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Blog: Being Real  
My single friend, Dave, & I were chatting about his most recent date experience. He felt absolutely no chemistry with the girl he was on the date with & he realized something interesting.

Dave said that when he is really attracted to someone, then he begins to get nervous, becomes self conscious, worried that she won't like him, concerned about being accepted, attractive, etc.

On the other hand, when he meets a gal who he isn't interested in, he is completely free to be himself, talk about anything that comes to mind, express himself in an uncensored fashion, not being at least concerned about the outcome of the meeting.

I can honestly say I have noticed a similar pattern with myself. Which makes me wonder, why are we free to be our real selves when we have no attachment to the outcome & if we have an attachment to the outcome (like wanting a relationship with the person) why do we feel the desire to try to fit into the mold of what others want; even if it means sacrificing who we are?

Of course, being real & showing all aspects of ourselves simultaneously when we are becoming acquainted with someone may not be the best avenue to take. I mean, as Dave said it, if you were selling your house, you certainly wouldn't bring people in & show them all the broken things first & then expect people to stick around to see the good things, right?

So, how do we find that balance between being real & over exposing ourselves to new people?

When I'm on the personals, reading the profiles, rarely do I find someone who says, "I am bipolar" or "I have a personality disorder" - but I have actually come across profiles that have said exactly that. Yes, these people are being real & honest, but most people would run from their profiles, unless they were mental health professionals looking for new clients.

Why does it seem easier to be 'real' with friends & not lovers? Why can we tolerate vices in our friends that drive us mad in a romantic relationship? Are we expecting more from someone else than we, ourselves, provide; or do we take whomever comes along because our standards are not high enough?

It makes sense that it takes time to get to know someone, even if we've felt we've known them for 1000 years the first moment we met. After all, getting to know someone on a deep, intimate level includes knowing about their strengths & weaknesses; good & bad experiences; joys & sorrows; and about their mental, emotional & spiritual state of being, including patterns, blockages & karmic relationships.

I think being real means having the courage & ability to be honest about yourself with someone else, regardless of the outcome. Sure, we don't always want to spill our deep, dark secrets or fears until we feel comfortable & safe enough with someone. But we don't necessarily feel the need to hide, either.

If we are hiding aspects of ourselves that are important to us, hoping that once someone knows us well enough, they will understand or accept us anyway - we aren't necessarily doing ourselves (or them) a favor. If you are totally anti-violence & the other person reenacts wars for fun, you might not want to try to convert them to your passivism just as you wouldn't necessarily want to convert to their sporting conquests.

I suppose we all hope on some level to be able to improve & better ourselves & others through influence; but it is important for us to recognize our motivation. Are we hoping someone else will change so we can be more compatible? Are we trying to change ourselves so we can be accepted? If so, we need to ask ourselves, are we really being honest with ourselves & honoring our needs & desires?

Being real means being real enough with ourselves to know when someone is better off with another person, no matter how much we may desire them. Being real means loving ourselves enough to express ourselves in a fashion that is true to our nature, whether or not it scares someone away.

So what did Dave do on his date? He didn't want to hurt the girls feelings, so he offered to exchange numbers. She said she didn't sense any chemistry & he concurred. He was off the hook because both he & his date were real with each other.

Remember to be your-real-self. Eventually, you will find that it is one of the most liberating things you can do for yourself.

For real!

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Blog: Heart Opening Experiences  
Have you ever wondered why we feel certain emotions in our heart & chest areas? This is known as the heart chakra (one of seven primary energy centers in the body). One of the greatest challenges about love, is to keep our hearts open to love, to giving & receiving unconditional love.

When we "choose" to love someone, we are giving ourselves & desiring that the love energies will be reciprocated, but this is not always the case. Have you ever noticed how animals & children seem to love joyfully, endlessly & unconditionally, but that teenagers & adults have more difficulty expressing & feeling love?

And why is it harder to love after we've been hurt or rejected by someone else - even though the current person we are interested or involved with had nothing to do with our past experiences?

It truly is a challenge to love like we've never been hurt before. When I feel those familiar feelings, those pangs in my heart chakra, it is important for me to connect with myself & try to understand what is happening on a deep level.

This is what I have learned... Love is energy, truly the most powerful energy in existence. When love energies are activated within us, our heart chakras begin to become very active. In order to send & receive love, our heart chakras need to be open, the more open & clear they are, the more love we can send & be open to receiving.

But, here is the dilema: When we experience painful love or disappointing love or unrequited love, we have a tendency to try to protect our hearts, our feelings, our egos & we begin closing, restricting, punishing our heart centers.

