The Sound Sanctuary

born in 1964    here is my life and music in review.  enjoy yall

can you name all of the characters?

joesy and the pussycats

pop quiz: what was the name of the african american girl pictured?

What was the name of the blond pictured?

Zelda, awesome starting your own thread thank you so much and Im sorry cant help with the pop quiz yet but I will keep an eye out for anything I can answer, hugs for you x x

here is a better one

video:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IQLZmGybUXU

When i went into elementary school my parents sent me to a white school  just before bussing started. 

this song was my attemped to start conversaions with my white class mates. this was the song i started with.

Backman turner overdrive

the video sucks but the song is good.

in september 1974 school busing of black students to white school was a Very,very contavercial subject. many people (student) both black and white got caught caught up in the cross fire. some lives were messed up.  My life was very much altered.    

whew

bad memories.

Angie Baby by helen Ready

this was one of my favorite songs.   OF all time!!!

i feel it was a song about myself.  the next year that would be almost too true .

In 1975 my folks had commisioned a home builder to build us our new dream home.  We were all very excited.   it was compleeted around January 1975 and we moved in.    

but hell and racism  was just on the horizon. 

here was one of my childhood faves

John denver thank God  i am  a country boy

a life long fave

elton John     Lucy in the sky with diamonds

i like this verson better than the beatles

When busing hit my area the kids who were bused were so f*cking mean to me.   I was in love with elton John (still am)  and the kids who were bused in from the housing projects had it in for me. I got beat up for things that were just plain silly. ex. throwing something in the trash that missed the can. I got my *ss kicked for that.

I was going thru puberty and i needed my mother, but she was going thru her own Hell.

She was the only black teacher at her school. There was one to many teacher there and they wanted to get rid of one of the teachers.  the general census was that she should volunteer. but she would'nt that caused a hell of a lot of discourse at school. 

ove this song by elton John

mom was never called a 'n*gger' at the job but everything short of that was happening.   

then the sh*t hit the fan.   

on the last day of school she was testing a student in math.   there was another student with emotional problems  that came into the building  cursing and kicking the walls and/ or lockers.   she went out in the hall way to see what the problem was. the student in question called her a b*tch, a n*gger,a whore ect.  Mom got scared and sent the student who was testing to the principals office to get help.   she should not have done that.  when the other student had gone the disturbed little boy came into the room and tryed to beat her up.  he had a tape recorder and he swung it at her he just missed hitting her in the chin. Naturally she felt she had to defend herself. so she punched him.  He fell down and was crying.  he was being scarcastic and he got up and started to swing at her again. she tryed to get away but she was cornered.  the principal finally came and took the little boy to the office with him.  

she came home and told me what had happened  she was very depressed.

i rember that day.  it kinda gave me the creeps.

the next day the principal called her in and they talked about what had happened.  she told him she was defending herself from being hit  with an heavy tape recorder. he (the principal) felt that she was out of line for hitting a student.  so he asked the school district to fire her. and they did.

I rember the day she had to go up to the school and clean out her  class room.  in my innocents i just thought she was moving to a new school. 

She contacted  a lawyer and said she was going to sue.  the school district said 'ok,ok,we will hire you back and everything will be the same as it was.'      Mom was not fool she knew that what they were going to do was take her back and frame her for some trumped up something. then she would'nt have any recourse in a lawsuit.

this was a damn good video. my brother and i both loved this song.

in september 1975 this was the number one song.  Fame by david bowie.  

september is when all school are back in session. all of the other teachers went back to school but mom could'nt.   She was so hurt. She fell into a deep clinical deppression. that lasted about two years. she slept thru the year of 1976.  there was nothing physically wrong with her. but she spent so much time in bed that she developed bed sores.    

I was not fairing much better. I was being being harrassed,beaten,defamed,ignored and abuse by my classmates. the white kids wanted nothing to do with me.  the black kids thought that i was trying to be white.  they said that i talked like  a white girl. what ever that means.  

barry white my first ,my last,my everything. 

i had no choice but to follow my mom into a sever clincal depression.  I am still suffering and struggling  from depression to this day.

i hated my life then and i tryed to kill myself twice.   strange though Nobody even noticed.

this was also my first stint with unrequited love

a little boy named Pete M. i love him alright but he did'nt give a sh*t about me. hindsight being 20/20  it was infactuation.    but we did a duet and i rember it to this day.

it was  laughter in the rain by neil sedaka

1976

the Bi-centenial

the disco era was in FULL swing. it was fun.

around this time i was pulling out of my depression,and so was my mom.  slowly,very slowly.

this was my fave group 

do you rember the bay city rollers

bay city rollers singing Saturday night.

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i don't rember too much until i went to high school.   my fav movie was a hippie movie  called hair. 

i saw this movie 25 times

too fun

high school

1979

(ahhhhh)

do you rember Donna?

to be continued.........

i am sleepy and i will finish this tommorrow.

My heart goes out to you with each new post you make here, I want to thank you for being so open and sharing so much of yourself and your wonderful music with us all, thank you

i THINK A LOT a lot of people think highschool was a strange blur.  but i had a nice time.  When i was a freshman i was on the pep squad.   me and 175 others. 

i was fairly popular in my freshman year.  after that not too many people gave me attention.  that was ok though.  I am not an attention hog.

1982

graduation 

I graduated from highschool on my birthday

may 8 ,1982

TEXAS WOMAN'S

UNIVERSITY

FRESHMAN CLASS OF 1982

THE NUMBER ONE SONG ON SEPTEMBER 15,1982 WAS

i think it was physical by oliva newton John

i thought this song was the bomb.

