I have two furry children- Anu and Boadicea both are spoiled and they rarely get along with each; or so they would have me believe- they have been caught on more than one occasion sleeping not more than a foot apart from the other- they have never been caught cuddling, and I don't think that they ever will, but I know that they secretly do like each other. Anu unfortunately has lost 5 teeth recently due to bad dental care by Mom (me) and age- I feel horrible about this especially because 2 of the teeth that she lost were the canines- no more fangs for my big bad kitty but I love them both and they love me, any way we will say that until the first teeth brushing episode starts- then we'll see if I am still liked or loved or the human that is allowed to live here because I get the food in the mornings.
I no longer work in the NICU- in fact I have not worked there since January 2008- I was on Medical Leave/ FMLA- well that has now ran out, my job is in the process of being replaced; I am told that I still technically work for the hospital and that I am now on Personal Leave- and when I am released to go back to work, whenever that may be- if that every does happen- I am eligible for re-hire if there is a position open that I am qualified for. Right now I just feel completely lost- I was always the one that knew what they were going to do when they grew up- now I have no idea what I am going to do tomorrow. It is frustrating being so confused and not knowing where my life is headed- this is not an exciting roller coaster ride- this is not one that I got onto by choice, nor is it one that I know how to get off of- and I want off very badly- it isn't any fun being afraid of your own life- or having your entire family being scared for you because they don't know what to do for you or how to help you. All I want is my life back- not necessarily the way that it was, but some where close to it would be nice. Waking up and knowing that this nightmare was going to be over soon would make me very happy.
I have odd likes such as, winnie the pooh, nine inch nails, classical music (I play the piano), pink, black, GLITTER-okay, so as Megan puts it,I am a perky goth- but these days I am more of a not so perky goth- I am still wearing black and dark colors but I am reverting back to what made me happy- my childhood- and I have found that in gothic lolita- not the sweet stuff- can't bring myself to do the cute little girlie stuff- still wear dark colors and black- but I have gone back to dresses, skirts, ribbons and lace.