How many people do you know that have forsaken love, given it up, locked up their hearts & thrown away the key? Are these people happy? Are they a pleasure to spend time with? Do you feel sad or depressed when you are in their company? Does it appear to you that they have moved out of their hearts & into their minds, pretending & fooling themselves into thinking they are happy?

When we restrict the energy flowing into & out of our heart chakras,we also hold onto the painful love experiences that were stored inour hearts, because we closed the door & trapped them inside.

So in essence, we have become prisoners who are slowing beingpoisoned from the inside out by the very same people & experiences we chose to protect ourselves from. Many addictive & self destructive behaviors are triggered by the poisonous energies we have stored within ourselves.

We are actually trying to self medicate & find an outlet for the festering material wreaking havoc within us, but have inadvertantly chosen a labyrinth with no exit. Then, when someone who piques our love interest happens along, ourhearts begin to open, the energy centers in our chakras become moreactive & we begin to send (& hopefully receive) love energies.

But there is a catch: if old, stale, stagnant, negative love experiences & energies have been stored in our heart, they need tobe cleaned out to make room for fresh, vibrant, new love energies.

So whenever I begin to feel unusual or unpleasant feelings in my heart area, I find it is important & beneficial to focus on releasing any negative experiences or impressions or feelings.

Since energy follows intent, we do not have to be metaphysical or spirtual masters to clear our hearts. Here are some very simple techniques:

1. Recognize that every person, every Soul, every heart, wants to give & receive love. It is a large part of why we are here on this earth to begin with.

2. Decide to release any negative love experiences, forgive ourselves & others for these negative experiences & recognize them as opportunities for Soul growth.

3. Realize that the mind & the heart are often disconnected & are at odds with each other. When we become more centered within ourselves, our minds & hearts feel safe enough to be honest with each other, thereby assisting in their abilities to share love with somone who is beneficial for us.

Every person can benefit from opening & clearing their heart energies, even if they are in loving relationships. It is amazing that our hearts have an unlimited capacity to love & they do not like to be restricted to loving just one person.

Ultimately, one of the greatest challenges is to love everyone -our family, friends, neighbors, enemies, even. On a more advanced Soul level, I know that I love everyone & everything in existence; but to incorporate this Soul love to a physical love is something that I am just not prepared to do in this lifetime. Fortunately, more advanced Souls like Jesus have demonstrated this for us.

So, for now, I'll just focus on clearing & cleaning my heart chakra, forgiving myself & others for any unpleasant or negative love experiences. I know that by listening to my newly cleansed heart, I will be guided to postive love experiences that are better than I ever imagined would be possible in physical reality.

When I began writing this, my heart chakra was in a state of imbalance, I felt pressure on my chest, a heaviness that needed to be released & expressed. By focusing on myself & my feelings, by recognizing & releasing my fears of unrequited love & traumas of my heart; by sharing this with you, I have cleansed my heart & I feel much lighter, happier & balanced.

This is not to say that the process is complete, or will ever be complete, because as we traverse the uncharted waters we call Life, we are bound to have many more love experiences that test our hearts again & again.

Cleaning our hearts is more important than cleaning our homes, most people don't like a filthy house, so why should we be living with dirty hearts?

Now is a perfect time to do some Spring cleaning!

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Blog: Dating & The Right Fit  
My friend, D. & I have been talking about relationships a lot lately. We have a lot in common in this department, we are both in our 30's, metaphysical, have limited dating experience, & desire to have a deep, spiritual & physical connection with someone.

It's interesting how the same patterns keep repeating... the gals he dates think he's 'too nice' because he respects them & doesn't want to jump their bones on the first date & hence, they don't seem to sense a 'love connection'.

On the other hand, the guys I've met (mostly online since I am more of a chicken when it comes to actually meeting in physical reality) tend to think I'm too metaphysical & have unusual interests & philosophies that would prevent me from being their ideal partner for a significant relationship; yet they still want to explore my sexuality.

While reviewing & comparing our experiences, D. & I try to understand relationships, emotions, compatibility & our own strengths & weaknesses in the relationship department. We encourage & motivate each other to continue to pursue our happiness with another human being who we can be ourselves with while continuing on our paths of self improvement & spiritual evolvement.

I once heard that men need to have sex to feel love & women need to feel love to have sex. Wow, what a contradiction. Just like men are in their sexual prime in their late teens or early 20's & women in their 30's. Just exactly how does all of this make sense?

