I am my PoohBear's best friend. I am someone learning to take my new skills of recognizing good people from bad people, not feeling responsible for those who will not help themselves. I want to help those who have no one to help them - a place I have too often been. I have a lot of empathy, a lot of insight into people, a lot of hard-won wisdom to share. I have a lot of love to give to those who are capable of loving back. And now I recognize that someone saying words does not make them true. And that it takes time in many circumstances to see who someone really is.
I love those who can reciprocate light-heartedness and am rediscovering my childlike delight in simple pleaseure. I do not care for smokers or drunks or druggies.
I began my change in life by finally reaching out to professionals for help... and found that my biggest problem had been the family who pretended they loved me while they kept me around as the family black sheep. I am now leaving my family. Divorcing them. It is the healthiest thing I have ever done for myself.
When in a great mood, I am quite likely to break into loud song and flamboyant dance across parking lots or along tourist walkways.
Human beings need human friends in order to be complete people.
What Gives Me Hope
That I seldom go to bed without knowing something new, something important, about understanding people.
If I were Mayor, I'd make the world a better place by
What/who changed my life and why
Sam Vaknin, because he taught me how it FEELS to be loved. He did that by treating more lovingly than any other human being ever has. Unconditional, never expecting anything in exchange, refusing gifts.
Besides that, Sam gave me the tools to understand my past and those in my past and present. He taught me all about boundaries, helped me become fully courageous.
To this day, he supports me to the ultimate, urging me to become the very most I can become. He believes in me and in my potential. And he refuses to let me give up on myself.
He is a treasure beyond all the diamonds and gold in the world. He is irreplaceable.