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Sara S.

"To fill the empty void"

Nampa, ID, USA
female, age 38
married
Speaks: English
Joined Jul 24, 2006


 
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I am still figuring all of this out....here is a little something about me.
I am an only child, and the only/first girl on both sides of the family-yes I am spoiled and I have a hard time sharing my toys. I met my husband online-we have been married for over 10 years-damn that's a long time. You can see a beautiful video montage of some photos that were taken at our renewal ceremony/hand fast- the video was put together by my dear husband/computer geek and then posted on youtube- I can't figure out how to embed the link- so basically you can view it by going to YouTube and search for 'Handfast Blessing'.
I have two furry children- Anu and Boadicea both are spoiled and they rarely get along with each; or so they would have me believe- they have been caught on more than one occasion sleeping not more than a foot apart from the other- they have never been caught cuddling, and I don't think that they ever will, but I know that they secretly do like each other. Anu unfortunately has lost 5 teeth recently due to bad dental care by Mom (me) and age- I feel horrible about this especially because 2 of the teeth that she lost were the canines- no more fangs for my big bad kitty but I love them both and they love me, any way we will say that until the first teeth brushing episode starts- then we'll see if I am still liked or loved or the human that is allowed to live here because I get the food in the mornings.
I no longer work in the NICU- in fact I have not worked there since January 2008- I was on Medical Leave/ FMLA- well that has now ran out, my job is in the process of being replaced; I am told that I still technically work for the hospital and that I am now on Personal Leave- and when I am released to go back to work, whenever that may be- if that every does happen- I am eligible for re-hire if there is a position open that I am qualified for. Right now I just feel completely lost- I was always the one that knew what they were going to do when they grew up- now I have no idea what I am going to do tomorrow. It is frustrating being so confused and not knowing where my life is headed- this is not an exciting roller coaster ride- this is not one that I got onto by choice, nor is it one that I know how to get off of- and I want off very badly- it isn't any fun being afraid of your own life- or having your entire family being scared for you because they don't know what to do for you or how to help you. All I want is my life back- not necessarily the way that it was, but some where close to it would be nice. Waking up and knowing that this nightmare was going to be over soon would make me very happy.
I have odd likes such as, winnie the pooh, nine inch nails, classical music (I play the piano), pink, black, GLITTER-okay, so as Megan puts it,I am a perky goth- but these days I am more of a not so perky goth- I am still wearing black and dark colors but I am reverting back to what made me happy- my childhood- and I have found that in gothic lolita- not the sweet stuff- can't bring myself to do the cute little girlie stuff- still wear dark colors and black- but I have gone back to dresses, skirts, ribbons and lace.
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Hometown Nampa, ID 
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Birthday Sept 04, 1975  
Languages English  
About Me I love learning, friends, and family. I have a bad habit of perfectionism and occasional anal retentiveness. This has recently had a DSM-IV diagnosis/explanation given to it- I already knew part of it, but some of it has completely thrown me for a loop and I am just not coping well with any of it- I am feeling lost, like my brain has turned on me- like I am a completely different person some days- some days I don't know who I am or how to describe myself- other than a little girl lost in a great big world.
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Pets Cats  
Activist Aspirations Casual
Political Leaning Depends
Religions Pagan/Buddhist  
Eating Habits Keep it Healthy  
Wild Fact About Me 1 Tattoo- needs re-coloring, possibly updating; thinking about getting another one- a big one. There is a wild streak, but not as much any more.
My Philosophy Everyone stops bleeding-eventually....
What Gives Me Hope Knowing sometimes dreams turn into something else much more beautiful than originally intended and that those things are sometimes better than the original dream itself.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by Make sure that EVERY life is acknowledged- every baby would receive a birth certificate- not just a certificate of stillbirth- but an actual legal birth certificate- they were here dammit- acknowledge it please.
What/who changed my life and why 'Wicked'- there are always two sides to every story, and perception is everything- and everyone does deserve the chance to fly and defy gravity! So if you can't find me-look towards the western sky- I am defying gravity.
What Bugs Me being broken, not being understood, being confused all the time, not being able to be me, people who don't "listen", The destruction of rural areas, liars, intolerance, hate, arrogance, Any one that would hurt an animal, Any one that would hurt a child  
Passions nature, art, fire, making a difference, love, learning, life, music, children, family, water  
Inspirations My best friend, my family  
What Scares Me loosing myself, loosing my mind, my dreams disappearing, my mental health, my thoughts, my nightmares, being alone, religious fanatics, spiders, snakes  
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Role Models mother  
Quotation Grief is not a sign of weakness nor Loss of Faith but a Price of Love
Interests Sunsets, Studying Buddhism- just starting, Energy Work, Gardening, Baking, Candles, Music, Wildlife Observation/Conservation, Theatre/Performance, Meditation, Cats, Mind/Body/Spirit  
Books Christopher Penczak, HH the 14th Dalai Lama's books, Dr. Seuss, Pema Chodron's books, LKH  
Music A.F.I., Michael W. Smith, George Canyon, Sarah Mclachlan, Billy Joel, NIN, marty casey, Mozart, silverchair, Meditations with the Dalai Lama, Godsmack, eminem- 'Mockingbird', Evanescence, Tibetan Bells &amp, Chants, Wild Divine Band  
Movies Rent, Romeo and Juliet, Natural Born Killers, nightmare before christmas, Dead Poets Society, labyrinth, Pratical magic, Harry Potter, the notebook, Fried Green Tomatoes, The Crow, the Craft, Beaches, Steel Magnolias, So I married an axe murderer, Boys on the Side, Circl  
TV Shows Dexter-until he moves to cable, Simply Ming, Bittman Cooks Everything- PBS, Chefs 'afield-PBS, The Royal, Endless Feast, 48 HR/Mystery, Family Guy, American Gladiators, Moonlight, South Park, Hell's Kitchen, Ghost Whisperer  
Favorite Foods Sushi and Sashimi, sticky rice with mango, green tea, cheesecake, tiramisu, veggies, Milk, Fruit, Pudding  
Favorite Places Somewhere beautiful and quiet, beach, the mountains  
Can't Live Without my cats, Friends, Family, Music, My dreams  
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    Dec 20, 2008 5:15 PM

