A man who is of great character, integrity and stregth. One who believes in god and all things encompassed with those beliefs. A man who can humble himself when needed, protect his own or others in their plight, one who I may follow or lead, trust, enjoy and love.
Sometimes life gives you such a reality check that you just want to go back and put your head under the pillow and wait for a better day.
An old love comes forth like a well-read book sitting on the shelf covered with dust just waiting to be opened and traveled again, maybe not in the same sense but traveled together once again.
Life is filled with reminiscences of a journey already taken; the present, the future, all with no guarantees from day to day. With that being said, life has moved forward and a new journey has started, and for now it might be in bits and pieces, filled with great sadness but also with great joy in my heart. For now, I am moving into what direction I do not know but moving forward.
My true blessings in life are my children and grandchildren. They are my inspiration to strive to greater things personally, to take a personal inventory of what is important in life. To realize that what I do today affects others deeply for a very long time. To realize that each day I walk on the face of this earth, I will walk with each of them in my heart.
I do not know if they each realize their single importance to me, but their pure existence, good health and happiness is all a mother and grandmother could ever ask.
For now, my heart is in a state of suspension, believing that all will be okay, that god will protect us with his divine wisdom and that what is to come will be with a gentle grace, with time to speak what is held in each of our hearts, and time with those we cherish.
If it is this wisdom that changes our lives forever, so be it. My hope is that he will also bring to my family compassion, understanding, realization that we truly have only each other in this crazy, mad, mad world and to live each day as if it is our last with good decisions, no regrets and to keep those we cherish close and to let them know their value to us in our hearts and day to day lives.
All of this compiled together is what makes me who I am, where I am going and where I want to be.