I am a bundle of contradictions... but always I am filled with unconditional love & honesty.
I am filled with passion and a zest for life - so much so that I can become a bit intense for some people to handle. Other times I am filled with darkness and sorrow that can hardly be managed. I am, I dare say, never mediocre at anything!
I am genius and madness... driven & stuck... there is great beauty within me... my spirit is open and loving beyond many people's comprehension - try to take my word on this - many have trouble believing I am for real... I am... but with that, I suppose, comes a high price...
When you choose to open yourself up to feel the pain and suffering that is in the world - there are going to be dark times that seem to overwhelm you... life is about learning to put it all in perspective and do what you can - when you can.
I believe in loving truly unconditionally - in every sense of the word - unconditional. That doesn't mean if someone harms you that you stand there and allow them to keep doing you harm... but it means that you seperate the action from the person. You learn to love them from afar - if necessary. You continue to love and accept them as they are - but no longer accept them at that close of a distance in your life... that is unconditional love. It is also accepting that people have the capacity to love you and others at the same time and that their love of others does not threaten their love for you...
These theories are continually being "tested" in my life/heart/mind/spirit each day...
I am somehow deeply tied to Afrika... have known it since early childhood... some call that a "calling" - I don't know what it is... I always say that my soul is Afrikan... I love everything about Afrika and her people...
I understand my father to have been a small part Afrikan Amerikan as well, which makes me = you know = the one drop rule...lol... truth is... doesn't really matter what my recent genetics say... Afrika is where we all originated from and Afrikan is what I be... to me, all that really matters is where a person's heart and soul belong...
To say this is not to say that I don't feel a bond or connection with other people... anyone who knows me - knows that I love people - all people... truly , madly, deeply... I am always searching for ways in which each of us are tied and connected to one another - there is good in all people... I believe that completely. I have had the somewhat unfortunate opportunity to test many of the things I believe in through "challenging" times & things that have been less than ideal circumstances in life. What I learned was that I have the capacity to love and heal and accept anyone and everyone - no matter who they are - or what "wrongs" they may have perpetrated in life. If I can do it - you can too!
I am always on the road of self-improvement - but not in the "it's the in thing to do" kind of way, but simply because it is my way. I am never afraid to take a good hard honest look at myself and see all of me - even that which isn't pretty all the time and to learn to come out of that on the otherside to find the beauty that lies within every "ugly" truth = because I believe there always is one.
Everything I have ever said I would "never" do in my life - I have done and had to learn to get back up on my feet from those experiences, dust myself off, take the lesson, and move along. One great lesson = never say never! Given the right or wrong set of circumstances I think that every human being is capable of the greatest greatness and also the darkest of darkness.
I know it frightens far too many people to learn to sit with their own inner darkness and to accept that, just maybe, God is within all of these elements of self. I have grown to know great blessings in even the darkest of my moments in my life - if that is true - how are they “wrong� or “sin� or “bad� or “evil�? In my sense of reality, all experience is part of the great Divine experience... and I openly embrace every bit of it!
I have a son who is about to graduate from high school and it is my great desire that he will learn how to become a responsible and active world citizen and couchsurfing traveller... he has been my whole world for most of his life - so his transition into adulthood shall be interesting... pray for us as I pray for you and yours...
I'm 38 years old & about to be a grandmother (nyanya) perhaps before I turn 39! Ain't that something else?