By the time a man is emotionally mature enough to fulfill a woman on a deeper level, he is usually past his 30's, when his physical performance tends to suffer & his hair is thinning. By the time a woman has embraced her sexuality & risen above society's rules & sexual taboos, she has some wrinkles, stretch marks & unperky breasts (unless they've been surgically altered).

It makes sense that wisdom comes with age & that an older person can impart much relationship wisdom to a younger counterpart, but it's usually the younger generations who are still so caught up in the physical that they don't want to consider consorting with an old(er) person.

It's like God gave us youth so we can squander it on senseless, mindless activities & then gave us wisdom so we can realize how stupid we've been wasting time in so many negative relationships because we were so caught up in the physical & mental aspects to pay attention to the emotional & spiritual components of relating to the opposite sex.

D. had a good analogy he gave to someone after they excused him from future dates, he said, "If someone gives you a gift & you never open it, you will never know what's inside." I really liked his perspective.

We are both believers in the powers of transformation & change; & that everyone has the capacity to become better human beings, so sometimes we get caught up in the "they would be perfect if only they blah blah blah..."

And then we often hold onto relationships because we hope & pray that something or someone will change or reach their full potential. But it's also important for us to recognize that the other person may be perfectly happy with their situation or their lifestyle or with the relationship's status quo.

So, ultimately, while every person is a beautiful gift from God & holds the key to an untapped well of inspiration & love, it's not so much about the gift or it's potential. What if the gift is a pair of shoes & they simply don't fit? They can be the most wonderful shoes, but if they don't fit, they don't fit.

I recently met a very nice, attractive guy who basically thinks I'm very unusual (but not too weird, as he complimented me after our 1st meeting) & has been honest enough to share that he doesn't feel we are compatible for a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship - but he was still interested in hanging out, having fun & (bingo!) having sex.

I guess the bottom line is he wants a more traditional woman & I want a more spiritual, creative man. So, we could become friends with 'benefits', but I've decided I want to be available when the 'right' man comes along - not trying to extracate myself from an illegitamate friendship.

If that person we are pining over is wonderful in so many ways, but we want them to alter themselves to suit us (or vice versa) we need to realize something important.

If the shoe fits, wear it. If it doesn't, then give it away to someone else. There is no sense in pinching your toes or cramping your style. It's not about the shape, the size or the style. It's all about the right fit.

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Blog: Meeting People  
Why does it seem so difficult to meet new, interesting people?

And how do people meet outside of work, school or hobbies?

Seems like almost everyone is on the personals now, everyone except the interesting people I am interested in meeting...

And what about those friendship/networking sites, Fropper, MySpace, Ryze, Care2, etc.? Yes, I have 'met' some interesting folks, who I share similar interestes with, spread all across the country & world. I am not against virtual friendships, but you know, they are so 'virtual'.

What about the old fashioned aspect of spending time with another human being in real time, in real life?

A friend of mine shelled out like $1500 to join a dating club called "It's Just Lunch", then he pays for the dates, flowers, etc., another $30 - $50 each. And so far, he is still single.

Maybe we could all wear some identifying badge or something that would say, "I am shy, please introduce yourself to me" or "I'm single & looking if you are single & sexy" or "New friends wanted" or "Vacancy - apply within."

When I go to social functions, I am generally too shy to go up to people & introduce myself. And what if those interesting people I see across the room are just as shy as I am? I don't want to hold my breath hoping they will get the courage to come over.

If I do get the courage to introduce myself to someone new, just what exactly do I say? I mean, telling someone they seem interesting enough to cause a reserved person like myself to approach them uninvited would be honest - but would it be well received?

Hmmmm... We'll see once I try it out.

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Blog: What Is Hunger?  
My heart bleeds

For those in need

How can I say

That I know suffering

When I have experienced

More abundance

Than those starving

Have ever known

How can I say

I know what it feels like

To be hungry

How can we ensure

Not a single Soul

Suffers from hunger?

This I do not know

I can only pray

While the tears fall

One by one

Into the food I eat

As I thank God

For the food before me

I wonder what I can do

To help a starving person eat

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Blog: Indian Music, Lost in Translation  
Some things are lost in translation between one language &another, between one culture & another, betweeen one mind & another...

But some things need no translation because they sound so good, itdoesn't matter what the words or definitions are, because theysimply feel wonderful...

I love Indian music & listen to it more than mainstream American music. But there's one little problem...

