Our bodies offer us oodles of feedback that we can use to make better decisions. If we are in danger, we don’t just get the intuitive whispers. We get body signals, too. Our stomachs churn, our chests tighten, and our hearts race. Our body is attempting to guide us, encouraging us to do something different.
Too often we are so wrapped up in our heads that we dismiss the signals. Sometimes, we don’t notice them at all. We take careless action. We allow ourselves to stay in a dangerous situation because we didn’t experience the warning shots our body sent to get our attention.
For years, my internal battle about food went like this. I want cake. You don’t need cake. Yes, I do. I really need cake. Whatever, nobody “needs” cake. Okay, but I want cake. I really, really, really want cake. Christy, you say you want cake but you also want to be healthy, and you want to be thin, and you want to be the kind of person who doesn’t eat cake. That’s true. I do say all of those things but right now, I’m having a very real craving. My body wants cake. I want cake.
Eventually, I ate cake, or whatever else the sugary, or greasy, or salty craving called for in that moment. I battled with myself a great deal. I lost tremendous amounts of energy, sanity, and self-respect in that battle. It almost cost me my life.
But I knew it wasn’t working. I didn’t want to live that way. So, I searched for ways to understand my relationship with food, to understand why I was using it in the same way that other people use alcohol. I’ve been unpacking this trunk for literally a decade through therapy, 12-step programs, life coaching, and even a nutritional counselor. I’ve studied, written, talked, and cried my way through a massive transformation around my relationship with food.