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Aug 27, 2007

Hoping for hope Since I was diagnosed with kidney disease (2005) I feel as if I’ve aged 20 years, in the last two. One of the biggest challenges, I find, (to aging, that is) is to not let myself fall into cynicism and despair. All of us have probably noticed that this seems to occur for some. As they age, their dreams unrealised, their youth and vitality in the past, a human being can find themselves with a bitter taste in their mouth, and quite often this can lead to the deterioration of a positive, enthusiastic attitude towards life, in general. Facing the fact of one’s mortality is something we all have to do, sooner or later, with the exception of victims of war or sudden, accidental death. Some of us are more practiced (and also fortunate) in being able to put it off for as long as possible. As long as one is reasonably healthy, with no pressing health concerns, chronic illness or terminal disease, it is fairly easy to stay in a safe, sane and stable state of mind. But, when a chronic illness develops, or a terminal disease becomes one’s experience, one can no longer escape the reality of what we all face; the eventuality of our death. Nothing damages the spirit more than a diagnosis of a chronic illness. One can do all the right things, exercise, eat healthy, meditate, get the right amount of sleep, do good works and share joy and love with any and everyone they meet. But when one faces the possibility of a shortened life because of a sudden illness, one can’t help but wonder what they did ‘wrong.’ What are they being punished for? What is the point to life? And, how can there be a God who allows such unfairness? When the future holds nothing but deterioration and death, one’s sense of hope becomes diminished, considerably. Instead of planning and anticipating brightness and success, life is reduced to hours and minutes. One hopes for a better day or that they will have more energy and less pain in the next hour, somehow. Friends vanish and family shrinks. A sense of isolation sets in. Isolation from society, from purpose, from Self, at least, the ‘self’ that you perceived yourself to be. Priorities change drastically. What used to be so important and vital is now meaningless and insignificant. What was once meaningless and insignificant now becomes important and vital. The world changes beyond all possibilities of one’s imagination. The sense of time changes, as well. One can spend literally hours, staring into empty space or the darkness, at night, when sleep becomes a stranger. Regardless of the losses, and in spite of the lack of meaning and purpose, one still seeks to understand, to find meaning and purpose. It seems that the quest of all humans is very similar, throughout time and from culture to culture. Since the beginning of consciousness, we have sought some measure of control, one way, or another. Even before consciousness, it appears that all life forms exhibit the same motivation. The means one employs to obtain this sense of control varies, from person to person, of course. But all beings desire control. Control over their environment. Control over others. This is part and parcel of the all-pervasive need to find security, to survive and thrive in the world. When suffering becomes part of one’s journey, if they remain conscious enough, through the suffering, they come to see that this sense of control that some attain is truly and most definitely an illusion. Perhaps, it is the most common illusion of all. For try as we will, gain what we can, acquire and collect valuables, property and admiration. No one escapes the passage of time, the certainty of deterioration. The inevitability of death. Still, one cannot help but ask the question; ‘why’? ‘Why is there such a thing as suffering’? Does it have a reason, a purpose? As with all of the big questions in life, we can only guess, assume, formulate opinions and develop beliefs based on those opinions. What else can we do? Perhaps our spirits grow weary, complacent, bored and tired of the eternal timelessness of the higher levels. As the spirit grows weary, it weakens and becomes dense, more and more, Until it becomes so dense that it descends to the lower, physical plane of matter, where pain and suffering become a distinct possibility, due to the solidity of gross matter. This also makes it possible, and likely, that the spirit will learn just how good it is to exist on the higher levels, where physical pain and suffering have no hold. Perhaps the different levels of pain and suffering we can experience in the physical are directly proportional to the degree of complacency and boredom that the spirit has come to. Physical suffering heals the spirit. When hope has vanished and all one can hope for is the hope of finding hope, this is an attractive possibility. In Hope and Love ~LL~

