Confession Time: I feel lost, overwhelmed, and invisible today.
I’m behind on the stuff I am supposed to know how to do. I can’t figure out how to do the stuff I need to be doing to bring new clients and students into my business. The words won’t come, I’m missing deadlines, and I’m disconnected from people that matter to me and my business. The tornado in my head is swirling with such momentum that all I can do is sit and stare into nothingness. Every single twisted thought floating around within me is accompanied by an invisible friend who whispers and laughs, taunting me about how I’m the one who is supposed to teach the other Wildflowers that it doesn’t have to be this way. It says I’m done, I’m a fraud, and nobody would ever hire me for coaching or come to my class if they knew what a mess I really am.
Well, I call bullshit on that little voice in my head.
This is real. The Wildflower life isn’t always easy. We get overwhelmed because we have so many ideas, we care so much, and we love so completely. Sometimes we get turned upside down, and it takes love, lots and lots of love from other people and most importantly, from ourselves, to turn us upright again. Sometimes we give too much and have to pause to refill our own tanks. And sometimes, when a profound healing and evolution is underway, we feel like we are absolutely shattered. We feel lost or overwhelmed or invisible, but we are not. This is the beautiful and sometimes bumpy journey back to the truth of who we are. This is what it looks like to be Wild and true and free… to be me.
If this is your story, know that you are not alone. I shared this confession on my Wildflower Evolution page on Facebook and it cultivated more responses than anything I’ve ever shared there before. This is a sign of these magical times, a period of upheaval that follows a great awakening. Wild Ones are invested in the spirituality of awakening to the self. We are unfolding into this new way of being, releasing the old tools and language to make space for the new ways of functioning personally and professionally.