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Jim Jaston

"Dying of grief. Today my beloved father died. We will always miss you pappy. 21 August 1963 - 28 March 2012. I still cannot believe I'm without you"

Phoenix, AZ, USA
male, age 30
committed relationship
Speaks: English, Italian, French
Joined Feb 7, 2012

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Walking through the Tokyo Metropolitan Central Wholesale Market,
the fish stands disgorge bloody waves,
I too, here, bite the fleshy bait.
It's windy & I smell the fishy tears of the sunken peaceful surging triangle
entangled, netted. I saw the sixth continent engraved with a red sun disc
Jim Jaston, Me.

"Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead.”
- Charles Bukowski

 "We are like roses that have never bothered to
bloom when we should have bloomed and it is as if the sun has become disgusted with waiting"
- From the poem "Finish" written by Charles Bukowski

But, truly, I have wept too much! The Dawns are heartbreaking. Every moon is atrocious and every sun bitter.
Arthur Rimbaud

For Elizabeth
It is winter ending on earth. The planets align tomorrow in March and grow more distant from the sun and each other like stray, worn soldiers retreating from an enemy that no longer exists. It is a mild spring in purgatory. In green limbo the children whose foreheads are dry, whose hands do not grow, are transformed themselves to seasons of birds circling an obelisk of shivering mercury. None are allowed prey, none are allowed heaven's crooked beak. They are radiant swallows with thorns for tongues to feed on the shifting mercury from the mythology of God's hand, which I cannot break, even now, under this tearful scrutiny. I've tried. I've tried. I am allowing to pass through me a statement of death. You, the catalyst of such distorted memory. In that limbo the children move in some strange gravity within and outside Grace. Their Lord is angry. They have died with their innocence untested. None knows what it has been or will be ~ each day it changes without changing ~ do you understand what I am saying? It is the life you chose on this Earth, the life of junk and lies. But that wasn't You, I knew You ~ you had perfect lips, eyes like a true child, your breasts unformed, an incandescent mind. This place where I put you now, it is a cursed season, an awkward line, a flawed circle, a snake on fire devouring what tomorrow it will itself become"
Jim Carroll

I've lost a friend
And I don't know why
But never again
Will we get together to die.
And why after every last shot
Was there always another?
Why after all you hadn't got
Did you leave your life to your mother?
And Honey Harlow
The singer burlesque queen
How did she know
You needed morphine?
Why didn't you listen
To the warning words of your friends

While they told you so?
I know you couldn't listen
To people talk about
What they didn't know.

I've lost a friend

And I don't know why
But never again
Will we get together to die.
And why after every last shot
Was there always another?
Why after all you hadn't got
Did you leave your life to your mother?
- Nico.

When I think of myself dead

I think of automobiles parked in a

parking lot

when I think of myself dead

I think of frying pans

When I think of myself dead

I think of somebody making love to you

when I'm not around 


When I think of myself dead
I have trouble breathing 

When I think of myself dead
I think of all the people waiting to die 

When I think of myself dead
I think I won't be able to drink water anymore 

When I think of myself dead
the air goes all white
the roaches in my kitchen tremble
and somebody will have to throw
my clean and dirty underwear away.
Charles Bukowski

I do not need money.
I have need of feelings
of words, words chosen wisely
of flowers called thoughts,
of roses called presences
of dreams inhabiting the trees,
of songs that make statues dance,
of stars that murmur to the ear of lovers.
I need poetry
this spell which burns the weight of words
that arouses emotions and gives new colors.

Love do not damn me to my fate
Hold me open all the seasons
let my great and warm decline
not fall asleep along drives
put in passive all the passions
sleep on the pillow tenderly
where grow provident ambitions
of love and universal passion 
take my everything and do not hurt me.

Alda Merini

“I don't like Paradise,
As they probably don't have obsessions there.”
― Alda Merini

A Dream Within A Dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?
- Edgar Allan Poe.

Michael McClure, Bob Dylan & Allen Ginsberg

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Hometown London, UK 
Birthday April 29, 1989  
About Me I love being on my own. Affected from multiple sclerosis I'm inward-looking, open-minded and witty. A reader, a walker and a writer. I still want the world and I want it now!
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Activist Aspirations Enthusiastic
Political Leaning Indifferent
Wild Fact About Me I'm about to turn 23. My parents split up when I was 13. I used to self-harm myself. My father, my brother and I rallied around one another and always smoothed out difficulties. We had so many good and unforgettable times.
My Philosophy To open the door of your house and go out, the importance of doing that, is bigger than voting and supporting a political party
What Gives Me Hope The fact I can raise awareness over matters we all should be involved with
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by Don't think I could ever be one. I'm too much of a traveller.
What/who changed my life and why What changed my life? Life did it, love did it and death did it as well.
Quotation "Meat is murder"
"A bone to the dog is not charity. Charity is the bone shared with the dog, when you are just as hungry as the dog."
"The old believe everything: the middle-aged suspect everything: the young know everything"
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    Jim, I hope all is well.  Haven't seen you in a while.


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    Enjoy your special day Jim!

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    Jim, I wish for you many years of good health, happiness and Love!

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