When I lived on the other side of the Sound, I'd sometimes stand in shallow water, while the Great Snowy Egrets fished...if I took a step and paused, took another and paused, they'd let me get very close....what a communion it was; the same morning light and caressing breeze bound us together....that was my church.
I'm a mish-mosh of traditional New England woman, and Liberal, often rebellious person. Sometimes I rebel against my own beliefs! Hehe...must come from having been the middle child.
I feel verrry strongly about Gay Marriage rights....when I see how joyful and grateful...tearful, too, the couples who wed in the first Massachusetts legal ceremonies were, it at once warmed my heart AND angered me...that they should have to be that grateful and relieved, when it should have been done LONG ago! And what about the parents? I want to be a mother of the bride, I want to wear a new dress, and beam and be proud of my daughter's wonderful relationship with her partner. How can someone be allowed to control the lives and hopes and dreams of others??!!
Speaking of global warming (was I?) here we are in the upper 80's/humidity, in a Connecticut October! Our Rhododendrons have been half-blooming all year! This is no Indian Summer, it is very different; and I don't like it, or what it's a symptom of. A couple of years ago, I'd bought some red Land's End snow boots (what's this love affair I'm having with red??) and last winter, I wore them once! The rest of the season they lay gathering dust in my room. I'm old enough to remember what the CT seasons were like, and I just can't believe that it's changing so fast!
BTW, I'm not so sure about those flourescent light bulbs, either. The instructions on how to clean up and dispose of a shattered one, and their mercury contents, does not sound comforting to me!
At any rate, I hope to one day move further North...but how far that will have to be, beats me!
OK...i have a sort of fetish for men who wear glasses!
Oh, in a nutshell i guess...you know, i've come to a weird spot, kind of like the proverbial jutting rock amidst a wild, lonely sea...all i once believed has been stripped away, & all i'm sure of, is that this Universe is too awesome...& i so want to know what's going on, what we are, what is all this! Love, tenderness, music, & that 'something' unknowable...that's what i believe in right now.
What Gives Me Hope
Jazz...gardens...late afternoon sun on the water..and also, just that, while Ultra Right Christians are mobilizing, & our govt. is stepping over boundaries, here-to-fore unheard of, i am also seeing more & more people standing up for others of different race and/or sexual orientation, and seeing more young people with accepting attitudes...more than in generations past...yes, there is a lot of hope, if we stay on track, & work towards what we believe!
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
in honor of my daughter & all the others like her, i'd make gay marriage legal..how can we have equal rights yet separate?! Then i'd take all the men with too much testosterone, & send them to all the hungry countries to feed the children, instead of fighting wars! Oh, i know, i'm a tough woman President, but someone's gotta do it!
What/who changed my life and why
Having Laura, because I was an introvert, and she, the opposite...so she'd talk to everyone (as a toddler) and then I had to also talk, and it brought me out...sort of. Some of Jeanette Winterson's books touch me...they have a sense of the journey, and that we're all OK, as we search...and that passion is a good part of that search. A movie that moved me was, The Night of the Iguana...the minister's struggle with himself, and his wise conversation with a wandering artist.