The Silent Watcher # 29

SELF-RELIANCE

I have for some weeks felt the need to become totally with mySelf once again to experience who IAM at a much deeper level with as few outside influences as I can maintain, for I know that full Self Reliance is now, for me, the way to be to my move into full Self-Mastery.

A time of being with mySelf Alone, as All One, as All There Is, seeking an ever deeper connection with who IAM as sovereign creator and author of my life.  

The fullest merging of all that IAM as all my previous life selves come together in this top life to become my OneSelf, being all present, omnipresent.  The soul-merging ever deeper and deeper which requires its own space and time of Now to become fully founded and grounded within my Being without distraction of "outside" influences of other humans and circumstances.

I have  just read a wonderful article by Peter Conrad written just 2 days after the death of Michael Jackson called THE MANY FACES OF MICHAEL JACKSON. 

What a tortured soul he was, although I feel most knew that anyway but this article put a very interesting take upon his life and times.....it can be read in full here:

http://www.nzherald.co.nz/entertainment/news/article.cfm?c_id=1501119&objectid=10580924 

He swung from polarity to polarity in his living of life. A deeply spiritual being with innocent child-like ways. Yet too a person who also lived life from the opposite end of the pendulum as very base and contorted. He failed to accept who he was and this was evidenced in his ongoing need to change his appearance. His self-destruction was evident in behavioral self-sabotage and ultimate dependence upon others as a baby is to his parents. 

At the end it seems he was being enabled by his "minders",  giving away to them his heart, his soul, his power....his Self.  How tragic.

It behoves each of us then to move into full Self-reliance beyond the need for dependence on others and outside sources, for therein we walk in our own Self-empowerment and at last attain full freedom to Be who we are without attachments to or expectations of others. With this goes Self-responsibility and Self-accountability for all choices we each take and regardless of the opinions of others, we freely move on into fuller and ever-expanding expression of our Beingness. 

In times of solitude, one has the opportunity to experience oneSelf in full measure - the light side and the dark side! Just being with, nurturing, caring for and allowing all to flow through one as the essence of inner change brings forth all that which no longer serves the highest good of Self's purpose.

In times alone, one is opportuned with becoming more and more reliant on Self, bringing into balance the polarities which souls like Michael Jackson were not able it seems.

Upon a solid foundation of stability, one  moves forth with ease and grace, no longer the swinging pendulum of dependence on others and outside sources, emotionally or otherwise, but in full acceptance of Self as all one requires, fully Self-reliant and thus demonstrating one's wholeness, completion and perfection in full measure.

From this place of contentedness one is founded on a base from which one can expand and express in infinite and limitless freedom. No more the instability of the past but instead the glory of Being one's full worth at last.

In expressing OneSelf-Ishness of WholeBeing, one is Self-realised, living life with simplicity and in so being, all others are free at last to be also, should they see the opportunity before them.

Shared in love, joy and freedom, speaking for mySelf Alone.

Elizabethxx