     I think i would be stupid if i said i was ready for college.  I wanted to take a year off ,work two jobs and  have some money saved for school.  my mother would'nt hear of it.  I had to go in the fall and that was that.  I should have followed my intuition  and stayed out for a while.  I think the best thing for me to have done was go to some of the community colleges and get the basics under my belt .  but NOOOOOOOO mom would'nt here of that ither.  I just was'nt ready to go to college soooo, i flunked out the first year.

. ten stint  

cats was starting its 18 season on broadway

this was the best song for my feminst view at TWU

the gogo's   WE got the beat.

jenny (867-5309)

young turks by rod stewart

this song had some damn good advise in it.

" life is so brief and time is a thief when you are undecided."  that line is the story of my life. 

as i said ,I was'nt ready for college.  I had everything,a checking account, my own room, a cool roommate,and time that i could do whatever the f*ck i wanted to do with.  

that was too much joy.   i did not understand anything. example:  I had five classes and i thought that one was part of the other. so i thought that i had a two hour break between classes , i did'nt know was missing a very important class.  I tryed to stick it out in the class but i was two weeks late when i realized i was missing this class. I should have droped. and taken it the next  semester.  This type of mistake was not uncommon for me.  missed projects, not takeing good notes, and worst of all getting sick .

there was three diffrent semesters where i got so sick i had to be hospitalized and drop out of college.   that was a big set back.

my mother was and still is a world class nag. She would nag me about finding a good church and getting involved with it. I hated church. too long too boring,too unrelated to the thing i needed in life.   

Join a church! mom would nag.  so i did. the worst one i think i could have joined at that time in my life.   

the Jehovas witnesses , big misstake. 

( for those of you who are JW i mean no disrespect but it just was'nt the church for my needs)

JW was a lesson in lonliness,and insecurity.

it was the start of a religious downward spiral. 

to be continued

i guess that i was looking for a place to belong. I am a natural born artist and my artistic ability was the one thing that made me comfortable in my own skin. 

When i was with the Jw they told me that 1. i should'nt go to college because college was a bad influence. 2. I should'nt  do my art work because it was of the devil. 

this sent me into a bit of a tale spin but i had enough fortitude to stay the corse. I did go to college and i did do my art work.  I did'nt have a good relationship with the JW from that point on.

Then i went to someother religion or shall i say  cult. where i was subject to sexual abuse.  I will not go into that because it was just too personal.

my life had been devistated  and all i could do was blame God. I had said to him 'God, you know that i was just seeking you and i got burned so now it is up to you. I give up. one week later a guy that i had a crush on when i was a kid came back into my life for a short time.  He pointed me in the direction of the famous,word of faith church. I know a lot of people look down their noses at pastor bob tilton but that church was the first church where i really got to know God , the real God and his love.  and it was beautiful. for the first time in my life i found JOY in knowing God. yeah , i had some bad experences there ,reallly bad experences but in the end the joy was all that mattered.

becuae of illness it took me 9 years to graduate from college,but i DID.

seeing my deploma for the first time was like seeing my "first baby for the first time". it was so beautiful.

and i even graduated on my birthday.  same as highschool.

NOW I AM OUT OF COLLEGE 

WHAT DO I DO NOW.

SO WHAT DO I DO?

I get a job being a substitute teacher. wonderful job but no future in it. I love the kids,it is the adults that are the childish ones.  sigh

this was life changing

I was at home that day. I was watching 'good morning America on ABC. I rember i was sitting on the floor doing back exercises. Good morning america was having a contest call "i see scary movies contest' and the winners would be announced the next day. They were doing a finalist showing.

good morning america (GMA)was talking about the days news. Shondra Leviy disapperacne was the top story. i rember I had a strange 'felling'. I know , i know you might be saying that is bullshit. I had some advanced warning about some empending  disaster,yeah right.  I don't like to say i know the future but i have to be honest. I just had this strange feeling in my stomach;something is not right in the world.  I did not know what it was i just knew something was very wrong.   

now,please do'nt think i am being heartless, but i believe that the world trade center disaster would not have affected me so bad had it not fallen.  Yeah, i was awful to see people jump,pushed,fall to their deaths but the metal image of the whole building falling to the ground in a mushroom formation was hard to wrap my simple little head around. 

for some reason i could not help but to think that the smoke and dust was a 'ghost' 

i mean no disrespect for the people who died but i just had the hardest time understanding what happened.

i instantainously went into denial. it was all a big misunderstanding. The building are still there it was just one hell of a trick from David copperfield.  rember he made the statue of liberty disappear.  i kept hopping back and forth in my mind.  this is kinda like pearl Harbor,but pearl harbor was real. this is kinda like Titanic,but the titanic was real. my mind was going back and forth. The building fell. NO it was trick photorophy,no people were still in the building,no everybody got out safely,no people were jumping ect.  

When it finally sank in;really sank in I screamed. 

fast forward eight years to now.  i have a big problem with my weight. and i am going to start a major diet on January 15,2009.

I have been visiting doctors and physical therapist to get me ready for this.

I am ready ,i am ready

I am not going to kid myself that starting a diet during the holidays is a good idea.  I am going to eat. I just will keep record of what i eat and how much.

I still suffer from deppression but i have something new to look forward to.

WEDDING BELLS

it is one hell of a trade off

big mac

or

big wedding

big mac

big wedding

big mac

big wedding

big mac

big wedding

big mac

or

big wedding

hummmmmm

I will take the big wedding

I WILL STILL TAKE THE BIG WEDDING