who are so worried over their weight, their looks 'or' their partner's weight & looks, because they are at times the ones who only care about looks, money, being unloyal, unfaithful, and some times even cruel).

I am an outdoor lover. I love being out & taking walks through trails through the woods (
something I do not get to do here in sw Florida, at all), caring for Bonsai trees & veggie gardens, I also love going fishing & crabbing (I apologize, but I am not a vegetarian), doing nature photography, love horses & love all kinds of food especially seafood, love cooking food on a grill. I own two pets (a labrador & a cat). I seek someone with 'patience' & who is not abusive towards another (neither verbally, mentally or physically), who takes things in life slow and who truly enjoys nature, the forests, animals, etc.

Other keywords that would describe me or what I like or love: Somewhat old fashion, Sunsets, Sunrises, long walks through the woods or trails, parks, aquariums, shy, rennaissance fairs, classical guitar, native american flute, lakes, respect the elderly, passion for food
((especially seafood and hotwings. I 'Love' food.)), animals, tolerance to a degree, giving, I am not financially rich ((every one is not the same and are not as lucky in all things in life,... that stuff happens, get over it!)), not shallow.

I am 'not' a Man and I am not going to be just like a Man and be able to do 'all' that they do and 'how' they do things, don't expect or ask me to. And I would 'choose' not to be.

I am not an exact image or 'copy' of you or of someone who is rich or financially comfortable, had luck in their life, has really good health, has a perfect body that will permanently always be that way, had lots of education, so GET OVER IT!

I may not be able to equal your 'income making abilities' or your income requirements of me and 'how YOU make it all', ... and I'm about f*cking tired of money being the huge important thing in another person rather then having a great 'human being' in your life or as your partner.







































 







































 
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Hometown New Jersey 
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Birthday June 08, 1971  
Languages Rarely speak anymore  
About Me I am a loyal, faithful, respectful and giving person. I really enjoy being outdoors taking walks on trails or spending time at parks, indoor aquariums and zoos, going freshwater fishing, doing nature photography, horseback riding, gardening, growing/selling bonsai trees & cooking on the grill.
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  Lifestyle
Pets Tree Frogs hopping every where outside., Geckos running around outside, Two Goldfish, 1 long-haired cat, 1 Shepherd/Lab dog, freshwater aquarium  
Activist Aspirations Casual
Political Leaning
Religions none but spiritual  
Eating Habits HOT WINGS, Clams, Shrimp, Scallops, Fish, Sea food, Stews, Garlic, Lots of Tea, spices and herbs  
Wild Fact About Me Once drifted to sleep while on horseback after having an exhausting day in the warm sun and my horse walked all the way back home without my help, never wavering from the path back to home. My hero. LoL.
My Philosophy Treat others like you would want to be treated. -- Don't ever use the use of "FORCE" or scary threats to get some one to do something you want, or force upon another with how fast you think they should get some things accomplished.--- STOP being SELFISH, SELFABSORBED, SUPERIOR, SHALLOW, "IMPATIENT" and CONTROLLING!
What Gives Me Hope Smiles from others. My 4-legged children (dog,cat,fish). Good friends. Running into non-controlling, non-abusive, smiling people.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by Start the use of solar powered, electric or clean fueled vehicles. ----- That all individuals would have to take a lie-detector test when asked if they hit, threatened or shoved their partner first in an abuse case in the relationship (to help end the falsely accusing of an innocent victim in the relationship).
-----Stop the use of nasty chemicals, which winds up in our water system, into animals and the air.
------ Have schools for teenagers and adults to truly learn what respect of others is, real love means, and to learn being concerned, unselfabsorbed and to be giving to others, to stop using money/material things or outer looks as being much more important than a good human being and what that human being can offer beside those things.
What/who changed my life and why
What Bugs Me Women who treat a good Man like crap., any one that would hurt a woman, UnThankful people, UnAppreciative people, Using force tactics, Impatience, bullying, Being ignored, I am alive, but It is like I'm dead., Men who have meaning of 'Man' backwards., ignorance, arro  
Passions My pets, laughter, my friends, photography, trees, nature  
Inspirations patient people, Birds chirping, a gentle breeze, the wind, the beauty of nature, good people, the beauty of nature  
What Scares Me Being treated like temporary convenience, A male who says everyone is replaceable, Being treated like disposeable garbage, People obsessing on looks of others, Men obsessed on money, Losing the ones I love, Disrespect for o  
  Favorites
Role Models People who enjoy doing kindness, Any1 who remains longterm relationships  
Quotation ""When there is real love (and respect) the right way, anything you aim for is possible.""
Interests Driftwood collecting, Crystals, environment, herbs, wildlife, aromatherapy, nature photography, long walks, hiking, fishing, crabbing, lakes, botanical gardens, horses, barbequeing, bonsai, martial arts, acoustic guitar music, pick up trucks, camaros, parks, zoos, indoor aquar  
Books  
Music Piano pieces, Acoustic guitar music., Native American Indian flute music., Jewel, country (up tempo), evensence, john mayer, classic rock, new age, more  
Movies Waiting to exhale, Robert De Niro, Pulp Fiction, Dances with Wolves, Anything w/Al Pacino, Anything w/Robert De Niro, Hope Floats, Pretty Woman, Kill Me Later, The Matrix, Men In Black  
TV Shows T.A.P.S, Ghost hunters, Street Court, Pinks All Out - Drag racing, That 70's Show, SciFi, Discovery Channel, Animal Planet, Dirty jobs with MikeRowe, TAPS paranormal investigators, Dog The Bounty Hunter, Orange County Choppers, Food Network, Discovery channel  
Favorite Foods Duck stew, Bacon cheese burgers, Tomatos, Garlic bread with cheese, Onion and mozzarella soup, wonton soup, Eggs, Lasagna, Calzone, Pizza, Mussels, seafood, Hot wings, Almost everything  
Favorite Places Away from my 'life-destroying' family, Lush tall forests, waterfalls, Lakes, creeks, West Virginia, being in the woods, Pennsylvania, Poconos  
Can't Live Without My partner who died of cancer, laughter, being in forests, nature, going on long walks on trails, A respectful partner, My pets, nature photography, good friends  
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Nov 21, 2009 1:54 AM

