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What My Ali Cat Taught Me About Loss and Grief

What My Ali Cat Taught Me About Loss and Grief

When I finally euthanized my beloved cat, Ali, a knife slashed my heart.

I’m not much of a crier, but when I said goodbye and handed Ali over to the vet, my face collapsed into a full-out bawl. My boyfriend led me to my apartment – I couldn’t see through my tears – where I crawled into bed and sunk into grief.

By the next morning, my mourning was over.

I awoke feeling happy and light — almost levitated — because Ali had been sick a long time, and the decision to put her down was torture. Grief had passed, and happy memories emerged like sunlight behind a thundercloud.

I remembered the afternoon I rescued Ali from a psycho-biology lab and brought her to my studio apartment, my first home out of college. I remembered our first trip to the beach, and her blank look when I demanded she release the sparrow struggling in her teeth.

I remembered stroking her soft, white fur – Ali was short for Alabaster — and how her purr drowned out the city din when she curled around my head at night.

But these fast, fond memories unnerved me. How could my bond with Ali be so quickly and easily broken? Was I so shallow that after only a day of wailing, my feelings for my dead cat were reduced to, “Good times. Nice to know ya”?

Did ice water run through my veins?

“You gave yourself permission to grieve,” says Diane Snyder Cowan, director of the Bereavement Center for Hospice of the Western Reserve, in Cleveland, Ohio. “By being able to express yourself, you had a cathartic release. Many people don’t understand the grief associated with a death of a pet. They hide their feelings among people who say, ‘It’s only a pet.’ Their grief is disenfranchised.”

I thought a lot about grief after Ali’s death and decided that I recovered so quickly because, unlike my connections with humans, our relationship was so simple.

“I love you; you love me.”

Not, “I love you, but you make me feel less-than.” Or, “You love me to control me.”

My feelings for Ali were pure, unadulterated by resentment, regret, and guilt – the baggage that makes mourning people so heavy and difficult to wade through.

Of course, many people have more complicated relationships with pets, which makes their mourning a longer and harder process. Pets, for some, are sole sources of love and comfort, and living without them is like living without oxygen.

Sometimes, a pet’s death dredges up buried feelings about humans who have passed.

“I’ve seen people who have suffered many human losses, but it wasn’t until their pet passed that they sought therapy,” say Anne Cattarello, a Boulder, Colo., counselor specializing in pet loss and bereavement counseling.

Whatever fuels pet grief, it’s often hard to accept how much it hurts, and to share that pain with someone who won’t smother it under platitudes like, “You can always get another cat.”

Luckily, the helping community is beginning to pay its respects to pet grief. Therapists are seeking training in pet mourning, and pet loss support groups are springing up around the country and online.

If you’re a DIY mourner, here are some ways to work through your grief.

1. Talk with other pet lovers who have lost a cherished animal and understand the impact of a pet’s passing.
2. If someone says, “He was only a dog,” don’t slink away angry and hurt. Reply, “To me, Sparky was more than just a pet.”
3. Create rituals to help mourn your pet, like having a backyard burial or placing a framed picture on your nightstand or fireplace mantle.
4. Resist the impulse to get another pet too soon. Give yourself time to heal before plunging into another important relationship with an animal.
5. Understand that children often mourn in spurts – cry a little, play a lot, cry a little more. Give them space to express and understand their feelings.
6. Remember that pets mourn pets, too. Give your surviving animals extra hugs and playtime.

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Lisa Kaplan Gordon

Lisa Kaplan Gordon, creator of, is an award-winning journalist, avid gardener and fly-fisher. She lives in Northern Virginia on a half acre that always needs weeding. Please visit her on Twitter (@kaplan_lisa) and Facebook (Lisa Kaplan Gordon)


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7:49AM PDT on Sep 25, 2014

I am crying for the loss of your Ali, and for the loss of all my fur babies who are waiting for me at the Rainbow bridge!
I also have a 18 year old cat who is sick right now. I don't think she will be around much longer and that makes my heart hurt.

10:11AM PDT on Sep 14, 2014

Thank you

6:43PM PDT on Aug 23, 2014

Pets give us a tremendous amount of love, and leave a tremendous hole in our lives when they die.

7:47AM PDT on Aug 17, 2014

Interesting article, thank you

6:34AM PDT on Aug 17, 2014

thank you.

5:03AM PDT on Aug 17, 2014

Interesting article, but I don't think grieving periods are so easily correlated with whether the relationship was simple or not. I'm glad you lived a short grief this time and Ithink putting Ali's welfare over yours played a role in this, but grief and mourning change each time.

The few times someone has told me "it's just a pet" I have pointed out that pets usually give more love, company and empathy than many humans. Pets can certainly accept that I feel grief and try to comfort me, which is more those particular "someones" were proving capable of doing.

6:23AM PDT on Aug 8, 2014

I too, had to make that awful decision of having to put my Maine Coon down. Ultimately I knew it was the best thing to do for him since he had been sick for a while. Doesn't mean that the decision of actual doing it was any easier. I wanted to be selfish and keep him around for as long I could - I couldn't imagine ever having a wonderful awesome kitty like him again. I was so lucky that he had picked me to be his momma 15 years ago. He and my JRT have been my only constants in my life as I'm not married, nor do I have any children. So I didn't just lose my kitty, I lost a beloved family member. Even today I'm crying as I write this. So Lisa, I feel your pain of the loss. Thank you for sharing yours and Ali's story.

7:00AM PDT on Aug 6, 2014

Thank you!

8:41AM PDT on Aug 5, 2014

Thanks for the understanding article. I wish it would have been that way for me. I do have to say though...I had six other cats to love unconditionally after my favorite cat wimpy died. Thanks again :)

7:04PM PDT on Aug 4, 2014

thank you for your sharing story...still miss our Snowball pup....and its been 2 years........

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