I have no clue what is being said in an Indian song I initiallydiscover... maybe it's a blessing, because I am not judging a song by the lyrics at all, just the sound & it's effect on my feelings & emotions, & how it inspires my body to dance uninhibited & uncontrollably like a whirling dervish.

Once I am attracted to a song, I try to determine what movie it originated from, so I can then look up the translated lyrics & sometimes I am even moved to try to learn the song in Hindi (without murdering the song with my mispronunciations, eeek!)

The music also leads me to discovering & watching new movies. I have certainly progressed since I first discovered Bollywood music in the summer of 2003... I had no clue about Bollywood, but I had stopped into an Indian grocery for the 1st time & purchased some Indian music CDs & DVDs. I was in love at first play!

Not realizing that the names listed in the song credits were names of movies, not of the actual musicians, I went back to the Indian groceries asking them for songs by (what I thought were)the "musicians" names, for instance, KKKK (Khabi Kushi Khabi Gham)or Supari - not realizing the titles were the names of the movies they came from...

I got some really strange looks, until they figured out I was asking for movie titles, not actual musicians or 'KKK' musicians... They were probably thinking, "Crazy Gori!" (white girl, for those of you who don't know Hindi.)

Sometimes we enter into another culture & make total fools of ourselves in our eagerness to absorb all we can; but I have enjoyed laughing at myself & my innocent, ignorant blunders while many things have been lost in translation...

I am also trying to learn my guru's bhajans (songs of devotion, for those of you unfamiliar) sometimes singing is like torture because I feel like my mouth is full of marbles & peanut butter; that I am pronouncing everything wrong, embarrassing myself & worried that I am ruining the sacredness of the songs...

I recall the story of my caucasion American friend, Padma, who was once asked to lead a song for thousands of people attending one of our guruji's functions... Sri Swamiji began giggling as Padma sang the song & afterwards he told her that she sang a song about milking a BULL (a male cow)! After she told me that, I worried less about the specific words ofthe bhajans & I focus more on the intentions of my heart while singing them.

Every now & then, I'll fall in love with a song & I can't wait to find out what the lyrics are & the meaning behind the music that is massaging it's way into my heart? "Oh, this has got to be a really inspirational song about love," I often think.

Right now, I am in love with a song from Monsoon Wedding, Chunari Chunari? I finally looked up the lyrics & found out it is a song about a red scarf, how a woman dyed it red, how she wears it & how it affects a man who is interested in her. OK, not a typical romance song, "oh baby, I love your red scarf, your red scarf?" but how innocent, really.. I mean, if this was an American song, it just might be about a ladies red panties, red panties. I definitely like the scarf better, leaves more to the imagination...

Another time, I became attracted to a music video, Mera Kajal? I saw this lady getting ready for a date with her beloved? loved the scenes, the music, the singer's voice? I thought it was about love, romance, etc. When I called my Indian friend, Romi & asked him for the meaning of the song title, he said, "My eye mascara." "What?! A crummy commercial for eye makeup!", I thought. I was disappointed since I usually think most Indian music lyrics are very poetic & inspirational. But I still like this song by Falguni Pathak.

I often wish I could just download a language straight into my consciousness, like in the Matrix. But on the other hand, I might miss out on the comedic experiences of being lost in translation...

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Blog: Self Confidence & Self Esteem  
I need to boost my
Self confidence & self esteem,
Which have been shaken recently,
By the death of a fantasy
I had created unbeknownst to me
Until the bubble burst
Now my heart hurts
I need to boost my
Self confidence & self esteem
I must improve myself
And replace my feelings
Of inadequacy
With confidence & security
With the knowledge
That I am still attractive
Mentally, emotionally
Spiritually & physically
I need to boost my
Self confidence & self esteem
Because I let someone
Shake my reality
I don't know why I lost my
Self confidence & self esteem
I guess I am more fragile
Than I perceived...
I have increased my
Self confidence & self esteem
I am working more diligently
At improving all aspects of me
This is how I am boosting
My self confidence & self esteem
Now I am appreciative
That I questioned
My self confidence & self esteem
Thank you for your contribution
To my inner reflection & self questioning
My self confidence & self esteem
Are improving rapidly!

