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Ask the Loveologist: I’m Trapped by My Fantasies

Ask the Loveologist: I’m Trapped by My Fantasies

 

I donít know why I get so turned on by the thing that I do — it’s so weird I am not even going to say what it is. I have the same fantasies over and over again. In fact, I canít even get turned on at all when I block my mind from thinking of this fantasy. Then I just feel nothing. I am so embarrassed I would never tell my partner about it. What should I do? I am trapped by my own sexual fantasies.

Thanks for asking this important question.† First thing to know is that everyone has sexual fantasies. Even people who have no consciousness about their sexuality and are completely cut off from their fantasies do in fact have them. Many of us are mystified by our sexuality and your situation is not as unusual as it seems to you. In our culture it is the norm for people to be uncomfortable with the strong sexual fantasies that drive their arousal and desire. This is why the first question people ask a sex therapist is often, ďAm I Normal?Ē Many people are so overwhelmed, ashamed or afraid of their erotic selves that they repress their fantasy life entirely.

This repression represents a tragic loss of who we are; understanding our sexual fantasies in relationship to our whole life experience provides a window into the deepest levels of healing in our psyche… Our sexuality and our sexual fantasies have been wrongly considered as our most base and primitive instinct. To the contrary, our human sexuality is actually an expression of our most complex human needs and healing drive towards experiencing pleasure. As children we all suffer with some form of emotional wounding† and unresolved conflicts.† As we mature into our sexuality, throughout our adolescence and teen years, our subconscious brain eroticizes our pain and conflicts into fantasy stories that allow us to convert our painful past into a pleasurable experience. This is a revolutionary perspective which demonstrates the potential healing that our sexual fantasies hold for all of us.

In a recent interview with psychotherapist Stanley Siegel who wrote the book on this topic, called Your Brain on Sex, I was amazed at how much sense this thinking† has brought to the question of sexual fantasy. Siegel, who has been in psychotherapy practice †for over 35 years said ďthat almost every issue he †has worked through with his patients had a sexual root.” Over the many years of his practice, he came to understand the transformative and deeply healing nature of working with our sexual fantasies as a window into our deepest pain. He developed a process that he calls Intelligent Lust which is s process of developing an emotional intelligence and language about your childhood traumas as well as being able to look at and identify your strongest sexual fantasies. When his patients were able to connect the dots between those two strong emotional experiences, both were healed.

Not surprisingly many of us share both sexual fantasy themes as well as common emotional injuries. Some of the most common emotional injuries like guilt, shame and insecurity can actually be eroticized into very different sexual fantasies which might include everything from getting paid to have sex, make porn to fantasies of random sexual acts or forced, submissive sex. How the brain makes pleasure out of our painful past is a unique and mysterious process, yet learning the tools to understand the links between them are universally healing.

Here is an example that makes this easy to understand: a woman grows up in a extremely religious family in which sin and pleasure are understood to be the same. Years later she wants to have forced sex dressed up like a nun and her husband as a priest. It is easy to understand how her subconscious would eroticize those painful limits into their opposite. As this couple plays out her fantasy with her having made the conscious connection to her past, the emotional trauma has less and less hold on her. It also simultaneously grows the commitment and intimacy between the couple. Most couples donít realize how much they give up of themselves and their intimacy by suppressing their sexuality with their partners.

Having the courage to explore our erotic selves is the space within us where passion is born and evolves. Without it, our sexuality lives dormant, repressed and inevitably will rear its power in ways that can inflict pain instead of pleasure. I urge you to read this book or listen to the interview.

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Embracing Sexual Fantasies

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Wendy Strgar

Wendy Strgar, founder and CEO of Good Clean Love, is a loveologist who writes and lectures on Making Love Sustainable, a green philosophy of relationships which teaches the importance of valuing the renewable resources of love, intimacy and family.† In her new book, Love that Works: A Guide to Enduring Intimacy,† she tackles the challenging issues of sustaining relationships and healthy intimacy with an authentic and disarming style and simple yet innovative advice.†It has been called "the essential guide for relationships." †The book is available on ebook.† Wendy has been married for 27 years to her husband, a psychiatrist, and lives with their four children ages 13- 22 in the beautiful Pacific Northwest.

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2:41PM PST on Dec 17, 2012

This is very true, I've often reflected on how my own sexual desires are tied to the life I've had. It makes sense that it would be this way considering we get almost everything from the environment that we grew up in.

11:01PM PST on Feb 17, 2012

Thanks so much for this article. I think majority of the human population struggles with this, and it is so important to address it! Obviously one of the reasons some people never choose to discuss their fantasies are that they are scared or ashamed of being judged, and therefore are never allowed to understand where these fantasies stem from. Once they understand or realise what's driving the fantasy, it is easier to accept and often easier to let it go, so that it is no longer an issue.

12:49PM PST on Jan 6, 2012

Nice article

2:05AM PST on Dec 31, 2011

I am most comfortable with my fantasies when I am comfortable enough to talk about them with my partner.

12:09PM PST on Nov 10, 2011

I am having a secret fantasy that I am cleaning up naughty little dust bunnies instead of being online.

9:45AM PST on Nov 9, 2011

This is the positive side to sex, fantasy. Unfortunately there is the other side fear. Why can't I love myself. My father and husband did not. I can not be loveable. This can go to promiscuity or celibacy. I have a friend that has the don't touch me problem. I see the issue but I am trying to help her through this.

2:11AM PDT on Oct 31, 2011

now I am wondering what all the secret fantasies are about : )

1:58AM PDT on Oct 30, 2011

@Jamie C: "Do what makes you happy but be safe and realize that some fantasies are safe to act out and some are not."

I agree whole-heartedly, Jamie. Fantasize about whatever floats your boat. But please be realistic about not acting out those that might be hurtful or damaging. I would much rather that my partner get off fantasizing about someone else, than that she not get off at all. The point is for us to thoroughly enjoy ourselves!

2:15AM PDT on Oct 29, 2011

I put a comment here and it has been taken down. Why so prudish? It's just a fantasy, it doesn't involve anything illegal! Or even painful, humiliating or violating. I suspect the hand of religious militants, fundamentalists! In this, it might have been slightly irreligious and blasphemous, but it's all done in the spirit of fun. Sheesh! Some of the things I have read here turns my stomach but I have never 'innapropiately flagged someone' though sometimes I've wanted to but I believe in free speech so I haven't touched it.  All I said was;

'I like to pretend that I'm Jesus and my partner is Mary magdalene, ...that way when she bawls out "Jesus Christ!" in the middle of it. I don't feel jealous,  And after she gives me a 'Polish and Shine' she washes my feet. ...very sexy. Mmmmmmmmmm...'

2:09AM PDT on Oct 29, 2011

I put a comment here and it has been taken down. Why so prudish? It's just a fantasy, it doesn't involve anything illegal! Or even painful, humiliating or violating. I suspect the hand of religious militants, fundamentalists! In this, it might have been slightly irreligious and blasphemous, but it's all done in the spirit of fun. Sheesh! Some of the things I have read here turns my stomach but I have never 'innapropiately flagged someone' though sometimes I've wanted to but I believe in free speech so I haven't touched it.

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