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Posted: Aug 27, 2007 10:48am
Mar 26, 2007
Heaven and Earth QiGong A New Day Begins With A Single Breath ('QiGong' is pronounced 'chee-gung' and can be translated into english on two levels. The first level is the basic exercise of breath and movement and is thus; 'qi'= 'breath' and 'gong'= 'work' - or 'effort'- In other words 'Breath-Work.' The second level of translation refers to 'qi' as 'energy' or 'life-force,' and could be presented as; 'Energy Work'- the difference between the two translations is about intention and level of experience.) This is a set that I developed over years of training and practice. I used it for many community center courses, as a 'drop in' session and also a regular addition to my traditional classes of qigong and taiji. This is the set I plan to offer as the weather improves and allows for outdoor classes, to anyone in the community and particularly those who attend the community dialysis unit, patients and staff, where I have had my life saved and have had a chance to restart my life. Heaven & Earth Qigong 1- Lifting the Plates- Standing in ‘Wu Chi’- Raise palms up to shoulder height, inhaling. Turn palms down and lower hands to waist height, bending knees and sinking to exhale. Rise and inhale, sink and exhale. 2- Turn and Reach- Keeping knees well bent, palms down in front of abdomen, turn to left, reaching with left hand and inhaling. Return to front, exhaling. Repeat on other side. 3-Join Heaven and Earth- Circle hands overhead to touch thumb and index finger of left and right hand together, inhaling. Arms come down to their full length, then bend over and touch the floor, exhaling. Inhaling up, exhaling down. 4- The Crane- With weight on left leg, raise left arm up, raise right knee and flatten right palm(down) while inhaling. Step into wu chi, shift weight to other leg while lowering arm and exhaling. Repeat on other side. Inhale and lift, exhale and shift. 5- Three Step Opening- Raise palms forward and up to bend elbows and touch shoulders, open elbows to sides, open arms to sides, palms up-inhaling. Return arms to shoulder width in front, turn palms down and lower hands-exhaling. 6- The Phoenix- Bend knees and shift weight to left leg, step right to widen stance. Touch thumbs and index fingers together, bend forward to touch floor, exhaling. Stand up, inhaling. Turn right and go down right leg with hands to right ankle, exhaling. Come up right leg inhaling and turn to center. Down center exhaling, up center inhaling and turn left. Etc. 7- Harvesting Qi- Wide stance, open arms wide and reach up to grasp the energy, inhaling. Sink and lower palms down to waist height, exhaling. 8- Support Heaven- Wu Chi stance. Interlock fingers, palms up. Raise palms above head, turning them upward and raise heels-inhaling. Lower hands to beginning as heels come down, exhaling. http://www.care2.com/c2c/group/HeartLight http://www.care2.com/c2c/group/MeditationStation Join us in either or both of these groups, if you feel so moved… LOVE ~LightLizard~
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Posted: Mar 26, 2007 11:51am
Mar 26, 2007
Heaven and Earth QiGong A New Day Begins With A Single Breath ('QiGong' is pronounced 'chee-gung' and can be translated into english on two levels. The first level is the basic exercise of breath and movement and is thus; 'qi'= 'breath' and 'gong'= 'work' - or 'effort'- In other words 'Breath-Work.' The second level of translation refers to 'qi' as 'energy' or 'life-force,' and could be presented as; 'Energy Work'- the difference between the two translations is about intention and level of experience.) This is a set that I developed over years of training and practice. I used it for many community center courses, as a 'drop in' session and also a regular addition to my traditional classes of qigong and taiji. This is the set I plan to offer as the weather improves and allows for outdoor classes, to anyone in the community and particularly those who attend the community dialysis unit, patients and staff, where I have had my life saved and have had a chance to restart my life. Heaven & Earth Qigong 1- Lifting the Plates- Standing in ‘Wu Chi’- Raise palms up to shoulder height, inhaling. Turn palms down and lower hands to waist height, bending knees and sinking to exhale. Rise and inhale, sink and exhale. 2- Turn and Reach- Keeping knees well bent, palms down in front of abdomen, turn to left, reaching with left hand and inhaling. Return to front, exhaling. Repeat on other side. 3-Join Heaven and Earth- Circle hands overhead to touch thumb and index finger of left and right hand together, inhaling. Arms come down to their full length, then bend over and touch the floor, exhaling. Inhaling up, exhaling down. 4- The Crane- With weight on left leg, raise left arm up, raise right knee and flatten right palm(down) while inhaling. Step into wu chi, shift weight to other leg while lowering arm and exhaling. Repeat on other side. Inhale and lift, exhale and shift. 