Hello!! First off I want to apologize to my penpal friends, have been very sick and not been able to reply back accordingly. so my apologies on that matter. My daddy came from the States to visit!! he is still going to be here for another week, and I do believe that he has had a good time over here. My anxiety has been really bad, Ive been trying my best in order for nobody to see it, but has been hard. Hope that everyone is doing awesome!!
Blessings in the light!!!
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* Today is Nov 18th
Man, yesterday I was sooo tired!!!,got home and slept so much...ever since my tv got broken, my imagination just flies regarding my dreams... Sigh,I wish I was eating ice cream right now!!!!! I hope that everyone has a blessed week!
Today is Nov 14th
I had an awesome bday! Chris and Gerald threw a party for me, I wore a new dress, gorgeous by the way... Saw the "Fisher King" with Robin Williams, faboulous of course!
Then my beau and I turned our 2 years anniversary! I gave him lots of gifts, and stayed home and slept nice and sound. I just love him!
Today is October the 27th
It was a very nice weekend! I stayed with Patito on friday then I left for my house, and I fell,:(
My ankle is a little bit swollen, and I had to throw away the shoes, because they were in really bad shape...afterwards a guy was suppose to come to make some repairs in the house...that did not happened, so I got ready and my friend came by to pick us up to get ready for the party! It was really fun, and talked a lot, and had a Piñata! Yesterday just went swell, and watch the Notebook, gosh it was beautiful but sad. And Ocean's 13.
Have a blessed week!!
Today is October the 20th
Busy,busy weekend!! I sent a letter to Jen, then I had to go look for my dad's radio, after waiting for more than 40 mins for the person that had it,went back to downtown to wait for Prometeo. We picked up the stuff for Met's party,then left them at my place, they invited me for lunch, so picked up KFC on the way to their house. Watch 3 episodes of Aliens in America, is a very funny and cute show.Then played some video games. Then I went to see Astrid, to celebrate her birthday.Went to Goyi for sushi! Had a great time! At night Patito went to stay for the night and it was great. Sunday went for some groceries, got some left over sushi, and listen to some music! Besides cleaning of course! Well that is the beginning of the week... Have a wonderful one yourself.
Today is October the 14th
I'm really excited! I'm rescuing a fish tank! The owner doesn't want it anymore...and I was looking for one, is pretty big at least for me, and Im not getting anything from the Sea. I'm getting 3 fishes!they come with the fish tank...And hopefully we'll be getting a dryer this weekend, so I can finnally do my laundry... Going shopping this weekend for a surprise bday party!! Really happy about it because Chris and Gerald have being wonderful friends and they deserve the best!
*************************************** Today is October the 9th
This is such a great day! One of my friends at work brought me this really cool coin purse from Rwanda! Plus today we have a party to attend, food is always good! And Im planning a party, its going to be soooo much fun! Keep you post it!
Ps: Patito, I love you1! *************************************** Today is October the 8th
Havent being here in a while,and everytime I seem to say the same! Shame on me really... Havent heard from my dear penpal friends, I sent them letters with gifts last time, hope that they arrived safely! Going to write to them soon again. My dad came from the states to visit me and it was really fun! Problem was that I got an anxiety attack short after he left, the dr sent me home for 2 days, and I spend them with my friends Christian and Gerald, who luckily enough had taken vacation for both days. Went to the movies, ate good food, talked, and played lots of board games. It was awesome! and Im feeling a whole lot better! Im still thinking about what Im going to study in college, due to the fact that I have postponed it for 2 yrs now.Any ideas??*sos*
Anywho, Hope that you are having a wonderful day!! Blessings in the light!
PS: Patito, I love you!
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*- Today is August the 8th Havent being able to be here in a while, and Ive missed it!! Well now Im really happy with where I stand right now. I love the way that I am becoming the person who I really want to be, and be surrounded by positive people. I decided with many people and situations the insight of the book series of a very good vampire slayer...Ghosts can do u harm as long as u pay attention to them...
Today is Dec 9th Am in Mikes house, My brother in law is listening to rock...Mike is reading the newspaper and I am IM' my dad...am a lil bit sad because I have to give my apt because my landlord came and ask for it yesterday, in a way, I feel that its going to be a good experience, but am nervous at the same time but am really grateful to have Mike by my side, he takes care of me...I love him so much... -*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*--* Today is Dec 2nd TYesterday I received a call from my ex boyfriend, who basically took my life and destroyed, he only said Hi how are u...and the only thing that I did was hanging up the phone, all the anxiety that I ever felt came back, all the fear of being treaten to death, to have lost my dignity and best friends...I spend the day with Mike, we went to se Beowulf, that even though it was computer animated it scared the crap out of me, prolly because the state my nerves were in...I really thank all the higher powers for giving me Mike, for being able to share my life with such a wonderful human being, full of love and hope,he is just to beautiful...I just wish for him to be happy,to succed at life, to accomplish his dreams, and luckily Ill be by his side. *-*-*-*-*-**--*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-**-*-*-*-*--*--*-*- Today is Nov11th am in a cafe internet, Mike is walking Daray, and because I am a lil sick, Mike asked me to stay calm due to the fact that am not home... Am 21 now, wow, I never thought that Ill make it , I know that it sounds like a very negative thought, but many things happened in order for me to use to think that way... Many people is already decorating their houses for x'mas, its crazy, this is the first time that Ill be on my own for that, my grandma still upset with me, and I miss my dad and my friends back in the states horribly... I have Mike, and am very fortunate in that way, he is a great guy,I think that the best feeling that I can possibly get its him saying good morning on sundays, I truly love him, and I do hope for us to be together forever... *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*--*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*--
Oct 23rd Today its being a sunny day, am close to my boyfriends house, yet he does not know this... I being feeling better, I being getting really bad anxiety attacks...and my paranoia has being really bad,keeping me away from reality sometimes...it sucks not having internet at home...that way i can do research and help people cuz thats what i really want to do... *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*
I cant wait to see my boyfriend!!