My Philosophy
What Gives Me Hope
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
What/who changed my life and why
Here's a list of just a few of the books I recommend:
1. Radical Forgiveness, Making Room for the Miracle, 2nd Edition by Colin C. Tipping
2. The Invitation - Boxed Set by Oriah
3. The Dance: Moving to the Rhythms of Your True Self by Oriah Mountain Dreamer
4. The Call by Oriah Mountain Dreamer
5. Conversations with God : An Uncommon Dialogue (Book 1) by Neale Donald Walsch
6. Conversations With God : An Uncommon Dialogue (Book 2) by Neale Donald Walsch
7. Conversations With God : An Uncommon Dialogue (Book #3) by Neale Donald Walsch
8. Questions and Answers on Conversations With God by Neale Donald Walsch
9. Friendship with God: An Uncommon Dialogue by Neale Donald Walsch
10. The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom, A Toltec Wisdom Book by Don Miguel Ruiz
11. You Can Heal Your Life Companion Book (Hay House Lifestyles) by Louise Hay
12. The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire: Harnessing the Infinite Power of Coincidence (Deepak Chopra) by Deepak Chopra
13. The Book of Secrets: Unlocking the Hidden Dimensions of Your Life (Chopra, Deepak) by Deepak Md Chopra
14. The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success: A Practical Guide to the Fulfillment of Your Dreams (based on Creating Affluence) by Deepak Chopra
15. How to Know God: The Soul's Journey Into the Mystery of Mysteries (Deepak Chopra)
16. The Seven Spiritual Laws for Parents: Guiding Your Children to Success and Fulfillment (Chopra, Deepak) by Deepak Chopra
17. Quantum Healing (Deepak Chopra)
18. The Path to Love: Spiritual Strategies for Healing by Deepak Chopra
19. Grow Younger, Live Longer: Ten Steps to Reverse Aging by David Simon
20. Our Endangered Values: America's Moral Crisis by Jimmy Carter
21. Dreams from My Father: A Story of Race and Inheritance by Barack Obama
22. People's History of the United States: 1492 to Present (P.S.) by Howard Zinn
23. I Am Amazed by Jodi Hills
24. Beginning: Encouragement at the Start of Something New by Warren Hanson
25. The Next Place by Warren Hanson
26. Believe by Jodi Hills
27. Hope-so Too: When Two Hope Together Dreams Come True. by Jodi Hills
28. The Giving Tree 40th Anniversary Edition Book with CD
29. Everyone Poops (My Body Science Series) by Taro Gomi
30. Oh, the Places You'll Go! Deluxe Edition (Classic Seuss)
31. To Hell with Dying by Alice Walker
32. They Came Before Columbus: The African Presence in Ancient America by Ivan Van Sertima
33. Yesterday I Cried: Celebrating The Lessons Of Living And Loving by Iyanla Vanzant
34. In the Meantime...: Finding Yourself and the Love You Want by Iyanla Vanzant
35. One Day My Soul Just Opened Up: 40 Days and 40 Nights Toward Spiritual Strength and Personal Growth by Iyanla Vanzant
36. Where White Men Fear to Tread: The Autobiography of Russell Means by Russell Means
37. The Double Helix: A Personal Account of the Discovery of the Structure of DNA by James D. Watson
38. The Essential Gandhi: An Anthology of His Writings on His Life, Work, and Ideas by Mahatma Gandhi
39. The Bhagavad Gita According to Gandhi by Mahatma Gandhi
40. Steve Biko Black Consciousness in South Africa by Steven Biko
41. A miserable and lonely death: A reconstruction of the inquest into the death of Steven Biko by Thames Television's "This Week" by Jon Blair
42. Steve Biko, the Inquest: A documentary based on the Inquest hearing into the death in detention of Steven Bantu Biko by Saira Essa
43. The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People by Steven Covey
44. Black Indians: A Hidden Heritage by William Loren Katz
45. Race Matters by Cornel West
46. The Gift of Change : Spiritual Guidance for a Radically New Life by Marianne Williamson
47. Everyday Grace: Having Hope, Finding Forgiveness, and Making Miracles by Marianne Williamson
48. Illuminata: A Return to Prayer by Marianne Williamson
49. A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles" by Marianne Williamson
50. Supplies by Julia Cameron
51. Heart Steps by Julia Cameron
52. Blessings by Julia Cameron
53. Transitions by Julia Cameron
54. I KNOW WHY THE CAGED BIRD SINGS by Maya Angelou
55. Talking Peace: A Vision for the Next Generation by Jimmy Carter
56. The G Spot: And Other Discoveries about Human Sexuality by Beverly Whipple
