I dedicate this to my best friend, my dog Gizmo...who gave his life for me.
We recently got a little kitty. His name is Mika and he is 9 weeks old. Mika means New Moon in Japanese and since we got him on a New Moon we thought it was purrrfect!
It took me quite awhile before I decided to get another lovable furry bundle. Approximately 10 years ago I had to have my lovable beagle, my friend Gizmo put down. The decision to have him put to sleep was the hardest and sadest thing I've ever had to do. He had been part of our family for over 8 years and I didn't want to let him go. I finally realized that I couldn't be selfish...the pain and suffering Gizmo was going through was just to unbearable. With a breaking heart and tears just over flowing I gave the veternarian the permission to put him to sleep. I stayed with my Gizmo, holding him and telling him I loved him and that I know we would one day be together again. As I looked at him I saw tears on my precious dogs face. I will NEVER forget that moment and I will NEVER forget my best friend.
I could not sleep in my bed for the first little while. It was just too painful and it would remind me of how Gizmo always loved going under the covers and how he had his favorite spot on my bed. He was quite the character. I will never forget the night I finally decided to try sleeping back in my bed. As I got into bed I was thinking about my Gizmo and I was telling him how much I missed him. All of the sudden I saw the mattress sink down, where Gizmo use to sleep and the scent of my Gizmo just filled my room. I could feel him and with every fiber of my being. I knew It was my Gizmo. I was so overwhelmed with warmth and love. It was so beautiful. I just want to add that since I was a child I always had problem sleeping. It not only takes me a longtime to get to sleep, but I wake up every 2 hours, but that night, miraculously I slept like I have never slept before.
I had my Gizmo cremated and kept his ashes...it made me feel like he wasn't totally gone.
After Gizmo passed I really didn't want to ever get another animal. I didn't want to go through the hurt again. As the years went on I would help friends take care of their animals...take them for walks, feed them and spend time with them. I felt so wonderful being around these beautiful creatures. It was then that I realized how much I missed having and wanted and needed to take care of an animal of my own.
We've only had Mika for a couple of weeks, but she has added so much love and spirit into my life, and has become such a part of our family. I will always have an extra special place in my heart for my Gizmo. The bond that we shared was so special and It's forever.
What I've learned through all of this is the love that an animal can bring into your life is unconditional and priceless.
This soldier, I realized, must have had friends at home and in his regiment; yet he lay there deserted by all except his dog. I looked on, unmoved, at battles which decided the future of nations. Tearless, I had given orders which brought death to thousands. Yet here I was stirred, profoundly stirred, stirred to tears. And by what? By the grief of one dog.
Napoleon Bonaparte, on finding a dog beside the body of his dead master, licking his face and howling, on a moonlit field after a battle. Napoleon was haunted by this scene until his own death