5- Three Step Opening- Raise palms forward and up to bend elbows and touch shoulders, open elbows to sides, open arms to sides, palms up-inhaling. Return arms to shoulder width in front, turn palms down and lower hands-exhaling. 6- The Phoenix- Bend knees and shift weight to left leg, step right to widen stance. Touch thumbs and index fingers together, bend forward to touch floor, exhaling. Stand up, inhaling. Turn right and go down right leg with hands to right ankle, exhaling. Come up right leg inhaling and turn to center. Down center exhaling, up center inhaling and turn left. Etc. 7- Harvesting Qi- Wide stance, open arms wide and reach up to grasp the energy, inhaling. Sink and lower palms down to waist height, exhaling. 8- Support Heaven- Wu Chi stance. Interlock fingers, palms up. Raise palms above head, turning them upward and raise heels-inhaling. Lower hands to beginning as heels come down, exhaling. http://www.care2.com/c2c/group/HeartLight http://www.care2.com/c2c/group/MeditationStation Join us in either or both of these groups, if you feel so moved… LOVE ~LightLizard~
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Posted: Mar 26, 2007 11:47am
Mar 20, 2007
Lessons of Nature Equilibrium One of the unique and powerful tools that we learn self defense skill in Taiji, is through the practice of 'Pushing Hands'. This practice can also be a useful and a very effective method of improving our relationships, as well! In push hands, when the partner pushes, we 'yield', shifting back and sometimes turning the body to deflect the 'attack'. In our relationships, if someone is aggressive and expresses anger towards us, if we respond to them the same way, only trouble and suffering can be the outcome. But, if we can learn to 'yield' in such a situation, as in 'push-hands', we can deflect the aggression and find a more reasonable and peaceful solution. 'Yielding' does not mean giving in, or surrendering. The young, green tree survives the hurricane because it yields to the wind. The older, stiff oak is broken and devastated through it's rigidity. Lessons of nature. LOVE ~LightLizard~
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Posted: Mar 20, 2007 10:56am
Mar 10, 2007
How Thinking Can Change the Brain 20 Jan 2007 (Sharon Begley, Wall Street Journal) Dalai Lama helps scientists show the power of the mind to sculpt our gray matter. Although science and religion are often in conflict, the Dalai Lama takes a different approach. Every year or so the head of Tibetan Buddhism invites a group of scientists to his home in Dharamsala, in Northern India, to discuss their work and how Buddhism might contribute to it. In 2004 the subject was neuroplasticity, the ability of the brain to change its structure and function in response to experience. The following are vignettes adapted from "Train Your Mind, Change Your Brain," which describes this emerging area of science: The Dalai Lama, who had watched a brain operation during a visit to an American medical school over a decade earlier, asked the surgeons a startling question: Can the mind shape brain matter? Over the years, he said, neuroscientists had explained to him that mental experiences reflect chemical and electrical changes in the brain. When electrical impulses zip through our visual cortex, for instance, we see; when neurochemicals course through the limbic system we feel. But something had always bothered him about this explanation, the Dalai Lama said. Could it work the other way around? That is, in addition to the brain giving rise to thoughts and hopes and beliefs and emotions that add up to this thing we call the mind, maybe the mind also acts back on the brain to cause physical changes in the very matter that created it. If so, then pure thought would change the brain's activity, its circuits or even its structure. One brain surgeon hardly paused. Physical states give rise to mental states, he asserted; "downward" causation from the mental to the physical is not possible. The Dalai Lama let the matter drop. This wasn't the first time a man of science had dismissed the possibility that the mind can change the brain. But "I thought then and still think that there is yet no scientific basis for such a categorical claim," he later explained. "I am interested in the extent to which the mind itself, and specific subtle thoughts, may have an influence upon the brain." The Dalai Lama had put his finger on an emerging revolution in brain research. In the last decade of the 20th century, neuroscientists overthrew the dogma that the adult brain can't change. To the contrary, its structure and activity can morph in response to experience, an ability called neuroplasticity. The discovery has led to promising new treatments for children with dyslexia and for stroke patients, among others. But the brain changes that were discovered in