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Blog: Spring Has Sprung!  
I stood in my 2nd story
Apartment kitchen,
Looking out the window
At the grey & brown
Landscape below me.
I thought I heard
The sound of spring,
So I surveyed
The nearby trees,
The budding magnolia
Right outside my window,
Always filling me
With hope & expectancy
As her fuzzy buds swell
With anticipation of spring
Like the bosoms
Of a mother expecting.
It was a cold day,
So much for the forecast,
It was a grey Wednesday
Morning & I was mourning
The loss of sunlight,
The bliss of a kiss
From Apollo, the Sun God.
In the moment I wished
For spring to thaw
Winter's icy grip,
I thought I heard it -
Mother Nature's chorus,
Singing life into
The hibernating habitat;
I stood at my window,
Looking past the cracked pane,
Scanning the skies, the trees,
The muddy earth below me,
And then, suddenly,
I saw a hurried flutter
Of brown & black wings
Colliding past my window pane..
And then I saw the sign at last,
A male Red Breasted Robin
Landed on the branch
Of a maple tree & sang to me
The song of spring;
Now the sepia earth
Will burst forth
In yellows & greens
And the air will be filled
With the soft scents of Spring
The robins are here!
Spring in near!
The robins are here!
I exclaim, I proclaim!
Spring has sprung at last!

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Tribute: Buried on Christmas Eve  
Name: Michael Dixon, My Cousin
Type: Memorial (for the deceased)
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Location: , Maryland United States
My Mom wrote the following poem about my dear cousin, 'Mikey". 

We had been so close as children, but you know how it is when families move far apart, some begin to lose touch, as ours did.

Mikey was several years younger than me, so he was in High School when he passed away due to suicide.  Everyone was shocked, he had seen so happy & successfull. 

I remember our childhoods together, everything was so fun & carefree, Mikey's huge smile shining on everyone, like it was the morning sun. 

I love you, Mikey!


 
Buried on Christmas Eve

I saw a scene so wrenching
A young boy had died in pain
Each person alone in their grieving
Saw their faces in the rain.
I saw the box that held him
Knew nothing would be the same
Saw sad tears of friends & family
Saw their faces in the rain.
The skies were unrelenting
His mother loathed to leave
Her son in a box buried
In the rain on Christmas Eve.
His big brother held their mother
Weak with grief & strain
All looked on in silent compassion
The Heavens wept again & again
Saw their faces in the rain.

 
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Blog: The Woman You Want  
I cannot be
The woman you want
I don?t have a domestic gene
I don?t like to cook or clean
Or do someone else?s laundry
I?ve done it for too long
For my partners & children
I?ve been a slave to marriage
I?ve been a maid for the wealthy
I love a clean, organized home
But I honestly hate to clean!
I just want to wave a magic wand
And have everything clean itself
In the blink of an eye,
And until I get that magic wand,
I would love for someone to
Clean & and do laundry for me!
I love healthy, tasty cuisine
But I honestly don?t like cooking
It is so scientific to me
Some women have
A cooking gene
In their DNA,
But not me!
I can cook only a few things
But most of the time
I?d rather eat something
Quick & easy
Just to end my hunger pains
So I don?t have to read a recipe
Or spend hours in the kitchen
Preparing food, then cleaning
I cannot be
The woman you want
I am already a parent
I never felt prepared
To have kids, & yet,
I?ve raised a daughter,
Two step sons,
Three foster children,
And a foreign exchange student
From Russia
Honestly, I?ve raised
Enough young ones
I love children,
But they are so much
Responsibility
Kids are more than
A joy or a job
But take a lifetime
Of commitment
Children always need their parents,
No matter how old they are
Now I am at a stage
Where the ?kids? are at an age
Where I can focus more on myself
My interests, talents & spirituality
All the things that were neglected
While I was dedicated
To raising young children
I cannot be
The woman you want
I don?t have the desire
Or need to get married
I was married twice
And I?ve learned a lot
From both marriages
But a ceremony, certificate
Or change of name
Do not create relationships
Or make them successful
Or make them last
I cannot promise to love
Honor & cherish someone
If that is not the way I feel
Promises of forever
Are rarely ever real
I would rather love
Unconditionally
Than to make promises
I might not be able
To fulfill or keep
I cannot be
The woman you want
I don?t know if I would move
To another state or country
I love to explore & travel
But I?ll be honest,
Sometimes the unknown
Worries & concerns me
Even while adventure
Beckons me
I?d love to travel,
And see the world
While I?m still young enough
But maybe I?m getting set
In my ways as I age
Do I really need
Stability if it keeps me
From expanding
Emotionally & creatively?
I know there?s no need
For me to be afraid
I don?t have to think about
The future or where I live
As long as I trust
That I am being guided
To where I?m meant to be
I cannot be
The woman you want
I?m not as strong
Or as intelligent
Or as beautiful
As you think me to be
I can take a long time
To make a decision
And then I?ll change
It like a breeze
And then you may think
I?m driving you crazy
But then I?ll make you
Go weak in the knees
And then you will know
What it means to be love crazy
And you will beg me
To drive you crazy
For eternity
I cannot be
The woman you want
I may look like a social butterfly
But I?m really not
I actually prefer staying home
It takes so much time
Getting ready to go out
And I can never figure out
What to wear, I worry
The fashion police
Will arrest me!
But fashion comes cheap
At Goodwill & the Salvation Army!
So if I go out, it has to be
Something very interesting
I don?t like idle chit chat
Or talking to someone
Who bores me to tears
I don?t like clubs
That are loud & smoky
I do like to dance
So that?s one thing
I enjoy doing out on the town
But I?d much rather
Make love to you, my dear
In the woods or by the sea
Close to nature
In the middle of the night
Serenaded by a gentle breeze
Blowing through the trees
As the moon watches over you & me
And we howl at the moon in delight!
I cannot be
The woman you want
Please don?t expect me
To entertain you
24 hours a day
I?m not afraid to be alone
I enjoy my freedom
And solitude
I need my time & space
So I may nurture my creativity
So I can write poetry
Paint & sing
I may not want or need you
As much as you do me
I am often lonely
Even when people
Surround me
Because they do not
Understand or relate to me
But then, on the other hand,
I may wake you
In the middle of the night
Because the moon is so
Beautiful & I want to share it
With you during midnight delight
I may be irresponsible
And drop everyone
And everything I am doing
Just to be with you
In the blink of an eye
Even if it means I have to fly
To be by your side
When my heart yearns
Or speaks to me,
I must pay attention
I want to experience the
Love that is meant for me
I?ve waited too many years
To ruin a beautiful
Friendship or relationship
Because of my fears
I am trying to live in the moment
Enjoying the journey
Drinking the Soma of your Soul
Looking forward to every contact
Each & every word is burned
Into my consciousness
While I become restless of waiting
To meet you
Excited yet afraid, too
That you will think me to be
Less than than your fantasy of me
That my pictures are better
Than my physical reality
So, please be gentle with me
My heart bruises easily
I don?t want to waste your time
If I?m not the woman you want
Can?t you see,
I will never lose my identity
I cannot be
The woman you want
I can only be
The woman I am

