"to live to be at least 120. to be a superhero to a world in need. To travel everywhere in the universe. to learn, love, cherish."
Jackson, NJ, USA
female, age 23
committed relationship
Speaks: 3 Semesters of forgotten French, 1 Semester forgotten Italian, 2 Semesters of German, smattering of household Austrian
Joined May 22, 2009
I'm an American who has been to Cuba. I tend to do things in fives and threes.
I'm empathic and clairsentient. I'm afraid to admit this because I'm afraid of finding out that I'm just imagining things or that I might misunderstand and get something wrong. I almost died as a child and I'm fairly certain that my grandfather brought me back. I have never met him, but I have developed a bond with him. After 9/11, I started slipping into a depression. That's when I began to notice that I could sense certain things.
I went to New Orleans when I was sixteen and felt the full force of the energy in the French Quarter. I slipped into a deeper depression during this time. Despite my experience, I'm in love with New Orleans and the south in general.
I know I have been diagnosed with depression, but I feel that my diagnosis is also linked with my clairsentience and empathy. It becomes overwhelming at times. I understand it, I love it, and I wouldn't trade what I feel for anything in the world. I can feel, bond with, and truly help others. I can understand them and accept them because, in truth, I think we set our standards for each other to unreasonable heights. When taking society's concept of weird into consideration, we all fall into that category.
When I love someone, I love them forever. They may change for the "worst", but their goodness is always there even if it never resurfaces again. I might be a bit of an idealist when it comes to humanity. I'm willing to be hurt so that I may learn to love others. I have my prejudices, but I know that that is part of my human nature. I try my best not to judge, and if I do, I really beat myself up over it.
In fact, my biggest problem is not loving myself as much as I should. I'm a Leo, so at times I may appear to be arrogant, but most of the time I feel like a frightened cub.
My love for humanity and the world is what gives me the courage to accept myself, to give others the chance to be themselves, and to fight negativity in any way I am able to.
I use my imagination all the time. A dog walking down the street could be a unicorn if I felt like it : )
...And I really do dance alone in my room.
My Philosophy
A single candle in the dark is still bright enough to make a difference. A fire ravaged forest is not impervious to new life and growth.
What Gives Me Hope
Care2, the power of voice, the power of song and music, people who have been everything but destroyed...yet they live and love. Stories....because we are all the hero of our own legend
Fictional Heroes... they were created by real people and are therefore a reflection of humanity in some ways.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
What/who changed my life and why
Kenya, my Cuban mother. You loved me for two weeks and understood my fear/loneliness though we may not have understood each others words. I will always love you. I will see you again, even if not in this life.
Regula, my Swiss sister. Your willingness to befriend me made all the difference. I say the same to you that I say about Kenya.
Sylvia Browne changed my life forever by telling me what I have always known. And Rosa changed my life forever by leading me to her.
My cousins...those two crazy siblings. I read you that story, but you may never know that I was the tortured forest spirit and you were the kind-hearted gypsy girl.
Rebecca Lynn Young...I may never see you again but, if it wasn't for you, my fractured faith in magic and life and the reality of imagination would have withered long ago. My unicorn sister you will always be.
My lover, Ronnie. I never knew what it was to see, feel, hear, cry, breathe, laugh...until I met him. If I am the strength of a beating heart, then he is the life blood that nourishes that heart. Thankyou for saving this broken winged angel, babe.
A strong and beautiful woman, BJ. With a few simple words she made me feel beautiful, made me realize that humanity and life is sacred, and gave me the courage to be a superhero to a world in need.
Testimonial on Jun 2, 2009
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Renee, I wish that your cornucopia of life is abundant in love, peace and light! Be thankful that you can share that abundance with Family and Friends this Thanksgiving.
We are blessed by the wisdom of our first people and thankful for the Great Spirit's path of life!