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"in the midst of an epic struggle with potential for complete disaster and an unknown possibility for redemption"

San Diego, CA, USA
female, age 42
married, 2 children
Joined May 29, 2011

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"These days, there are angry ghosts all around us.
Dead from wars, sickness, starvation, and nobody cares.
So – you say you’re under a curse. So what, so’s the whole damn world."
-  from Mononoke Hime

"I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly
is because they sense, once hate is gone,
they will be forced to deal with pain." 
- James Baldwin

I have striven not to laugh at human actions,
not to weep at them, nor to hate them,
but to understand them.
- Benedict Spinoza

"Nothing is so strong as gentleness; nothing so gentle as real strength." 
- Francis de Sales

I am still in love with the mystery of shadows, wind, bird song  The reason that I continue despite many clumsy mistakes, is love  My love for humans, or rather my continuous attempts to love, have been misdirected  I am not wise  However there is no shame when one is foolish with a tree  No bird ever called me crazy  No rock scorns me as whore  The earth means exactly what it says  The wind is without flattery or lust  Greed is balanced by the hunger of all  So I embrace anew, as my childhood spirit did, the whispers of a world without words
With their songs, they know the sacred  I am in a circle with that soft, enduring world  In it is the wisdom of all peoples  Without a deep, deep understanding of the sacredness of life, the fragility of each breath, we are lost  The holocaust has already occurred  What follows is only the burning brush  How my heart aches & cries to write these words  I am not as calmly indifferent as I sound  I will be screaming no no no more destruction in that last blinding light

- Chrystos, from "No rock scorns me as whore"

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Joined May 29, 2011 Activist Aspirations undeclared 
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Groups Amnesty International, Greenpeace, PETA - People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals, Vegan, World Wide - Legal Action 4 Animal Rights
Hometown San Diego, CA 
Birthday Feb 20, 1976  
About Me Days go by I'm hypnotized
from walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire
/Shawn Colvin, "Sunny Came Home"

I walk the tightrope with ease and grace. I span abysses. Blindfolded in the blue air. The sword between my thighs, the blade warm with my flesh. I walk the rope- an acrobat in equipoise, expert at the Balancing Act. /Gloria Anzaldua, "El Mundo Zurdo"
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Pets 3 cats 1 dog  
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Religions Earthling  
Eating Habits (raw whole-foods) vegan  
Wild Fact About Me I met, and presented an award to, Shel Silverstein, when he came to my school.

I also met Bill Clinton, back when he was governor of Arkansas, for school. I have a picture of me standing next to Hillary.
My Philosophy I care not much for a man's religion
whose dog and cat are not the better for it.

- Abe Lincoln

If we do act, in however small a way, we donít have to wait for some grand utopian future... To live now as we think human beings should live, in defiance of all that is bad around us, is itself a marvelous victory.

- Howard Zinn

... the evil lies not in the prevailing ideology or the political system, but in the national tradition in which all participate to some degree. If a national renewal is conceivable at all, it must begin with a spiritual change, an alteration in the attitude toward life of individuals, not of the masses.

- Boris Shragin

Once you learn to discern the voice of Mother Culture humming in the background, telling her story over and over again to the people of your culture, you'll never stop being conscious of it. Wherever you go for the rest of your life, you'll be tempted to say to the people around you, "How can you listen to this stuff and not recognize it for what it is?" And if you do this, people will look at you oddly and wonder what the devil you're talking about.

-Daniel Quinn

I'm afraid we're losing the real virtues of living life passionately in the sense of taking responsibility for who you are- the ability to make something of yourself and feel good about life. .... The more you talk about a person as a social construction or as a confluence of forces or as being fragmented or marginalised, what you do is you open up a whole new world of excuses. And when Sartre talks about responsibility, he's not talking about something abstract. He's not talking about the kind of self or souls that theologians would talk about. He's talking about you and me talking, making decisions, doing things, and taking the consequences. It might be true that there are six billion people in this world, and counting, but nevertheless ó what you do makes a difference. It makes a difference, first of all, in material terms, to other people, and it sets an example. In short, I think the message here is that we should never write ourselves off or see each other as a victim of various forces. It's always our decision who we are.

- Robert C. Solomon
What Gives Me Hope And if in this wide world where no one,
no one is guiltless, someone has heard
within himself the cry "What have I done?"
then something can be done with this world.

I do not believe in the prophets construing
the coming of the Second or the Thousandth Rome,
I believe in a quiet, "What are you doing?"
I believe in a bitter, "What are *we* doing?"

--from Yevgeni Yevtushenko's "The Torments of Conscience", dedicated to Dmitri Shostakovich
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by plant a tree for me, a tree for you, a tree to share with someone new. PS- you don't have to be "in charge" of anything to make a difference right now!
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Quotation I dwell in possibility...
Emily Dickinson

If you have trees and your neighbor too has trees, you will live in peace.

Whatever you do will be insignificant, but it is very important that you do it.
Mahatma Gandhi
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