Michelle D. (134)
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Thinking of you always, my friend!
Have a great weekend!
~luv & hugs
~Michelle
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Nov 18, 2009 2:56 AM

Michelle D. (134)
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I hope your week is good so far!!
~luv & hugs
~Michelle
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Nov 16, 2009 2:00 AM

Michelle D. (134)

I am thankful for your frienship!
~luv & hugs
~Michelle
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Nov 13, 2009 11:04 AM

Michelle D. (134)
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Hey Christina!
I missed ya girl!
Big big hugs
~Michelle

Aug 15, 2009 6:08 PM

Betty P. (130)

Hi, Chris:



I think that you had enough vacations ...Where are you? Are you okey?




Hoping that everything is fine around you. God bless you.

xoxo,
Your friend,
Betty,



Aug 8, 2009 4:54 AM

Betty P. (130)

Dear Chris:

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For remember my Bday, I miss to hear more often from you, How are you doing lately, Girl?
XOXO,
Your Friend,
Betty,


Jun 9, 2009 2:25 AM

Betty P. (130)

Dear Christina:

Happy belated Bday!!! Late but I did not forget your special day. (I am having some health issues but that's it)






Wishing you had a good one!
XOXO,
Your Friend,
Betty,


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Nov 6, 2007 10:50 PM

Michelle D. (134)

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~luv & hugs
~Michelle


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Sep 15, 2007 2:48 PM

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Sending Love and wishing you a funtabulous weekend..


Aug 18, 2007 6:11 AM

Michelle D. (134)
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Thanks for being a great friend!
~luv & hugs
~Michelle

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Aug 5, 2007 3:40 AM

Michelle D. (134)
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I hope you have a great weekend!
~luv & hugs
~Michelle

Aug 4, 2007 5:18 PM

Christine C. (21)
Have A Happy Weekend!
 

Jul 24, 2007 4:24 AM

Michelle D. (134)

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Thanks for being my friend!
Wishing you the best week ever!
~luv & hugs
~Michelle
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Jul 21, 2007 5:12 AM

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