For the majority of my life I felt flawed. Not slightly flawed, drastically flawed.
I see now that I was simply so desperate to feel wanted, desired, cherished, cared for – any version of love that would show up I would grab hold and not let go…I feared it was all I would ever get.
I would do anything to “prove” my worth – going above and beyond the call of duty many times, only to find heartbreak, disappointment and betrayal.
Each heartbreak, disappointment and betrayal then only solidified what I felt in my heart to be true – I was damaged, beyond repair, like the sofa you put out on the curb for the city to take to the dump. Although unlike the sofa, I had never felt loved – even when shiny, clean and new.
My deepest, darkest secret was that I felt UN-Loveable.
I never even had the wish that someone would actually commit to loving me forever.
When I would get quiet I would ask myself, “What do I want? What do I really want?”
Every time the answer was LOVE.
Love is the greatest thing of all, and you have the power to create exactly the love you most desire because the fact that you desire it means it is possible for you….Continue reading at InspireMeToday.com.
Orna is a speaker and master coach and co-founder of the Love On Purpose Revolution, busting the myth that love is supposed to happen by accident.