the first rounds of the neuroplasticity revolution reflected input from the outside world. For instance, certain synthesized speech can alter the auditory cortex of dyslexic kids in a way that lets their brains hear previously garbled syllables; intensely practiced movements can alter the motor cortex of stroke patients and allow them to move once paralyzed arms or legs. The kind of change the Dalai Lama asked about was different. It would come from inside. Something as intangible and insubstantial as a thought would rewire the brain. To the mandarins of neuroscience, the very idea seemed as likely as the wings of a butterfly leaving a dent on an armored tank. Neuroscientist Helen Mayberg had not endeared herself to the pharmaceutical industry by discovering, in 2002, that inert pills -- placebos -- work the same way on the brains of depressed people as antidepressants do. Activity in the frontal cortex, the seat of higher thought, increased; activity in limbic regions, which specialize in emotions, fell. She figured that cognitive-behavioral therapy, in which patients learn to think about their thoughts differently, would act by the same mechanism. At the University of Toronto, Dr. Mayberg, Zindel Segal and their colleagues first used brain imaging to measure activity in the brains of depressed adults. Some of these volunteers then received paroxetine (the generic name of the antidepressant Paxil), while others underwent 15 to 20 sessions of cognitive-behavior therapy, learning not to catastrophize. That is, they were taught to break their habit of interpreting every little setback as a calamity, as when they conclude from a lousy date that no one will ever love them. All the patients' depression lifted, regardless of whether their brains were infused with a powerful drug or with a different way of thinking. Yet the only "drugs" that the cognitive-therapy group received were their own thoughts. The scientists scanned their patients' brains again, expecting that the changes would be the same no matter which treatment they received, as Dr. Mayberg had found in her placebo study. But no. "We were totally dead wrong," she says. Cognitive-behavior therapy muted overactivity in the frontal cortex, the seat of reasoning, logic, analysis and higher thought. The antidepressant raised activity there. Cognitive-behavior therapy raised activity in the limbic system, the brain's emotion center. The drug lowered activity there. With cognitive therapy, says Dr. Mayberg, the brain is rewired "to adopt different thinking circuits." Such discoveries of how the mind can change the brain have a spooky quality that makes you want to cue the "Twilight Zone" theme, but they rest on a solid foundation of animal studies. Attention, for instance, seems like one of those ephemeral things that comes and goes in the mind but has no real physical presence. Yet attention can alter the layout of the brain as powerfully as a sculptor's knife can alter a slab of stone. That was shown dramatically in an experiment with monkeys in 1993. Scientists at the University of California, San Francisco, rigged up a device that tapped monkeys' fingers 100 minutes a day every day. As this bizarre dance was playing on their fingers, the monkeys heard sounds through headphones. Some of the monkeys were taught: Ignore the sounds and pay attention to what you feel on your fingers, because when you tell us it changes we'll reward you with a sip of juice. Other monkeys were taught: Pay attention to the sound, and if you indicate when it changes you'll get juice. After six weeks, the scientists compared the monkeys' brains. Usually, when a spot on the skin receives unusual amounts of stimulation, the amount of cortex that processes touch expands. That was what the scientists found in the monkeys that paid attention to the taps: The somatosensory region that processes information from the fingers doubled or tripled. But when the monkeys paid attention to the sounds, there was no such expansion. Instead, the region of their auditory cortex that processes the frequency they heard increased. Through attention, UCSF's Michael Merzenich and a colleague wrote, "We choose and sculpt how our ever-changing minds will work, we choose who we will be the next moment in a very real sense, and these choices are left embossed in physical form on our material selves." The discovery that neuroplasticity cannot occur without attention has important implications. If a skill becomes so routine you can do it on autopilot, practicing it will no longer change the brain. And if you take up mental exercises to keep your brain young, they will not be as effective if you become able to do them without paying much attention. Since the 1990s, the Dalai Lama had been lending monks and lamas to neuroscientists for studies of how meditation alters activity in the brain. The idea was not to document brain changes during meditation but to