"To do the best I can everyday"

Cassatt, SC, USA
female, age 44
divorced, 2 children
Speaks: english
Joined Oct 17, 2006

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Let's see here hummmmmmmmm.....I am a single mom of 2 and they are my life. We have pets that we dearly love. My house is like a zoo sometimes but it's home. Animals give unconditional love. What would we do without them? They love you no matter what. I know that i'm not the only one out there that does this secret thing...Yes I am a cutter. Ya'll do not know how hard it was for me to say that but it's true. I can't really remember the first time I cut but I know that it started when I was a teenager. I still cut when all hope seems lost and the world seems like it has turned it back on you. Then I feel guilty because of my 2 wonderful kids. What would they think? I was in a releationship with my kids dad for 20yrs. and it was not a good union. I was beat on more than a few occasions and the verbal abuse was even worse. nobody knows till they walk a couple of miles in your shoes. Thats when the cutting got really at it's worst.. Daily sometimes several times daily. I couldn't control anything ealse in my life but I could control that. It was like a feeling of realse when I cut. It was actually the only pleasing feeling that I could feel...Please do not judge me because of this...Maybe this this will help others in some way that cut too. I hate this secret but at the moment it helps...I am so trying to find other ways to cope when the times get rough and some are actually working!!!I know that I am a strong woman, an independent woman...I have been on my own for about 5yrs now and things have really gotten better...My children are loved and now they have peace and happiness within the household.