Lisa B. 9  

"To open people's minds to what is going on around them. The most useful form of slavery is the one in which the slaves imagine they are free."

Kingsburg, CA, USA
female, age 48
divorced, 2 children
Speaks: American English
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5/15/13 - Since I have no other place to complain and whine, I'll do it here.  I have been excluded from various bits of information that is important to the proper execution of my job duties.  I am one in an office of four, the other three are Executive Director, Finance Officer, and Human Resources Manager.  I have in past positions risen to the level of full charge bookkeeper, but here I am called receptionist.  The other three run off and gossip, go to lunch and business meetings together and generally keep things to themselves.  I have been given the task of performing a cash account reconciliation, being approximately $7,000 off each month is wearing on my nerves.  I was given no previous bank reconciliations (completed ones) to have proper history and was told it would be better if I just started from scratch instead of having the previous reconciliations to work from.  However, I am still $7,000 or so off.  I am concerned that the end of my last nerve, before I quit, I will be faced with taking the blame, 100%, for the lack of follow through that is so obvious in the previous reconciliations. 

This economy sucks big time!  I used to make $25 per hour, now I make $13.  I used to have the respect of my supervisors and was able to access all the information needed to do my job well, now I am a receptionist, who needs her supervisor to tear the remittance slips from the invoices so I will not forget to include them with the checks. 

Oh, I am so over it!  I'm studying to sell insurance/annuities.  Having had lost a child to cancer at an early age and knowing some kids that were killed in traffic accidents, I understand the benefits of insurance for children. 

Please don't feel you need to sympathize with me, I know what I need to do, and I just needed to vent. 

Have a wonderful day, Namaste.

4/24/13 - Over the weekend, my boyfriend for 10 months said he loved me for the first time.  I am very happy about this, that it took him so long.  It means to me that he has given it serious consideration and not just blurted it out, though he is very much a man who lives in the "now".  This is the first nice man I've been with for this long, all the others were mean and abusive in varying ways.  I'm very blessed to be the one holding his hand and I look forward to a long time with him.

3/11/2013 - I now am working for Family Services of Tulare County.  It's always rough starting out a new job or a new relationship.  :)  I have been seeing this man from my home town, starting almost the same day.  He has a lot on his plate, with family troubles, work troubles, and on top of it all trying to find time for me.  Sometimes it's frustrating for me, but then I realize that I'm not looking for a state or church sanctioned marriage, I want a partnership, a companion.  This man doesn't want a state or church sanctioned marriage either, but we both agree that if it makes things easier in the future, then we are not dead set against it. 

4/6/12 - Well, it's been a while.  First of all, to my friends who have had birthdays that I missed....Happy Belated Birthday.  I'm sorry I missed it.

I have sinced dropped my job, picked up another job and lost that one, picked up a boyfriend and dropped him, and discovered that my ex-husband has stage 4 cancer.  He doesn't really talk to me because I think he hates me.

I've been married to four men and divorced.  I'm kind of wondering if I'm not looking at this relationship thing in an entirely wrong light.  Everything seems to go well until the vows are taken.  So, that's it...no more vows.

and you have permission to smack me if I try getting married again!



7/24/11 - I'm very frustrated with my employer, Accountemps.  About 2 months ago, they lost my time card, last week, they had a problem with my start and end date so they just didn't process my pay and never bothered to call me, now I faxed my time card to the main office, called them on Friday to make sure they got my time card and will be faxing it themselves, and they still haven't processed my payroll!!!

7/16/11 - I have a job now, that I'd rather do without, but I'm not in a position to go looking for another one.  My boyfriend left for the bay in the middle of April and has had very little to do with me since.  Well, his loss.  I'll get over it.  I've submitted an application to enter another Golden Dawn lodge and am working on getting sponsorship to submit an application to an O.T.O. oasis.

4/3/11 - The interview went good, I think.  I need a job, I hate being on unemployment.  I've spent the last couple of nights with my friend.  I was thinking he didn't want anything to do with me because he told me daily he was cranky.  Bullshit, right?  Wrong.  He quit smoking cold turkey and he didn't want to snap at me while he was going through his three day withdraw time.  Not everybody can quit like I did, cold turkey with no change in mood.  I figure I have about 12 years to go on my 20 year lungs recovering time.  It's too late for my friend, he already has COPD.  It really upsets me because that's what killed my mother.

4/1/11 - I have an interview today.  I hope I get the job.  I have also signed the petition to stop the witch hunts.  The entire thing makes me sick.  Maybe we should pray to the goddess' to soften the hearts of the fundamentalists that are spurring this destructive behaviour that nearly wiped out our religion in the dark ages.

3/20/11 - We had a very powerful Ostara.  We sent protective energy to our HP. 

3/19/11 - I was right, I went out to pizza last night and all I wanted to do was cry.  That particular pizza night was a regular thing for my friend and I, he didn't go because he was packing.  I had dear friends there and worried about bringing them down.  One friend actually brought him up, and started giving me condolances.  I had to leave shortly after that.
     I'll get over this, I have before.  Sometimes it helps to put it into words, and believe me, it's in my journal as well.

3/18/11 - I had a lunch date with an old friend, he pulled a no-call/no-show.  Very disrespectful.  I am also loosing the man I had formed a particular attachment to.  I loved how our relationship was.  We were friends, and picked on eachother in a fun friend way, we loved eachother as often as we could and had lots of fun in bed.  My best friend/lover is leaving for the bay area, 3 hours away.  I am so completely saddened by this.  I'm not sure I can be around friends right now, I don't want to bring other people down.

3/16/11 - At 5am I got a rude awakening, literally.  This sort of blows my whole day...ok, not my whole entire day, just my morning.

3/13/11 - Today was sort of productive, my favorite way to be.  I helped a friend pack up more things for their move, spoke with an old friend, texted an old friend, and will have dinner with maybe two or three old friends.  All in all, this was a very good day.

3/12/11 - I'm having another Home Invasion Yard Sale.  I want to lighten the load a bit before I move.  I'm moving back home to Kingsburg, going to be a roommate to the first friend I made when I moved there.  She, as it turns out, was my best friend though our lives took very different paths. 

3/11/11 - I'm back.  Life sometimes takes me on some interesting trips.