Loving Yourself Means Warts and All

Did you ever think or say to yourself: Im worthless, Ill never amount to anything. Were easily obsessed with with who we and how we appear to others, if we are even lovable; we constantly confront situations that test our sense of self worth and beset us with doubts. Then the thought creeps in: How can anyone love me when Im such a loser, when I dont love or even appreciate myself?

Just to be clear: loving ourselves is not done as an expression of the ego where we centralize only on ourselves, but as a genuine appreciation of our humanness in a world that is constantly changing.

When Ed first met Deb he felt hopelessly unlovable. Possibly because his mother died five days after he was born, possibly because he grew up with yelling and arguments as the norm and he was constantly fearful of getting punished or smacked. His stepmother would even mark the milk bottle so she knew how much milk hed drunk. When he was about six he first became aware of family happiness at a cousins house where they were playing around a Christmas tree. So, no surprise that Ed suffered from feeling unlovable. Yet here was this woman saying she cared?

Now were coming up to our 28th anniversary. Most people tend to marry someone who is either just like themselves or is just the opposite, which is what we did. In England they would say were as different as chalk and cheese! This difference can be great — a welcome balance to our own neuroses — or it can be maddening. We havent gotten through the last 28 years without many moments of exasperation, or times when were saying the same thing but in a different way, such as: “The ceiling is flat.” “No, the ceiling is white!”

Loving ourselves can appear impossible; it seems far easier to love someone else. But if we don’t start with ourselves then we cant truly care about anyone else: we only love another if he or she loves us, as this is the love were not giving to ourselves.

Don’t get us wrong. Loving ourselves isn’t airy-fairy; it’s very grounded and real, a process of accepting ourselves just as we are, including shadow issues, past hurts, traumas, hidden rage or deep feelings of grief, so that we feel comfortable in our own skin. We can take a long look and slowly bring each piece into awareness and compassion. Meditation can help here as it enables us see ourselves clearly, it gives us a spaciousness to step back from the dramas and to make friends with our demons.

Such self-acceptance means were no longer embarrassed by ourselves. Theres no need to defend the ego, which keeps us thinking were unworthy. We can even surrender the desire to be right in an argument. We can also say no to what is unacceptable, without thinking we have to please everyone.

Loving ourselves is a journey of accepting more and more deeply until it becomes transformed into joy as we realize we are all lovable and were all held in love. This love arises from within, spontaneously and completely.

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Award-Winning Authors Ed and Deb of Be The Change, How Meditation can Transform You and the World, are mindfulness, meditation and yoga experts. Debs new novel is: Merging: Women in Love — what happens when you fall in love with the least likely person of the least likely gender? and shes the author of Your Body Speaks Your Mind, now in 19 languages. They have three meditation CDs. See more at EdandDebShapiro.com


Fi T.
Past Member 2 years ago

The start of harmony and life fulfilment

Brian M.
Past Member 2 years ago

Love is only possible in the humble brightness of self-acceptance. Perfection, Imperfection, who can say? No distinction. Simply move toward happiness and accept that all is well within and without.

Beth Wilkerson
Beth Wilkerson2 years ago

I certainly am not there yet.

Ariya Mendy Hembran
H e m b r a n d2 years ago


Mark H.
Mark H2 years ago

TY! I like the appreciation aspect as a kind of door.

Sandy G.
Sandy G2 years ago

Great article. Thanks so much.

Sonia Valencia
Sonia Valencia2 years ago

I like this article..thanks!

Judy Apelis
Judy A2 years ago

Thank you!!

JL A2 years ago

important insights

Julia Oleynik
Julia Oleynik2 years ago

All the love rises from te inside of us. That's why we should cultivate it by accepting ourselves, so that to feel it all around. Thank you :)