I have a sharp tongue with a soft heart. In my heart of hearts, I'm a solitary creature by nature. This means I'm withdrawn, introverted, jaded, and neurotic. I'm bit of an misanthrope but an idealist simultaneously. I am an animal welfare advocate am a vegetarian. I was taught to believe to adhere to the sensitivity of others and be a good person. But, sometimes, I can be a really twisted deviant if I wanted to be. (Who says I'm not already?)
I am a BDSM, kink and edgeplay enthusiast and I would be considered as a masochist/submissive in the lifestyle. But, I prefer normal, equal, monogamous relationships (i.e. boyfriend, girlfriend) as opposed to power exchange, swinging, polyamory and the BDSM hierarchy (i.e. Master/slave etc.)
I'm just beginning to discover Buddhism and from what I have learned so far, it's the religion/philosophical doctrine that makes the most damn sense that I've ever heard. All your beliefs, views, opinions, and religious disposition doesn't matter as long as you practice loving-kindness and compassion in your daily life towards all living things. It doesn't matter who you are. In the end only kindness matters. We are all connected and related. It's loving-kindness, compassion, and love that can merge humanity as a whole. Pacifism is only way that humanity can co-exist. One day, I hope to take vows to become a Bodhisattva.
Externally, I can appear angry, troubled, or even exuberant. But, internally is a world that's constantly seeking a silver lining in this web called life. I may be a lot things and I may be nothing at all. It all depends on your perception of me. But what really matters is the ideal of oneself. That's something that I'm still struggling with. But, then again, so is every other human being on the planet. I say the most outrageous things, and sometimes they can sound quite harsh, but that doesn't exempt me from being compassionate towards all living things. The Buddha in the least has taught us that. Besides that, I always relish pursuing my endless desire for knowledge of all kinds.
Ugly. Is irrelevant. It is an immeasurable insult to a woman, and then supposedly the worst crime you can commit as a woman. But ugly, as beautiful, is an illusion. - Margaret Cho.