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Victim or Victimizer December 22, 2009 7:29 PM

I am a survivor of 10 years of domestic violence. I made it out first physically, but the hard part was getting out mentally. I wrote this poem that I called the After Effect because when I finally made it out mentally also I was shocked at what I discovered about Domestic Violence that is rarely spoken upon - the fact that the victim can sometimes be more abusive than the abuser. My poem explains this. Please feel free to comment and share. This needs to be discussed because it is in giving our voice to a situation that freedom occurs for you for me and for others. Blessed Be... The After Effect... Who swung first? I havent a clue Though all of the evidence points at you Your overpowering strength The rage in your eyes My bruised up body Supporting the disguise That you swung first Thats what I want everyone to see My tear stained face Soaking up all their sympathy As I wrap myself in a web full of lies Blame, guilt, rage Hastening my demise How long will it take before I finally say, 'ENOUGH!' I cant do this no longer I have suffered too much What happens when I walk away from you? No longer able to hide the despicable truth That before you could hit me Before the rage in your eyes Before I believed and repeated The myriad of lies Before I found myself Stuck in this crazy place Where I allowed anything and anyone to enter my space Now alone in the mirror and faced with the truth That the first one to hit me was not you Alone in the mirror I can now see That the first one to hit me was me Though the bruises you gave me went away It was the ones I dealt out that stayed The ones I dealt out that kept me bound The ones I dealt out That held me down The abuse didnt stop though I left you it continued on until I faced the truth I had to stop abusing myself It was time for me to get some help from me is couldnt run from my thoughts i couldnt hide you couldnt see my bruises cause they were now inside So even though Ive gotten away from you The domestic violence will not stop until I stop beating up on me too. Silence (broken) **********************The first time you are a victim. The second time you are a participant.***************  [ send green star]  [ accepted]
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