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Blog: Our Constitutional Rights - Petition-No Oil subsidies, Earmarks, or Favoritism by Electra C.
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Blog: Our Constitutional Rights - Petition-No Oil subsidies, Earmarks, or Favoritism by Electra C.
(1 comments  |  discussions ) — U. S. Citizens Signatures only please. If you are an American Citizen living abroad please verify this in the Petition questionnaire. Must be 18 years of age, and legally able to vote.http://www.thepetiti onsite.com/takeaction/162 171934Amendments to t... more
Blog: Our Constitutional Rights - Petition-No Oil subsidies, Earmarks, or Favoritism by Electra C.
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Aug 19
Alert: Our Constitutional Rights - Petition-No Oil subsidies, Earmarks, or Favoritism by Electra C.
(0 comments  |  discussions ) — U. S. Citizens Signatures only please. If you are an American Citizen living abroad please verify this in the Petition questionnaire. Must be 18 years of age, and legally able to vote.http://www.thepetiti onsite.com/takeaction/162 171934Amendments to t... more
Alert: Our Constitutional Rights - Petition-No Oil subsidies, Earmarks, or Favoritism by Electra C.
(0 comments  |  discussions ) — U. S. Citizens Signatures only please. If you are an American Citizen living abroad please verify this in the Petition questionnaire. Must be 18 years of age, and legally able to vote.http://www.thepetiti onsite.com/takeaction/162 171934Amendments to t... more
Alert: Our Constitutional Rights - Petition-No Oil subsidies, Earmarks, or Favoritism by Electra C.
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Alert: Our Constitutional Rights - Petition-No Oil subsidies, Earmarks, or Favoritism by Electra C.
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Blog: URGENT! This Anti-Virus IS A Virus! by Electra C.
(0 comments  |  discussions ) — I received this via net messade. THX Dahlia"When I was on C2 yesterday Aug. 14th, out of nowehere, a program called Antivirus 2009 popped up and I kept clicking it off, but it stubbornly kept popping back up. So thinking I'd go ahead and download the ... more
Aug 18
Alert: Our Constitutional Rights - Petition-No Oil subsidies, Earmarks, or Favoritism by Electra C.
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