see whether such mental training produces enduring changes in the brain. All the Buddhist "adepts" -- experienced meditators -- who lent their brains to science had practiced meditation for at least 10,000 hours. One by one, they made their way to the basement lab of Richard Davidson at the University of Wisconsin, Madison. He and his colleagues wired them up like latter-day Medusas, a tangle of wires snaking from their scalps to the lectroencephalograph that would record their brain waves. Eight Buddhist adepts and 10 volunteers who had had a crash course in meditation engaged in the form of meditation called nonreferential compassion. In this state, the meditator focuses on unlimited compassion and loving kindness toward all living beings. As the volunteers began meditating, one kind of brain wave grew exceptionally strong: gamma waves. These, scientists believe, are a signature of neuronal activity that knits together far-flung circuits -- consciousness, in a sense. Gamma waves appear when the brain brings together different features of an object, such as look, feel, sound and other attributes that lead the brain to its aha moment of, yup, that's an armadillo. Some of the novices "showed a slight but significant increase in the gamma signal," Prof. Davidson explained to the Dalai Lama. But at the moment the monks switched on compassion meditation, the gamma signal began rising and kept rising. On its own, that is hardly astounding: Everything the mind does has a physical correlate, so the gamma waves (much more intense than in the novice meditators) might just have been the mark of compassion meditation. Except for one thing. In between meditations, the gamma signal in the monks never died down. Even when they were not meditating, their brains were different from the novices' brains, marked by waves associated with perception, problem solving and consciousness. Moreover, the more hours of meditation training a monk had had, the stronger and more enduring the gamma signal. It was something Prof. Davidson had been seeking since he trekked into the hills above Dharamsala to study lamas and monks: evidence that mental training can create an enduring brain trait. Prof. Davidson then used fMRI imaging to detect which regions of the monks' and novices' brains became active during compassion meditation. The brains of all the subjects showed activity in regions that monitor one's emotions, plan movements, and generate positive feelings such as happiness. Regions that keep track of what is self and what is other became quieter, as if during compassion meditation the subjects opened their minds and hearts to others. More interesting were the differences between the monks and the novices. The monks had much greater activation in brain regions called the right insula and caudate, a network that underlies empathy and maternal love. They also had stronger connections from the frontal regions to the emotion regions, which is the pathway by which higher thought can control emotions. In each case, monks with the most hours of meditation showed the most dramatic brain changes. That was a strong hint that mental training makes it easier for the brain to turn on circuits that underlie compassion and empathy. "This positive state is a skill that can be trained," Prof. Davidson says. "Our findings clearly indicate that meditation can change the function of the brain in an enduring way." From http://www.dalailama.com/
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Posted: Mar 10, 2007 11:06pm
Feb 21, 2007
Essence The Foundation Our essence is that often confusing and long-sought energy that can only be represented by the word 'LOVE.' It is NOT an emotion, it is a Joyous state of Being. Proof of this can be experienced by each of us through consistent practice of the disipline most commonly called 'meditation.' When one practices meditation on a regular basis, attempting to settle the mind, to still the rambling thoughts, to find that place of calm stillness within, eventually, success is found and manifests. A feeling of Supreme Peace, Joy and Gratitude suddenly blossoms from deep within, as if it had been waiting for the silence to express itself. The persistant flow of thoughts and emotions that result from thinking, once silenced, allow our Essence to rise to the surface of our awareness. Our One-ness and deep connection with All suddenly becomes apparent, obvious, and we are finally Home! LOVE is the Essence and Foundation of All life. It is the Highest Vibration of Energy we can know. May ALL find it SO! LOVE ~LL~
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Posted: Feb 21, 2007 10:55am
Feb 5, 2007
