Here in this picture she must look like to you, some kind of Chaotic Wild stray that walks around outside her home to trap and catch little chipmunks and squirrels and birds. Well, she was that kind of cat, and at that time “when I wasn’t aware of”; how wrong it was to have your cat outside free to torture and kill other little babies like chipmunks, squirrels and birds; and how endangered birds are, and how beautifully friendly chipmunks, squirrels, rabbits, ground hogs & raccoons are, and how many people neglect and mistreat their kitties and other animals, and how so many places in Toronto and US States have some kind of “Animal Protection & Welfare” that ends up killing our animals or allowing animal abuse, torture and killing to go on from Non-Animal Owners & Animal Owners and Breeders who neglect, mistreat, torture & kill animals for either fun & Entertainment for other Fucked up people, or because they themselves are just really Fucked Up.. Kaos spent a lot of time outside around the house towards the ending of her life, because I would sometimes leave the doors open, and when Ed would feed the Goats in the barn, he’d open the door to get out of the house in the back, and leave it open for Kaos to roam after she woke up or when she felt like it.. We would meet her at some point in the day, like at about 9 or 10 am in the sunshine at the front of the house; while we bask in the glory of nature and love from all living things.. Kaos wasn’t a Killer Cat, but she would sneak up on birds and other creatures that were walking around (what little there were while she was alive), and now after she left us in February 2004 all the little critters and birds that kept away from the house- started hanging around and joining us everyday. The Chipmunks settled here and produced families of little chipmunks. The Squirrels settled here and raised family after family as well.. The Rabbits live somewhere around the house and birds have settled & procreated time and time over and over… The birds that would have to fly away and migrate, have come back every year to enjoy their time with us.. Everyone knows each other, and raccoons still live in the forest, but they come around still once in a while… However, once in a while I would let Star out on the porch and she’d start barking if there was anyone walking around out there; like a raccoon, a fox, or non-laughing Hyena.. When Kaos was alive (and at the end their), I didn’t realize that I would be a companion to all the animals that are around today, Ed and I would be with the Goats, the Chickens, The Ducks, Star & Ziggy, but they were the pets and we were Mommy & Daddy.. The other babies like chipmunks and squirrels, forest rabbits, racoons, ground hogs, and birds such as blue jays, crows, hawks, warblers and much more, are animals (I didn’t know at the time) that had companion instincts with humans.. And through it all, Today I miss Kaos so much, and think of her everyday, especially when I’m out there enjoying time with the other creatures in the forest; the ones she would have never let hang around.. But now I’m happy she’s happy that I think of her with them, and she’s happy that they all come visit and live with us around the house… When I see them every morning, it’s hard to not think about Kaos, so I do.. And I imagine I’ll be thinking about her until the day I die. Miss you Kaos.. Muawwww…