Ive been wanting and meaning to write many of you back..My dear friends I want you to all know how much you mean to me and how thankful I am to have you all as friends. Your words of love, support, and encouragement have been such a blessing to me.
I filed for divorce on August 8th, Cesar had already signed the paperwork the previous week and we had it all notarized on the 7th. As far as the legal part of it, everything is great! I get to keep my house, car, possessions, my annuities and have sole custody of the children. He waived his right to appear in court; so when the hearing date comes I will be the only one there. That was the easy part.
The hard part has been Cesar. I told him on July 28th and he stayed in the house until the 7th. During that week he was loving, caring, and doing as many things with us as possible; however its a little too late. Then while John was here, his loving and sadness turned into a more volatile behavior. He loves me, he hates mehe would call all hours of the day and night..yelling or begging..texting me with all kinds of comments and did something that was unforgivable.
Since John has been gone, we are doing better..he is acting more like an adult and talking to the kids and trying to spend time with them. I told him that on week days he can see them from 5pm to 6:30..and then have them every other weekend. However, he just wants them during the days on his weekends until he gets his own place and that is okay with me.
The boys are doing well. They are happy and seem to really not notice a difference. Julian is enjoying the first grade and yesterday brought some of his school work home (math) and had 100% on it and I was very proud. He told me he has one friend he knows in the classroom and that he likes his teacher. However, he misses Mrs. Fitch (his Kinder teacher). Giovanni misses Julian and is constantly asking me to go get him.
Other than that, my car mirrors were stolen in front of Club Montrose Saturday night and then on Tuesday, when I went to get them replaced I got hit by a rock on the windshield the size of a half dollarTuesday was my low day and I felt that everything was going wrong and that I shouldnt have gotten out of bed.
Today I feel much better and I remind myself of all of the good things to come:
Going back to college
Mom and John moving here
I am a strong intelligent woman and I have been through worse and I know that everything will be fine. I just need to keep my head up and persevere. This is a new start for me in my life and I may have a few mood swings here and there and I know I am in a funk, but the end of the rainbow will be coming soon and I cant wait to get that pot of gold..it REALLY exists ya know and I am happy to know that things are finally going to work out for me.
Thank you for all of your love and support! I will continue to keep all of you posted.
I am online.....just haven't been as active......not sure what I should say and sometimes I lack the will to type......