Ever since I can remember I have had an interactive relationship with a higher power which I will refer to as the Creator. Even though I was raised a Roman Catholic I found organized religion, any organized religion, too narrow in its beliefs, hypocritical and shallow. While the teachings of Jesus are true for the most part to what I believe, I do not call myself Christian. Christianity to many as well as myself, has become synonymous with abuse, intolerance, and deceit.
I can remember one evening when I was very young sitting on the swing in our yard all by myself and singing as I swung my thanksgiving for all the things that I was grateful for to the Creator. It took quite a while if memory serves. Also at a very early age, certainly before the age of ten in one of my frequent conversations with the Creator, offering to serve in any way that I could. I have since been taken up on the offer and at times I have wondered "what was I thinking?" I started volunteering when I was eleven, became a nurse and a respiratory therapist, a teacher, a counselor, and a defender of human rights, animals, and the environment to name a few.
Even though conversations with the Creator have been a daily part of my life my belief is that more is required. It is not enough to talk the talk, one must walk the walk.
Even in the various periods of my life when I have been in such anguish for what I have lost that the only conversations I had with the Creator were ones filled with anger, when I was so far from that Power that I considered that I may just be delusional, my life experience has been proof to me that there is a Creative Power and that I live an interactive life with that Power. My belief is based not only on what I feel deep inside to be true but upon my experiences demonstrating that my truth, my belief, is very real.
My spirituality is the driving force that propels me to try and make this world a better place and no matter what hurdles are presented for me to overcome I am determined to find a way to keep moving forward. I don't want to have anything left unused when my time comes to leave this world. It should all have gone for the greater good even in death.
In this blog I will share my truth and hopefully answer some "whys".