The past couple weeks have been very odd for me, I went for an abdominal altra-sound as I was having major pains in my upper abs and the doctor thought it could be my gallbladder.

So when the doctor called and wanted to see me I knew something had been found, and I went in thinking great somethings up with my gallbladder. I however was not prepared for what I was about to hear.

A tripple whammie is what I called it, 3 for the price of 1.

Gallbladder stones, meaning I need to have my gallbladder removed pronto so it does not get infected. I meet with the surgeon on Monday and I am scared outta my tree.

Kidney Stones, which at this point my doctor is not too worried about she thinks they may pass on their own....let hope so.

Non alcoholic fatty liver disease, Never saw that one coming it was right out of left field.

Year and years of abusing my body with bad foods, drugs and alcohol have caused my liver to store fatty tissue around my liver basiclly killing it slowly. They say most people never know they have any form of liver disease and find out by accident and that's just what happened to me.

However the liver has the ablitily to repair itself so now I am on a mission not only to be the best person I can be mentally but physically as well....it's going to take a lot of work and at this point I am un sure as to if I will succeed but it's one of those do or die moments. I either do it, Or I die.

So when life hands you lemons, Make lemonade!

Wish me luck my friends!

It's been a really long time since I've dropped by care2, and to be honest I can't really say why.

This has been one of those places I've always truely loved being a part of and making even a small difference here made me feel better.

Things in life don't always go as planned, I've been in and out of doctors apointments for months and at times it seems as though it will never end.
The poking and jabbing of one needle after another is starting to get truely annoying...lol

Tonight however I dropped in, and saw how much I had been missing, Seen some friends I'd not seen or spoken to in ages and it got me thinking....Thinking of everything I've been missing out on and it kind of got me down.
I miss everyone here, All the friends I made over the years were amazing and for some stupid reason I put each of you on the back burner and for that I am truely sorry.

I sometimes get into these ruts that are a downward spiral and when I am headed down that road it's not always easy to look up and see the bright sky above me.
It's something I work at on a daily basis and I think it may be quite sometime before I really learn how to re focus my energy into better and more positive things.

I wish each of you well, and know that I've thought of you often and again I am sorry for not staying in touch.

Hugs

John Peter Frederick - Born: Jun.3rd 1951 - Died: Nov. 30th 2008

On Sunday night god felt it was time for my father to come be with him.
I hope that in his final moments on this earth he did not fell alone and felt no pain or suffering.

Hi is now with his 2nd wife Nancy and may they look down on this world and know that in all our hearts they are missed.

My father and I did not have the greatest of relationships, but he was my father and with out his life I would not be here today.
He could make me laugh and also bring me to tears, but when he was on my smile was huge and there was always the great adventure.

My biggest fear is that he died thinking I hated him, I hope he knows that despite everything deep in my heart he was loved.
I will miss never getting the chance to say that to him one last time but I have the hope in my heart that god will show him how I truely felt and all the choices I am making to become a better person.
I hope my father would be proud of the women I became and will be able to look down upon me with love and help in my guidence as I still strive to be a better women.

I'm sorry dad, for never stopping for a moment to think about how you might be hurting. I hope you know I only did what I did to try and save myself and that you can forgive me for taking steps back away from you in that process.

I was sure I would never see this day come, that you would out live us all. But now your gone and it was so sudden and so tragic I find myself lost.
I'll see you some day again daddy.
Til then help to keep me safe and on the right paths.
Love and Blessings
Tami

Hey Everyone,

Just got an email from Bret over at Scene magazine, Nominations have started for the 2008 London Music Awards!!!
http://www.scenemagazine.com/awards/nominateform.html 

This year the process is a lot different from last year..it take a wee bit longer to nominate someone...about 5 mins.

But this year they are also adding the chance to be seen at Canadian Music Week in Toronto, which would be SO cool!!

I have added myself in the catagory most popular singer/songwriter as it's really the only catagory I feel I fit into.

So if you would be so kind as to drop on over and send a nomination my way, Maybe next year I will have a better video to post on YouTube of me actually winning..lol

The experience of being a part of this is just amazing, and I can not tell you enough how much I appreciate each of you standing by me and helping me to fullfill my life long dream.

It's the only one I have left and I am not giving it up for anything, Win or Lose this will be quite a cool experience once again!

Thanks again Everyone!

Hugs and Kisses,

Tami

http://www.scenemagazine.com/awards/nominateform.html