*********************************************************** Today am at work and I had such a terrible time trying to sleep last night, am being having a lot of nightmares lately,basically chasings and demons that theyre mouths turn black, they are very odd actually, saturday and am working, hearing everybody calling complaining for meaningless things... My stomach has being bothering me, and one of my friends and I think that is just my nerves and that am stressed out, problem is that I dont know how to relax....
********************************************************** Dear mother moon...I feel so sad...sometimes i feel like falling in oblivion and not worrying for anything else but the breeze in my hair, my beloved tender lips touching mine...and seeing u on the sky....
************************************************************* I love the clouds and how the move in the middle of my hair making me feel light...within the sunshine and the dark
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Today is January the 11th, for some reason this where I write does not let me open it up, so I have to do it down here, and with this colors that I dont like that much,jejeFirst, I will like to apologize to all of my penpals, I am sorry you have not heard from me, I got you all a very small thing, but because of the lack of money, I have not being able to send it yet, and am sorry....this days I have being very sensible about comments, prolly because my period is coming, or Jen is going to have the baby sometime soon...but it just sucks, everything its money...many people that I cared about its far away...my parents forever fighting trough me...and all the odd relationships that each one of them has...trying to look and to feel pretty, and still you dont feel satisfied with the results,trying to manage not to loose your life to the wind...am not having thoughts of hurting myself or any of that, its just that I will like to do things right for a chance...A comment that Mike did hurt me and he does not understand why...he uses the care2 as well, and I used to put silly things on his page because I thought I was being cute, for a while, that was the only type of communication that existed in my world,for being far...and also because of the lack of money,and I wanted everybody that knows him here that I loved him deeply, and even though it might have looked childish and silly, it made me feel good, and happy..... I think about a lot of poerty, and it has the perfect rhyme and the perfect words, but none comes when I actually got the paper infront of me, it slips my mind, to the world of where they go to sleep until we wake them up again...I guess that am just sad because I try to be the best daughter, the best girlfriend, the best friend, and to my eyes,am not accomplishing them, no matter how hard I try, or how much I would liked too....am always positive,and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...
I have 3 tattoos, and am planning to have more!!:-)
be myself, be strong
What Gives Me Hope
the sun rising everyday, my wonderful boyfriend, Mike is the greatest ever, he supports me and he is there for me, I love him...
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
to find a way to not use so much water so that the future generations can enjoy it as well.
What/who changed my life and why
Well breaking up with the first guy that i ever loved because that thought me to listen to myself and to the ones that care about me, and "What Dreams May Come" that is the movie that always gets me going because it teaches about hope and love that knows no measures.
Only a night from old to new! Always a night from old to new! And in the first day, My wishes are few: The beginning of the end Of all wars in the world That all the soldiers safe return home The beginning of the end Of the prejudice, intolerance, racism Hunger, greed, attacks to life. After that night is the first new dawn And may we can start from the beginning, Living together, without haste In union with kind Mother Earth.
... I wish you a new year full of Love and Peace my Friend Ana
A child is... A butterfly in the wind, Some can fly higher than others; But each one flies the best they can. Why compare one against the other? Each one is different! Each one is special! Each one is beautiful!
I wish you a great friday and a wonderful weekend my special friend With Love Ana
If you understand Nature, The deer will eat from your hand. The sun makes the plants, Animals eat the plants, The humans eat the animals, and Earth needs the humans to take care of it. So you see, as you stare into the endless sky, we live from our Mother Gaia's birth, and if you understand Nature, The deer will eat from your hand. And we all, plants, animals, humans, are children of the Earth
Little children, never give Pain to things that feel and live Let the gentle robin come For the crumbs you save at home As his meat you throw along He’ll repay you with a song. Never hurt the timid hare Peeping from her green grass lair Let her come and sport and play On the lawn at close of day. The little lark goes soaring high To the bright windows of the sky Singing as if t'were always spring And fluttering on an untired wing Oh! Let him sing his happy song Nor do these gentle creatures wrong.
Sorry we never got to meet while I was here in Costa Rica, however, I will be with you in spirit while you celebrate your Birthday. Hoping you have a great time celebrating your Birthday with good friends, eat a piece of cake for me. May every wish and desire be fulfilled in the year to come. Take good care of Costa Rica. Violette
Three ghosts knocking on my door, I gave them candy now they want more! Down the street, here comes a nurse, and a mummy clearly under a curse. Thankfully it's only just one night (or my candy bill would give me a fright!) I'm glad it s only once a year So sit back and enjoy - - Halloween is here!
As I think of our friendship, I always see Mere words can't describe what you mean to me. When this cold, hard world makes me sad and blue I look up to see my sweet friend, You. No matter the miles that keep us apart We're always together in each other's hearts You're the moon in my sky, the shoulder where I lie. the field where I play. You're everything I am, everything for you I'll do. So what I am saying is I LOVE YOU!
"Most of people does not know the power of love and friendship until they need a helping hand. Love cures, friendship puts the band-aid and, makes easy the time of suffering with sweet cares. I will never thank you enought my dear, sweet friends or, give you enought love. Be always blessed."
There's nothing as nice As someone who shares, Your laughter, your secrets, Your wishes and cares, Someone who's there Through your good times and tears, Who stays by your side As your friend through the years.
"We call that person who has lost his father, an orphan; and a widower that man who has lost his wife. But that who has known the immense unhappiness of losing a friend, by what name do we call him? Here every language is silent and holds its peace in impotence."