My dear friends and acquaintances. I make no apologies in my leaving Care2 almost 4 years ago to care for my beloved service dog Saarra when she was diagnosed with kidney failure.
We fought valiantly for 4 years and Saarra was very healthy, impish, joyful and happy for an almost 15 year old Whippet.
But then things took a turn for the worse she had 2 grande mal seizures 5 minutes apart on a late Thursday afternoon. She was not suffering but they took a great deal out of her. I knew more would happen at some point. Then she would suffer and die a terrible death. I saw all the signs it was her time to go home.
I wanted to give her the death she wanted and deserved. It was quiet, peaceful, dignified, surrounded by people who loved her. Last but not least on her favorite spot on the couch.
Together we waited for the Vet's office to open early Saturday morming just 2 days after the seizures. As we waited I talked to her, held her, stroked her soft fur and kissed her. I took some photos. I gave her her favorite treats.
I did not cry because I did not want her to get worried about me. As we waited but we looked into each others eyes with sadness knowing soon our Vet would be here to end her life and the wondrous time we shared, just her and me for 10 years.
Our Vet and Tech arrived Saarra greeted them happily at the door. Tail flicking and jumping up and down with joy. She went over to her pillowbed on the floor and toys on it and she played with her favorite one. Tossing him up him up in the air and catching him.
Then she jumped onto the couch which was not as easy as it used to be since she had had a stroke just 5 months before that. It left one hind leg paralyzed. But she made a miraculous recovery as she fought to walk again.
I brought Saarra into this world and I was at her side holding her close to me when she left it. I felt her last three heartbeats and she died 22 days short of 15 years old.
My health has declined for just over 2 years now. I am being more active in signing petitions again. But still my focus is Saarra. I am organizing a project to safely bring home every lost or missing Whippet. This entails purchasing and setting up a network of humane traps that would make it possible to get that trap set up in mere hours instead of days or not at all.
It is only one tool to return a terrified, skittish Whippet who is missing, lost and on the run from a loving home and grieving family. Most dogs who accidently are missing and lost and become skittish. terrified and distrusting of human beings. They are in survival mode.
These traps will be placed strategically acrossed the United States so the many lost and missing Whippets have another tool to bring them home safely. I have chosen Whippets simply because Saarra my service dog and angel took exceptionally good care of me for over 10 years. In all those years we were only separated for 40 minutes. She was my heart, my soul, my angel and my dearly beloved companion, my soul mate and friend. In our travels she also took on the job of being a Therapy dog for anyone she naturally knew needed her love with a magic presence I will always be in awe of.
If you would like to you can read our story about the power of love. We were each other's caretakers with a bond of unconditional love so deep we are one. Now of course I must grieve my beloved angel and soul mate alone.
If you would like to help "SAR" or just say "Hi" you may contact me via the "Contact Us" section of her website. I am NOT asking you for money but your thoughts, prayers and ideas would mean more than anything else to me at this heart wrenching time of my life.
The foundation "SAR" is in her memory and will be devoted to doing good works where no one else is and I am called to.
I am trying to be the best me every day. My beloved Saarra died on 11-6-10 she inspired me and taught me the true power of love. She was an Angel of God whose love left me in awe of her. I adored, admired and was totally devoted to my beloved Saarra. We are one and even death does not stop my love for her from growing. In her memory and in Gods name I will do all the good I can until my last breath.
I am very ill so I have to pace myself but I am still replacing hate with love, evil with good and greed with generosity.
I love my beloved Archangel Saarra (my best friend, soulmate & service dog) more than everyone in my entire life.
Rest with the angels my beloved. My life is so empty without you to share it with.
11-28-95 to 11-5-10
Devote every day praying for the help to be a better you and all else will follow.
What Gives Me Hope
Looking into the eyes of my beloved dog gives me all I could ever want or need. Even though she died on 11-6-10 the love we shared was so profound not even death could change it. She was the sunshine in evey day for almost 15 years.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
Make the "all men (I would extend this to all sentient beings) are created equal" statement a reality.
What/who changed my life and why
In Saarra I saw God and in God, My Divine Father, I see Saarra. This has made me a better me.
Saarra was an angel of God on this earth. (many said this before I did)
She helped whoever needed her. She knew exactly who they were. She was love, purity and joy made manifest on earth. I watched her in awe as she changed so many lives with her love she so easily gave to everyone.