Danie's bookshelf: currently-reading
I'm currently attending Southern New Hampshire University Online. Taking Philosophy and The Humanities at this moment as you can see its dominated by my reading material. I love to read. Reading has always been a haven for me during all times of life be they happy, sad, or just boring. One of my earliest experiences with books before I could read was taking the books that were bought for me, and making my own tales based on the pictures inside the books. Until I learned to read on my own, I really preferred to tell my own stories formed by what my imagination and the pictures said was really happening in my books. Even as young as 3 and 4 I wanted to create stories to tell.
Who could have told that little girl life would get darker and stormier for period of time before stability and happiness returned to my childhood which was filled with much happiness didn't really understand it saw its first in many family deaths. But I was the baby of the another baby by many years. My father's grandparents on his mother's side were born exactly 100 years to the year before me in 1881, while I was born in 1981. It was sort of magical to me to grow older and meet friends who had great grandparents that were as old as my grandparents on that side. But I believe it shaped who I have become. And though I might be a bit of a late bloomer, I'm not ashamed at all at the person I am.
I am who I am because of the experiences I've had in my life. Somehow some of the very worst have not destroyed me (like I and maybe a few others would have predicted). It is true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. But that strength comes at a heavy price.
I've come to a point in my life where I'm not angry or more accurately "FRUSTRATED" with my inability to control or stop the few train wrecks I've seen coming or the one's in error I've caused. I have let go of that of what I thought was part of me. Anger isn't about who I am.
Now on the verge of 31 I'm just me, Danie. Yes I'm bipolar. Yes extreme anxiety dominates my life. And if not for the Yang to my Yin...or more accurately, my Twin Flame Neil--I may have become a self fulfilled prophecy. A bitter statistic that no one would remember. Instead I strive to live a quiet and good life with him as we take care of my mother. I'm going to college now as well. I love the days where Neil and I can just enjoy each others company and that of our Fur Babies, our Cat CC and our newest addition our chiweenie RikiTiki. He is part Chihuahua and part Dachshund. He favors his Chihuahua side most and looks sort of like a stretched chihuahua with bat ears! But he is adorable to me. Just as my cat that treats him like his own personal Oodie.
Me and my dog
Sometimes the world seems the most right when Neil and I are lying in bed in silence with CC on top of our TV enjoying the view out of window and RikiTiki either napping between us or chewing a bone as Neil watches TV or plays a video game on our Wii, and I read a book (or a digital on my Kindle Fire) or do something on the computer.....but we are all together, and though doing different things and in silence--we are connected in a way I can't explain. We're a little family. And since Neil nor I have any desire to have children of our own...this is perfect for now.
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Jedi Master Yoda:
Size matters not. Look at me. Judge me by my size, do you? Hm? Mmmm.
And well you should not. For my ally in the Force. And a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. It's energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we...
The Love of My Life being Lick Attacked by our Chiweenie RikiTiki.
My CC (Charlie Chaplin)...