An exhausted mom who very much hopes she has settled her karmic debts in this lifetime-am NOT up to another go on Earth!Its a VERY hard school-and some folks end up taking accellerated courses-which arent any fun at all!The average person who bemoans their"dull"plebian life does not realize they are truly blessed!Theres a Chinese curse"May you live in Interesting Times"-these times are entirely too interesting-and the signs that things will calm down in the future arent great.I hope to wait out the "interesting "times in a quiet corner of Heaven somewhere .With luck God(Mom/Dad)-wont make me go to school again THIS century!Now-if could only negotiate an early release withour crushing guilt...ah well-a conscience IS an expensive affliction!As Robert Frost said-"i've promises to keep-and miles to go ere i sleep!"
Electronics commit hara kiri in my presence-a 2nd cousin shares this affliction with me;she was once accused of being responsible for taking an entire banks linked computer systems down-everytime she walked in!Bank begged her to use drive-in windows!
If we all lived by the Golden Rule(basically,treat others as you yourself would like to be treated.)-this world would be a much happier place.Most people are more alike than not;there may be small cultural or physical differences,but most of us want the same basic things(food,shelter,companionship,peace)-an d if we focus on what we all have in common instead of our differences,we might have a chance at getting along.Instead,we make up barriers to exclude each other.Then we waste an incredible amount of time,resources,and lives in nasty conflicts that can escalate into world-wide wars! We'd all be better off focusing on doing what we'll need to do to survive the climate shift-not warring against each other over dwindling fossil fuels that are choking our atmosphere with trapped heat .
What Gives Me Hope
The essential kindness of the people i meet;most are lovely souls.If we take the time to find common ground,we discover the essential humanity of other people;when they become real to us,it is harder to mistreat them. In my lifetime,ive found that most ugly attitudes are sown by ignorance or fear;both can cured by judicious education-and compassion.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
Stop corporate welfare for oil companies,defense contractors,multinational banks,other multinational huge corporations that dont need it-and start subsidizing organic transitional farmers,town and city recycling programs,wind farms,solar power companies( homeowners businesses who wish to make the transition to greener power).
Id make sure US citizens received access to top of the line medical services.Id stop the War on Americans by decriminalizing drugs,and establishing much more cost effective treatment centers(which have the additional advantage of higher sucess rates than jails revolving-door system?)Id also restore voting rights to US citizens deprived of them for drug charges-provided they had no history of violent or dishonest behavior that indicates poor judgement.I would also allow records to be expunged of drug offenses,and provide vocational training to former addicts to make it possible for them to avoid financial pitfalls that could make a return to drug dealing attractive.These people are ill-not criminals;reams of research links addiction issues to genetic social factors often beyond an addicts control.The only drug activity that would still be punishable by imprisonment would be the manufacture and selling of drugs that cause toxic environmental waste(i.e.street manufactured CNS stimulants.)To deal with this,id refund the task forces that Bush defunded(because HE didn't care if working class neighborhoods were blanketed by residue from illegal lab explosions!)And with Super Fund defunded,clean-ups are likely to be a LONG time coming(if EVER!)
I would repeal laws capping injury lawsuits for unsafe or toxic products-thereby inspiring companies selling products for US consumers to make better ones.Id require all federal and state parks to use safer pest control methods-with an emphasis on biocontrol agents.Id stop the logging and mining that G.W.Bush initiated in our public forests and parklands-and make the logging companies replant and care for EVERY tree cut down on public parklands.Each tree replaced can absorb 1ton of carbon in its lifetime(of course,this carbon is released when the tree is logged-or dies.)More trees would mean more oxygen;theyd also absorb pollutants and reduce temperatures,thereby reducing stress on on all living things-including humans!
With a healthier population,we'd reap the benefits in additional economic productivity and less crime.Since much of our crime is associated with drug activity and untreated mental illness-and these would also be reduced under our new laws-we would see a reduction in the social decay and destruction of families that results from these problems.
I would emphasize education for our citizens;and would hire qualified teachers at decent salaries.College would be within reach for all US citizens,and graduates would no longer start their professional lives under a mountain of debt.
I would initiate a new "Green Deal"-in which id rebuild our nation's power and infrastructure(roads,bridges,power plants,etc.)-with the best materials we can possibly afford,and the most ecologically friendly that we have the current tech to provide.This would provide millions of American citizens with employment for a long time.With new earth friendly power plants(hydroelectric,wind,solar,geothermal, etc)-we could begin the arduous process of shutting down and decommisioning our aging nuclear power plants.
With our weather systems deteriorating,we daren't wait for another Fukishima;25 yrs.after Chernobyl,after Three Mile Island,and lesser known nuclear mishaps,its insane that we still use plants that produce waste that will be dangerous to life on our planet for millenia!
I would do everything within my power to encourage our allies and neighbors on this planet to follow suit in limiting carbon emissions.I would also work tirelessly to encourage the scrapping of all nuclear weapons,so that they could never be functional again.Id also make sure we located and recovered the "lost"bombs we dropped outside of Georgia(look it up-no one can FIND the thing!)-and in the Pacific ocean.The sheer scope of our armed forces carelessness with nuclear weapons and environmental poisons would take your breath away.Our military is also our biggest polluter;even corporate polluters are dwarfed next to our Department of Defense.I wouldnt disband our armies-but they'd need to clean up their environmentally reckless ways.
Id also refund our SuperFund(G.W.Bush eviscerated SuperFund,declaring that American taxpayers,not corporate polluters,should pay for toxic waste cleanup!)Thats equivalent to making a homeowner pay damages instead of the thief after a home invasion!Polluters would pay-not the affected citizens.We've paid ENOUGH!