A Healthy Attitude Saving the Planet When we speak of a ‘healthy attitude’ what comes to mind? Is it the controversy over tans-fats, the need for exercise, good nutrition? Or do you recognise the great lack and need that has been absent from so much of human experience for so long; a reverence for life. To me, I believe that this is the ‘bottom line.’ If we want to have a safer, cleaner, healthier life for ourselves, we must also desire the same for all, for the entire planet and all species upon it. The human genome project has shown us, scientifically, that on a very real and literal basis, we are 99.9 percent the same. Our differences are extremely minimal. The Dalai Lama has stated that ‘all people want the same things; to be happy, healthy and to love and be loved.’ Regardless of these words and facts, so many of us seem to believe that we are separate and apart from others in our values and beliefs. It is long past time that we rethought our position in these matters and came to a conclusion that brings more light and joy into our lives and the lives of others. We must, somehow, encourage within ourselves a reverence for all life and inspire the same in others, when possible. This does not mean that we abandon our individuality. We are all separate and unique individuals, each and every one of us, upon this earth. Somehow, we must reconcile this truth with the reality of our ‘same-ness’- our ‘one-ness’ -which is found in our physical, emotional and spiritual needs. Developing a reverence for life is the only way that we will finally see beyond the practice of exploitation of the earth’s resources, as has been the habit and agenda of the industrial giants that dominate the world’s economies. We are all body, mind and soul. Whether we choose to separate these aspects of our being or not, we must acknowledge and fulfill their needs with respect for others to do the same. We are One Family on this planet. Each and every part of our family is as vital and precious as we are. When this applies to all species, we will have a healthy attitude, at last. LOVE ~LightLizard~
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Posted: Feb 5, 2007 4:33pm
Feb 2, 2007
The Hemp Seed Oil Revolution saving mother and all children Ending the Illusion With the widespread recognition and acceptance of the effects of global warming and climate change, it is long past time that governments and industrialists took responsibility and be moved to make changes that would rectify generations of propaganda and abuse against the usage of hemp seed oil for the purposes of lubricating and running the internal combustion engine and all motor vehicles. Since the beginning of the industrial era and the invention of the internal combustion engine, mankind has been manipulated and coerced into the use of oil and gasoline as the sole fuel source for these vehicles and machines that have formed the economic foundation of our culture. The oil industries, governments and chemical giants collaborated in a wide-spread campaign to undermine, castrate and demonize the hemp seed oil industry in its infancy, in order to corner the huge market for their own selfish and greedy profit margins. We see the results of this from the pollution of our atmosphere to the conflicts in the Middle Eastern, oil-rich nations. In 1936, the film ‘Reefer Madness’ was the catalyst and springboard for the oil industry’s campaign. Coining the word ‘marijuana’ played strongly on the ignorant and bigoted Anglo-Saxon consumer, who would shun and reject anything and everything foreign, especially ‘Mexican.’ http://www.reefermadness.org/propaganda/essay.html It was genius, really, and the public still buys into the prejudice, gladly. The truth is, hemp seed oil comes from the male cannabis plant, which does NOT contain the levels of THC that are necessary to obtain a state of inebriation. Aside from its medicinal properties, which uses are many and varied, when processed correctly, hemp seed oil can lubricate and run internal combustion engines, motor vehicles, with no pollution resulting from the burning of and, for very, very little cost. Also, the fibres of the male cannabis plant are extremely useful and resilient in the production of clothing and many other products that are, at the moment, monopolised by the oil industry, to the detriment of the environment, and ultimately, everyone. It is long past time that changes were instituted in this sad state of affairs and the people woke up and challenged their political representatives to begin the process NOW. The time is short and the day is not as long as we think. Canadians, write to your ombudsman or party representative. Americans, write your congressional representatives. This is the way that changes are made in Parliament and in Washington. The written word moves even the stubborn, bigoted, and greedy. It is long past time that the governments were moved to research, process and distribute hemp seed oil. For the sake of the economy, the environment, for our children and their children’s children. Edmund Burke said ‘all that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.’ It is long past time that something was done!