    JSun G. (514)

    Wishing you a very Merry Yule!
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    Apr 11, 2008 5:41 PM

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    Oct 28, 2007 3:51 PM

    JSun G. (514)
    Sending lots of love, JSun

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    Sep 16, 2007 3:35 PM

    Rae G. (59)
    Goth Man
    Thank you for the birthday comments, ((((Sara)))) I think I forgot yours though Ah well I'm sure Meg told you I'm getting rather forgetful in my old age

    Much love & blessings to you Rae

    Sep 8, 2007 3:18 AM

    Randall B. (1095)
    I wish  you a magickal and enchanted 'belated'   Birthday!   Love, light and enchantment.   Your friend Randy..
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    Sep 5, 2007 10:12 AM

    JSun G. (514)
    Ohhh, I blew it,sorry to be late!

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    Sep 4, 2007 5:07 AM

    Megan G. (29)
    Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket brightest blessings on your birthday... love you
    Aug 9, 2007 3:59 PM

    JSun G. (514)

    `Click to Donate 07/27/06 - Rainforest


    Jul 15, 2007 12:24 AM

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    Jul 4, 2007 12:31 AM

    Megan G. (29)


    More Care2 Stickies Here! Many blessings to you my friend.
    Jun 20, 2007 4:21 PM

    JSun G. (514)
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    May 1, 2007 3:15 PM

    Colleen P. (19)

    Blessed Beltaine wishes to you my friend.  Thank you for such a wonderful celbration on Saturday!

    Hugs!
    Colleen
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    Apr 25, 2007 6:04 PM

    JSun G. (514)
    Thanks for belonging and for being a friend!
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    Apr 22, 2007 5:07 PM

    Colleen P. (19)

    Blessed Earth Day to you Sara! 

    Love you!
    Colleen


     


    Apr 8, 2007 9:16 PM

    Colleen P. (19)

    I found this one just for you my friend!   

    Love ya!
    Colleen

    happy easter!


    Mar 10, 2007 7:10 AM

    Randall B. (1095)



    Have a magickal weekend!


    Feb 20, 2007 5:37 AM

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    Feb 19, 2007 9:34 PM

    JSun G. (514)
    And the Gods said......

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    Put music on these pages.  So Mote it Be!
    Feb 14, 2007 6:29 PM

    Rae G. (59)
    Eyore & Piglent Valentine
    Sara I wish you much love this Valentine's Day & Always Rae
    Feb 14, 2007 6:10 AM

    Karen M. (343)
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    Happy Valentines Day Sara, hugs Karen xoxox

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