My Inner Self and True Nature Although I have lofty ideals and I'm high-minded in many ways, there is a side of me that is sly, funny, and really cannot take anything too seriously. My sense of humor saves me from becoming overly earnest about myself or the things I believe in. I am, in many ways, an eternal child. My mind is bright, alert, curious, flexible, playful and always eager for new experiences--and my attention span is often quite brief. I grasp ideas quickly and once my initial curiosity has been satisfied, I want to go on to something else. I crave frequent change, variety, meeting new situations and people. It may be hard for me to decide just where my talents and true vocation lie, for I have a multitude of interests and I'm loathe to limit myself by concentrating on just one. I am easily distracted by all of the other fascinating possibilities. My curiosity and restlessness propel me into many different experiences in life, and I am willing to taste or try anything once. Doing the same thing over and over again, even it is something I do well, is real drudgery for me. I live in my own head a great deal--reading, observing, thinking, spinning ideas around--and I need mental stimulation every bit as much as I need food and drink. In fact, if I have to choose between a good book or movie and a good lunch, I would very likely choose the former. I have a creative mind and often live by my wits. I am also a very social creature, with a strong need to communicate and to interact with people. I enjoy using and playing with words and have a real flair for getting my ideas across in a clever, interesting, articulate manner. Writing or speaking are areas I have talent for. I also have a rather light and mischievous sense of humor, and often do not take anything too seriously. Though I crave emotional involvement, it is hard for me to achieve it, for I'm frequently unwilling to commit myself to anything, to take responsibility, or to limit my personal freedom and mobility. My happiness lies in using my creativity and language skills to communicate something meaningful, to teach, inspire, or bring people together. I have an unbiased mind and can usually offer a fresh, clear, uncluttered perspective. My faults are my lack of constancy and persistence, and my tendency to overlook or ignore deep emotional issues and other people's feelings. I am a private person and inclined to withdraw in very public and impersonal social settings. I prefer to work at home or in a very personal small business. I invest a lot of my creative energy into my home, my family and my inner life. I have big aspirations and the desire to succeed in life in a grand way. I tend to exaggerate, to promise more than is possible and to misjudge through being overly optimistic. However, I never lose my hopes for the future. Restlessness and discontent with responsibilities and limitations in life can be troublesome for me. However, I also have a heavier side which keeps my optimism from becoming ungrounded or overblown. I tend to seesaw between my faith, vision and high aspirations, and my caution and realism (or fear!). I cannot and do not rely on good luck or grace alone, and I accept the need for hard work. My doubting or "heavy" side is described below. Realistic and practical, I set goals for myself that are modest enough for me to actually achieve. I'm able to tackle long, difficult projects and see them through, for I possess self-discipline, concentration and perseverance. I also have a strong sense of responsibility and am very conscientious in fulfilling my obligations. Often I do things because I feel it is expected of me. While I am realistic and conscientious (or overly conscientious), as described above, I also have an otherworldly, dreamy, or mystically-inclined side, as described below. I'am intensely willful, zealous, and fanatical, though often I hide the intensity of my feelings and personal motives and desires. I have an infatuation with power and an almost compulsive desire for personal recognition, the desire to be Somebody. I tend to worship Heroes who have powerful personal magnetism and charisma, and often seek to emulate them. I also have both a fear of, and an intense fascination with, death and the hidden, secret, dark side of life. I tend to be very impressionable and psychically open, and as a youngster, I could have been dominated by more forceful personalities. Afraid of confrontation, I may become passive, identified myself as a helpless victim, or tried to gain my desires in underhanded ways. My hypersensitivity to my environment is apt to be a challenge for me in other ways as well. Pollutants, ugliness or dissonance in any form is apt to affect me more than most people.
Life is a blast; with age and fun life speeds up, faster and faster.
What Gives Me Hope
Living my Father's will.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
Redo the Goverment system and stop taking from the poor to give to the rich. Make the rich pay for they're wealth; especially those who where born into it or step on people to get it. I'd also make sure that the poor who are getting help are the ones who really need it; not frauds.
What/who changed my life and why
Stephen King; I wanted to read more, so I learned to read, better. And later, "The Holy Bible" cleaned me up so I now walk with Jesus.