Every tear you never cried is waiting for you… and they’re heavy.
I say this sometimes to coaching clients, a reassurance of sorts that the surge of emotions they experience as we dig deeper into what’s not working in their lives, is normal. We are talking about the hardest of the hard parts of their lives. These are often the best kept secrets, the lowest lows, the patterns that that they’ve been unable to break. We are working on the things that hurt and almost always that these women haven’t taken the time or energy or perhaps had the resources to release. It’s all in there, waiting for its turn.
There is little that I find more disorienting than sitting on my couch, sobbing into a bowl of cereal, and hearing the words that I have so often offered to comfort others whispered back from somewhere deep within my own knowing. Every tear you never cried is waiting for you… and they’re heavy.
I can’t get anyone to tell me exactly what a “hot mess” is but I’m pretty sure that this still isn’t it. I’ve just cried more than an hour’s worth of the biggest, heaviest tears. A mess? Yes, absolutely. But the bedhead, pile of snotty tissues, and the cat drinking the remaining almond milk out of my cereal bowl are decidedly not hot.
My morning was completely derailed by random acts of kindness by strangers, and they weren’t even being nice to me. Awesome, right?
This not-hot mess started with this story:
“The young father stood in line at the Kmart layaway counter, wearing dirty clothes and worn-out boots. With him were three small children.
He asked to pay something on his bill because he knew he wouldn’t be able to afford it all before Christmas. Then a mysterious woman stepped up to the counter.
“She told him, ‘No, I’m paying for it,’” recalled Edna Deppe, assistant manager at the store in Indianapolis. “He just stood there and looked at her and then looked at me and asked if it was a joke. I told him it wasn’t, and that she was going to pay for him. And he just busted out in tears.”
She paid off around 50 layaway accounts, handed out some cash, and paid for a couple of people’s purchases before leaving the store that day. All of which she did in honor of her husband who died recently.