In memory of my grandmother. Marge Lamarre, a member of Care2. She was taken by a brain injury. November 20th, 1943 - June 10th, 2006. And my grandfather, Gerry Lamarre. Who passed away due to lung cancer. November 18th, 1941 - November 24th, 2006
Im a 23 year old (May 29th) married mother of 2 beautiful little miracles. My husband Tom is 25 years old (November 13th). We were married August 6th, 2005 though we have been together since August 7th, 1999...since I was 14 years old. Currently, we're dealing with some marriage issues, have been for a couple years now.
My first baby was concieved after 2.5 years of multiple miscarriages followed by 3.5 years of unexplained infertility. After my first round of Clomid, I finally got pregnant. From the first day of the Clomid, I was so sick, which lasted until birth. My son Adam Thomas Gerald, was born at 4:29am on his due date, November 16th, 2007. He was 6lbs 11oz and 19 3/4 inches long.
In January 2008, I found out I was expecting my second miracle. My daughter Grace Margerry was born 7 days late on October 7th, 2008 at 8:26pm. She was 7lbs 15oz and 20 1/4 inches long. Much tougher and faster labor then with Adam, and both I had back labor. Gracie's middle name is a dedication to my grandparents who raised me. Their names were Marge and Gerry, we stuck them together to create Margerry. My grandparents both passed away in 2006.
I have had 7 confirmed miscarriages ranging from as early as about 3 weeks 6 days to 8 weeks 1 day. All of this within a 2.5 year period. I was too the point where I couldnt even look out of my window in fear of seeing a pregnant woman or children. I started to see an ob/gyn then for the multiple miscarriages. After testing, I found out I had high prolactin, but not so high to have medication for it. After a uterus biopsy, laparoscopy, hysteroscopy and D&C, I found I had a severe uterus infection causing my uterus to be hard and inflamed, my doctor said this was why I was miscarrying. That took a couple months of medication, but by the next biopsy, I was clear. Had an HSG which was also clear and my husband had testing too, from blood work to complete sperm counts. He was fine too. Those 3.5 years of testing, we dealt with unexplained infertility. It was then February 2007, I was finally prescribed Clomid.
I have 2 dogs also. Gus (AKA Chicken) is a Pomeranian and is about 6 years old. And Kujo is a German Sheperd mix who is not quite a year yet. I would love to have a cat too, but my hubby wont let me.
I love my family. Without my family, Id be nothing. Ive had a difficult past to say the least. Ranging from crime, drugs and being depressed and suicidal to abusive relationships, being molested and even rape. Also losing many people I deeply cared about. I have been to too many funerals/memorials to count on both hands. However, if I hadnt gone through my life experiences, I wouldnt be who I am today.
I enjoy/am interested in many different things. Poetry, the internet of course, traveling, music, dancing, I love children, scrapbooking, photography (especially black & whites), swimming, movies, the list goes on. But most of all, my family. Regardless of the problems my hubby and I are having, I dont know where Id be with out him and my children. They've held me up in times where I was doing nothing but falling.
Nothing too wild to tell. Im a stay at home wife and mom with 2 dogs and 2 children. I also do nude modeling once in a while.
My Philosophy
What Gives Me Hope
My family and friends.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
Make October 15th of every year the official Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.
What/who changed my life and why
At this point, there are 4 different people. My grandparents who both passed away in 2006. Why? Because they taught me what I needed to know, how to love and be respectful and how to carry on when the pain was too much.
And my 2 children because I was lost without them. They can take the wild storm raging inside me and turn it into a paradise with just a look into my eyes.
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Testimonial on Jun 1, 2005
ALICIA IS A WONDERFUL PERSON WHO DESEVERSE THE BEST LIFE CAN GIVE A PERSON SHE KIND AND WARM AND JUST AS SWEET AS A PERSON CAN BE