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Posted: Feb 2, 2007 7:17am
Jan 28, 2007
in the heat of battle my eyes drawn to the butterfly hovering above the carnage
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Posted: Jan 28, 2007 11:53am
Jan 24, 2007
The Transformation of Consciousness Yesterday morning, I was bound to an appointment at the clinic to get the dressings on my recent surgerys changed and I was gifted with the opportunity to learn one of the many ways that we can turn water into wine. I had decided to take a different route to the clinic than I normally took and before I boarded the bus I asked the driver if I could get to my destination by his route. He assured me I could and told me which bus stop I should get off to transfer onto another bus that would be required to get me where I needed to go. I sat near the driver, within the range of his vision through the rear-view mirror he used, so he would be able to see me and be reminded to tell me when we were approaching the stop I was to disembark the bus to continue my journey. I saw the street sign that was the cross-street my other bus would travel down as we passed it! I suppose I should have made it clearer to the driver that I wasn't sure about which bus stop he was referring me to, and so I would need him to make me aware of when we were approaching that stop, so he didn't make me aware of it. I suppose it was my error, really, but that didn't prevent me from feeling angry and frustrated with the driver when I had to walk quite a distance to make up for my mistake. I guess I should have asked him directly, to advise me when the stop I needed was getting close. Lesson learned. I am not anywhere near one hundred percent of my physical strength or the endurance level that I was at before my illness made itself known to me. Plus, it was raining during the long, inconvienent, and eventually, enlightening walk. As I attempted to maintain a reasonable pace and my balance, I pondered on my anger and the knowledge of experience that reminded me of the fact that there is an appropriate time and place for anger and there is a time and place where the energy of anger is not useful, but can actually be harmful to us. Anger can provide us with useful energy and incentive to make changes at times, if we are aware and vigilant in our awareness. Such as when someone nearby is in physical danger from a potential abuser. The anger we feel at the injustice of the aggressive assailant against a smaller and less powerful victim can be used to intervene for the sake of the downtrodden one, sometimes. I felt my anger as an ache in the weakened and debilitated condition of my body and especially, my legs, which felt a burning, painful and dark sensation of tension and drained my energy, causing me to stumble, slightly, as if I had been drinking. I realised that I had been slack about exercise and walking lately, due to the inclement weather we had been experiencing here on the west coast for almost three months now, and also, mainly because my weakened body was a little bit lazy, to be honest. I resolved to get out and walk more, as had been my habit before the wet, cold weather and the necessity for surgery had been implemented in my life. I suddenly realised that regardless of his motivation, if there was any, of the bus driver's lack of courtesy, intentionally or not, outside of my reaction or opinion of this event; the bus driver had done me three favours, after all. He drove me to a location that -at least- was closer than I had been when I started my trip. He also directed me to a mental location where I was reminded of my need for more exercise, as well as inadvertantly, actually forcing me to get exercising immediately and to get the ball of healing rolling a bit sooner than my lazy self would have chosen, left to my own devices. Suddenly, the dark, aching pain in my legs transformed into a warm, tingling sense of pleasure which expanded and flowed throughout my body and into my heart, where I felt the magnification of this pleasing sensation and the soothing, energising effects of an infusion of invigorating gratitude permeated my entire being, like a shower of light from the heart of my soul. I was immediately energised and the walk became graceful and extremely pleasant. Here was another, fourth favour the driver had gifted me with- I had learned how to change water into wine! Bus drivers rule! LOVE ~LL~
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http://www.agreenroadproj ect.org A nuclear subcontractor ordered workers at Fukushima to cover their dosimeters with lead to lower official levels of radiation would be reported; allowing workers to work longer hours inside the plant. By it...
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FREE Community Event Presented by the Green Party of Sonoma County An Evening withGreen Party Candidate for GovernorLuis J. Rodriguez Nicole Guerra(Donations will be collected for the Andy Lopez family)   Brothers Gadjo &nbs...