Im sure id be universally hated by very powerful men and could expect a very short life expectancy.Still,id do it EVERY time.I have a very short life expectancy NOW,as a result of environmental contaminants and questionable medical treatments for a cancer that resulted from pesticide exposure.(The same pesticide also gave my dog cancer;he has been gone since 1986.)Ultimately,it has killed both of us.I've just had a bit of difficulty letting go because of promises to loved ones,and will be a bit late coming Home.
Even in my present limited state,i can see what desperately needs to be done to alleviate our present problems;and i would do it in spite of any opposition or threats to my person.
What/who changed my life and why
My dear Nana;I owe many debts of love and gratitude to many precious people-but she gave me the keys to entering the incredible world of the written word.She taught me to read.Because of her saintly patience,i was able to travel through books in time and to places that have vanished-or that i will never visit in this lifetime.Because of her efforts i have flown to other planets,and entered new dimensions with the grand old men(and women!)-of science fiction.I have traveled the roads of Rome,and trekked the Silk road in camel-led caravans.Ive supped at the Round Table with King Arthur,and followed Merlin in his travels.I've met Marley alongside Scrooge,and visited with each Christmas Spirit.Charles Dickens,Samuel Clemens(Mark Twain),Thomas Hardy,Jane Austin,Edgar Allen Poe,H.P.Lovecraft,H.G.Wells,Guy de Maupassant,Kafka,,Oscar Wilde,Kahlil Gibran,Omar Khayyam,William Shakesphere,W.Yeats,Robert Burns,Robert Frost,Sylvia Plathe,Walt Whitman-these classic authors shaped my mind in my youth.And to an illustrous roll call of fabulous authors i also owe an enormous debt-from my childhood darling companions-Asoep's Fables,Beatrix Potter,Anna Seward,CM Montgomery,Laura Ingalls Wilder,C.S.Lewis,M.L'Engle,A.L.Milne, James Herriot-to my first science fiction guardians-Frank Herbert,Ursula LeGuin,Issac Asimov,Clifford Simak,Arthur Clark,Roger Zelanzy,Robert Heinlein,Anne McCaffrey,Phillip Dick,Ray Bradbury,Harlan Ellison, Margaret Atwood,Aldous Huxley,Kurt Vonnegut,Whitley Striber,Stephen King-the list of authors who i owe a debt of gratitude to is endless. Even nonfiction authors have profoundly changed my life-from Douglas Tallemy's "Bringing Nature Home's inspiring me to plant native flora to sustain wildlife, -to James Dukes wonderful"Green Pharmacy"(which is one of many excellent herbal medicine tomes ive read-including a duplicate of Culpeppers!)-which have expanded my knowledge of herbal medicine.All have shaped the woman i am today.And i owe it all to my Nana,Margaret Estelle Liddell(nee Harvey-Mitchell) This tiny little woman was a well of unimpeachable compassion and kindness to her family,friends,neighbors-and even strangers.She had the patience of a saint and was a Pied Piper of children(she taught Sunday School for 23 years!)Because of her incredible patience with her great-grand-daughter,I was able to read the writings of and meet the minds of some of the most. remarkable souls that ever put pen to paper. I thank her every time I read a book or article.I thank her as i write this entry.I owe her an eternal debt of gratitude for her excellence as a teacher-and grandmother!
For the gift of literacy is a jewel beyond price;and it is only one of the many great treasures this woman gave me.
In her kindness,compassion and honesty towards every soul,i learned how to treat people.
From her gentleness,i learned how to care for children and animals-indeed all living creatures.
From her careful attention to not uttering unkind words,and in her endless capacity to forgive,i learned the true value of compassion.
From her inspired creativity,i learned to draw,paint,sculpt,sew,and embroider.From her truly delicious dessert and candy-making i learned to love culinary arts.
From her love of green things,i too became a lifelong gardener.
In caring for her birds;i too became a fierce defender of birds,and all wildlife-domesticated or not.
From her unconditional love,which was always there,my guiding star,i learned the true meaning of unselfish love for others.
Finally,her strong faith lit the way Home for me-even though in my smug youth i am ashamed to admit id told her it was little more than antiquated superstition!
It was only when i grew up a bit,and had more experience of our world,that i began to become aware of the existance of a spiritual realm.One that was undeniably real,despite all wishful protests to the contrary!For,if we admit the existance of a spiritual realm--than we inevitably conclude that what we do in this life DOES matter-and not only in this lifetime.
I owe my Nana so much,and for so many things,it would take lifetimes to repay her.Yet she gave of herself without stint or thought of compensation-with love.Never did she let me feel i was a burden-and at times the stubborn little girl i was would've tried the patience of a saint.Why,i even pulled the beard off of old Saint Nick!(A friend of my Nana's from church who had kindly agreed to visit her little grand-daughter during his busy holiday season-he was NOT amused!)My Nana was mortified,of course-the only regret i have(I never trusted Santa's motives-a supernatural stranger who watches me ALL the time?I have to crawl into his lap to beg for toys?No thanks-i'll pass!)
While ive been blessed with some incredibly loving,supportive family and friends in this lifetime(each of which i could easily write a heartfelt "Thank You"to)-my Nana is the person who had the most profoundly positive effect on my life.She is one of most self-less,authenically kind souls i've ever encountered;and even after she left this earth,she continued to be a source of inspiration,guidance,and comfort to her family.
God Bless and Keep you always,Dear Nana.
I await the day that we can all be together again at our Home in the gentle green hills of Heaven.