57. The Collected Poetry of Nikki Giovanni: 1968-1998 by Nikki Giovanni
58. The Collected Poems of Langston Hughes (Vintage Classics) by Langston Hughes
59. Race First: The Ideological and Organizational Struggles of Marcus Garvey and the Universal Negro Improvement Association (New Marcus Garvey Library) by Tony Martin
60. The Autobiography of Malcolm X (Penguin Modern Classics) by Malcolm X
61. The Feminine Mystique by Betty Friedan
62. The Conquest of Paradise: Christopher Columbus and the Columbian Legacy by Kirkpatrick Sale
63. The Education of Blacks in the South, 1860-1935 by James D. Anderson
64. Singin' and Swingin' and Gettin' Merry Like Christmas by Maya Angelou
65. African Presence in Early America
66. The New Our Bodies, Our Selves by The Boston Women's Health Collective
67. A Short History of Reconstruction by Eric Foner
68. The Crisis of Color and Democracy: Essays on Race, Class and Power by Manning Marable
69. Black Resistance/White Law: A History of Constitutional Racism in America by Mary Frances Berry
70. Why Black People Tend to Shout: Cold Facts and Wry Views from a Black Man's World by Ralph Wiley
71. Woman's Worth by Marianne Williamson
72. The Healing of America by Marianne Williamson
73. Sacred Ceremony: How to Create Ceremonies for Healing, Transitions, and Celebrations by Steven Farmer
74. Enchanted Love: The Mystical Power Of Intimate Relationships by Marianne Williamson
75. The Black West: A Documentary and Pictorial History of the African American Role in the Westward Expansion of the United States by William Loren Katz
76. Your Sacred Self: Making the Decision to Be Free by Wayne W. Dyer
77. The Power of Intention by Wayne W. Dyer
78. Voices of the Self: A Study of Language Competence (African American Life (Paperback)) by Keith Gilyard
79. The Narcissistic Family: Diagnosis and Treatment by Stephanie Donaldson-Pressman
80. Why Am I Still Depressed? Recognizing and Managing the Ups and Downs of Bipolar II and Soft Bipolar Disorder by Jim Phelps
81. Bipolar II: Enhance Your Highs, Boost Your Creativity, and Escape the Cycles of Recurrent Depression--The Essential Guide to Recognize and Treat the Mood Swings of This Increasingly Common Disorder by Ronald R. Fieve 82. Turning to One Another: Simple Conversations to Restore Hope to the Future by Margaret J. Wheatley 83. Afrikan Woman: The Original Guardian Angel by Ishakamusa Barashango 84. One Hundred Years of Solitude (Oprah's Book Club) by Gabriel Garcia Marquez 85. The Mastery of Love: A Practical Guide to the Art of Relationship (Toltec Wisdom Book) by Don Miguel Ruiz
86. Even the Stars Look Lonesome by Maya Angelou
87. Toni Morrison: Beloved (Columbia Critical Guides)
88. The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison
89. Tar Baby (Vintage International) by Toni Morrison
90. Black Voices
91. The Books of the American Negro Spirituals by James Weldon Johnson
92. Like a Hurricane: The Indian Movement from Alcatraz to Wounded Knee by Paul Chaat Smith
93. Postville: A Clash of Cultures in Heartland America by Stephen G. Bloom
94. Journey to the Center: A Meditation Workbook by Matthew Flickstein
95. The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Families: Building a Beautiful Family Culture in a Turbulent World by Stephen R. Covey
96. Africanisms In American Culture (Blacks in the Diaspora)
97. Custer Died for Your Sins: An Indian Manifesto (Civilization of the American Indian) by Vine Deloria
98. Running for Freedom: Civil Rights and Black Politics In America Since 1941 by Steven F Lawson
99. Children of Strangers: The Stories of a Black Family by Kathryn Morgan
100. The Chicano Movement: Youth, Identity, Power by Carlos Munoz
101. Life Makeovers: 52 Practical & Inspiring Ways to Improve Your Life One Week at a Time by Cheryl Richardson
102. The Audacity of Hope: Thoughts on Reclaiming the American Dream by Barack Obama
103. Life After Death: The Burden of Proof by Deepak Chopra
104. Power, Freedom, and Grace: Living from the Source of Lasting Happiness by Deepak Chopra
105. The Real Jimmy Carter: How Our Worst Ex-President Undermines American Foreign Policy, Coddles Dictators and Created the Party of Clinton and Kerry by Steven F. Hayward
106. The Personal Beliefs of Jimmy Carter: Winner of the 2002 Nobel Peace Prize by Jimmy Carter
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