I can't stand what this world has become. The people, as a collective whole, suck. It's the rare few I come into contact with that make it worthwhile to venture outside. Complaining will never change anything so to change the aspects of this world that bug me I have to start with me. If I want a kinder, gentler world I need to be a kinder, more gentle person. I can't expect the world to change because there's something that sucks, to change something requires concentrated effort that is done so consistently and without the intention of receiving reward or notice for doing it. But when done this way others take notice and if I'm lucky, will also adopt the same outlook. Eventually there's a flood of kindness across the nation, the world. I just want to be able to stand back at the end of my life and say to myself, I did that, this life has been grand.
I'm not perfect, to pretend to be would be useless but I have adopted a way of life that works for me. I treat people the way I hope to be treated, sometimes it happens sometimes it doesn't. I've walked away from people and wanted to turn back and just kick 'em in the toe to make myself feel justified but it wouldn't change the overall situation. I shoot from the hip with brutal honesty, not that I'm mean or disrespectful but if I'm asked my opinion they get just that. It doesn't mean they have to agree with me or adopt it but they also don't have the right to blast me for saying something they asked to hear. So if you ask a question or for an opinion, be sure you are ready to hear the answer. My life is considered by some to be in shambles, perhaps it is, by their standards. I believe my life has made me humble, grateful, thankful, and conscious of the real intentions of others. I don't support or participate in organized religion because I've seen the intent by the church and it's not good. You can't extol the practice of helping others when the underlying reason is to fill your coffers and line your pockets. Helping is helping, simple as that. Helping someone with the intention of receiving something in return for that and then denying any/all future help because you didn't get your assumed reward is not helping, it's lying.
I'm insanely shy but once I've warmed up to someone or feel comfortable enough, watch out. I'm so capable of bringing down a room with laughter and will take advantage of every opportunity when it arises. I love making people laugh, helping them to understand their potential and ability to achieve the goals they've been reaching for. I consider myself a teacher, I love to teach people how to do something so they can do it themselves and perhaps improve upon it then come back and teach me. Great sense of personal achievement when I see the "lights" go on and their excitement build to keep moving forward.
I've made mistakes in my past, I've learned from them that's why they are considered the past. It's never the right of anyone to continue to throw shovelfulls of the past to keep it in the present. I like to live by the code that the past is past, learn from it, work through it and move on. People, especially family, work to keep the past present, I remove myself from them and their toxic ways in hope they will eventually learn to let it go too. While I'm waiting, I send them love and positive energy until they come around.
I have 2 children and 3 grandchildren. Ashley's 27, CJ's 21. then we have Becky, 9, Ryan, 7 and Cassidy, 4. I don't see any of them as often as I would like but they have their lives and it's not my place to tell them what they should or shouldn't do to get on with it. I want them to be happy and will fiercely defend them to the death regardless of their age. They'd do the same for me.
I'm married to brilliant man who's full of intellectual excitement and keeps me on my toes. With him having Asberger's Syndrome he's as equally challenging as he is exciting. We take the good with the bad, we're blessed there's a lot more good than bad and the bad isn't so bad that it can't be overcome. He's a good man and I love him unconditionally. He's taught me to be strong and how to stand for what I feel is right, built my confidence in myself and to be curious about everything. He's put a childlike ability to be playful and not to take everything so seriously, to let it roll and how to dodge the punches life throws. I'm a better person because he's in my life.
So that's it for today, tomorrow this could all change and my life could be thrown onto a different path. Regardless, that's tomorrow and I can't worry about it because it's not here. Squeeze every bit of life and happiness out of every moment because when it's gone, it's gone. Live with no regrets, and love genuinely. If you don't like where you are change it. But change it for the better, don't ever look back and think the past was better than where you are right now. Be happy with the present and let the rest go because you can't change it and the chips will fall where they fall. It's up to you to make sense of the why and what for. And remember this; not everythig makes sense or is to be understood, accept it, embrace it and let it go. You're wasting valuable life trying to move the mountain of question, go around it and look for the best in people, the life you have, and the people you allow into it. Change what you can and always, always, DREAM BIG!
I love a good dumpster dive because people really DO throw away great stuff.
I cry watching commercials, WHAT? it was touching
Seeing something patriotic, makes me tear up. Don't know why, it just does
Be honest, be nice, show respect even if it's not earned, be yourself, and clean up after yourself
What Gives Me Hope
My next breath, overcoming adversity, beating the top dog, knowing my actions made a change for the better in someone elses life.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
Put the terminally grumpy, negative people on Prozac put every single one of them together on an island and make them watch comedy stuff non stop until they can learn to be nice and learn to work through the crap that keeps them mean and grumpy
What/who changed my life and why
Mia Green, she could turn my grumpy day happy with just a smile from her. She has downs and just rocks my world! She's beautiful, curious, loving, funny, and says it like it is.