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Kenneth Brown

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College Park, GA, USA
male, age 71
single, 3 children
Speaks: english, english
Joined Jun 5, 2007
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Emotional Awareness
Kenneth Brown 
When I was introduced to the practice of emotional Awareness I had no idea where it would take me. Although I knew that being emotionally aware would be beneficial, it appeared to me that simply being aware of my emotions could still leave me a slave to them instead of their master. If my goal was to gain control over my emotions the first thing I needed to do was learn something about their source of energy. The first thing I learned was that the world I see is a reflection of my emotional state disguised as the world I see. In other words, my mind was their source of energy, because my mind determines how I think and how I think will determine if I enjoy something or suffer through it. By taking it’s cue from the mind, my emotional state will determine how I respond to some things, how I react to other things and how I feel about the rest.

I learned that the mind defines, describes and categorizes all sensory input. It then translates this sensory input into words and these words cause me to experience what I experience, by creating my emotional state. If my mind is in a negative state, I’ll find myself in negative situations. Everything will seem to go wrong as I constantly complain about how life treats me. However, the very nature of my complaining will perpetuate the misery. In the beginning of my practice I had a hard time seeing how I’d perpetuate negative thoughts and their emotions. By keeping my mind on negative thoughts, I was also giving negative emotions the power they needed to exist. My mind has a direct link to a
reservoir of unlimited power and that power enables it to create my world, my life and my emotions. Therefore, being emotionally aware would seem to include having some control over my mind and in doing so, refuse to think anything unless I want the consequences of that thought to contribute to my emotional state.

As a student of emotional awareness I’ve got to remember that the mind is creative and it will create the conditions and experiences that correspond to the nature of my thoughts. When I have miserable thoughts, I will feel miserable.

The mind can’t think two thoughts at the same time. Even though the mind is capable of many things, with its unlimited power, it can’t divide itself in half. It can’t be negative and positive at the same time. Since only one thought can occupy my mind, at a time, once I focus on something positive there’s no room left for negative. With continued practice, of replacing negative thoughts with positive thoughts, it will gradually become habitual to think positive more often then negative. Plus, positive thoughts aren’t quite as obsessive as negative thoughts. When I have a negative thought I can easily become obsessed with it through uncontrolled memory and mental repetition, because negative thoughts, most often, come as a result of fear, anger, loss or hurt. So even though I may not be able to control what happens to me, I can always control what happens within me by controlling how I think.

The more I practiced being emotionally aware the more I realized that change had the greatest influence on my emotional state. When things weren’t happening the way I wanted them to or didn’t happen the way I expected them to, my emotions took control of my life. I’d get angry over things that were happening to my loved ones, as if these things would not happen if I were not incarcerated. This position caused me to take a hard look at whom I thought I was and it was during this hard look that my vision began to be corrected. Good and bad times are part of the cycle of life. It is during that cycle that the light and dark forces mingle and mesh. A perfect example of this cycle can be seen at any hospital on any given day. As one person is being taken into the emergency entrance, in the back of the hospital, someone is leaving through the front that is well and/or healed. So for me to get angry because a loved one is experiencing a bad time is to ignore that cycle. As a slave to my emotions I lose touch with the cycle and how life works.

I have spent a lot of time being nervous, tense and uptight. I got upset when the slightest thing went against my desires or expectations. However, as I become more in touch with my emotional state, the more peaceful and at ease I’ve become. If I were to continue to be a slave to my emotions, I will also continue to be fixated on what is wrong in my life, what is lacking in my world and always wanting more because I’m never satisfied or content with what I have.

When I am nervous, tense or uptight I must remind myself to relax, because it won’t happen unless I make it happen. I had been so out of touch with my emotions, that there were times when I wasn’t sure what I was feeling. But as I continue to become more emotionally aware, I’ve become less involved with the show, in the physical world and more in touch with my emotions, which are much richer and satisfying than the show could ever be. The best way for me to relax is to take a few deep breaths. Not only is this easy to do, but I see examples of it being done in everyday life. When a person is about to do something that’s intense and takes concentration or determination, they sometimes take a deep breath. When a basketball player is about to shot an important free throw, that can win or lose the game, They come to the free throw line and most often, take at least one deep breath before shooting the free throw.

There are also times when I feel I must constantly be doing something to justify my life. I watch television, listen to the radio, play chess, play cards, talk on the phone or talk to other inmates. It’s as if my self worth is determined by what I do and not what I am.

As I become more aware of my negative emotional states, and their triggers, I will have a better idea of what I need to work on or eliminate. Because it is impossible to work on or eliminate something if I don’t know what that something is. Throughout the day I take the time to just stop, relax and check myself out, so that I can take a look at where my emotions are and what state they’re in. By breaking the continuity of my so-called busy day, life itself becomes less intense. The practice of checking myself out, during the day, allows me to see if my present emotion state is produced by conflict and anger or peace and contentment. If I am to master my emotions, instead of be their slave, I must use my free will to create the emotional states that lead to the thoughts, words, actions and attitudes that I want. Anything associated with conflict is unworthy of my consideration, because it wastes my time and drains my energy. I used to think that by worrying about something it would make it better by producing a solution to the problem. But I am becoming aware of the fact that nothing could be farther from the truth. Worry only adds power to what I was worried about, and anything that produces worry of fear prevents me from thinking clearly. And if I am to be emotionally aware, thinking clearly is a must.

About The Author
My name is Kenneth Brown and I am the father of three grown daughters. I am divorced and although I was born in New York City; I now live in a suburb of Atlanta, Georgia. When I was a Christian, I became aware of and interested in where my “institutional” faith had gone awry. This awareness and interest lead me to the conclusion that Christianity had been hijacked and as a result I became a student of Yoga.

I have been deeply influenced by such people as: Carl Brown, Thurgood Marshall, Malcolm X, Bill Cosby, Bill Clinton and Gurumayi Chidillasananda. Other articles that I have written are: Black History, Fathers, Message To My People, Religion, My Viet Nam, Emotional Awareness and Corrected Vision.

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Birthday Oct 19, 1946  
Languages english, english  
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Activist Aspirations Casual
Political Leaning Liberal
Religions Spiritualist-not religious  
Eating Habits Keep it Healthy  
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My Philosophy Karma works
What Gives Me Hope Faith
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by Make myself a better person
What/who changed my life and why Gurumayi, she continues to help me find my true self
What Bugs Me intolerance  
Passions spirituality, making a difference, nature, music, love  
Inspirations nature, music, good people  
What Scares Me Religious Extremism, Ignorance and evil, George W. Bush  
Role Models buddha, my family, Malcolm X, Colin Powell  
Quotation Love is the most life has to offer
Interests Mind/Body/Spirit, environment, wildlife, Spirituality/Philosophy, music, meditation  
Books spirituality, Self improvement, Sefl Help Books!  
Music jazz  
Movies harlem nights (eddie murphy), shrek, Shawshank Redemption, X, Fatal Attraction, Pretty Woman, comedy  
TV Shows sports!, frontline, Law and Order  
Favorite Foods chicken, fruit, fish  
Favorite Places New York City  
Can't Live Without music, love, family  
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    Kenneth, your article on Emotional Awareness represents an astute observation.  The thought life and the emotions are so interwoven sometimes I am at a loss for defining which precedes the other.  In summation, my conviction is: Emotions always respond to the thoughts that are transmitted to them either covert, or overtly. 

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