For Victims Of Sexual Abuse

I did my Ask The Girlfriend Gyno chat in front of 400 students at Sonoma State University this week, and during my talk, I spoke about how I believe talking about your vagina can be very healing. After all, not only is the vagina where we create life and experience pleasure; itís also where many traumas happen — sexual molestation, rape, abortion, childbirth traumas, painful experiences at the gynecologistís office, and traumatic sex. When we donít release these traumas, they fester and manifest in ways we might not even associate with the original trauma. They might express as depression, eating disorders, or chronic pelvic pain. But when we talk about our vaginas, when we seek solace in the company of others, we set ourselves free.

After the talk, dozens of college students came up to me to thank me and give me a hug. Several said, ďIíve been molested and your words were so healing.Ē And one of them asked me if I would be willing to write a post about girls who have been violated, either through childhood sexual abuse or rape. And so this oneís for you, S, and all the others out there who have been hurt.

An Open Letter To Those Who Have Been Violated

Dear Ones,

Iím so very, very sorry for what you experienced. I wish I could wave a magic wand and take it all away, but since I canít, I can only outstretch my arms to tell you that you are loved, you are worthy, and you did absolutely nothing wrong. You may not believe me. You may have been telling yourself stories for decades — stories about how you asked for it, how you dressed inappropriately, how you led someone on, how you drank too much, how you should have been more cautious, how you could have prevented what happened. But these are only stories. Nobody ever deserves to be abused, no matter what. You did nothing wrong. You are innocent.

I am blessed to have never been molested or raped, but sadly, there are too few people like me out there. The statistics show that about 1/3 of women in the US have been sexually abused in some way. In places like Africa, this number may be much higher. Do you understand what that means? That means that when you go to the grocery store and look at the women standing in line, one in three of the women you see have been violated sexually. Which means that you are SO not alone. Everywhere you look someone else has suffered the way you have. And you donít need to carry that by yourself any longer.

You also donít have to keep secrets. You may be afraid to tell anyone about what happened. You may fear that others will judge you. You may worry that family members wonít believe you if you tell them that your seemingly jolly Grandpappy was sneaking into your bedroom after you fell asleep. You may question your own memory and wonder if youíre making things up. You may want to avoid hurting others.

You may think you asked for it, when you got all dressed up in your sexiest Madonna look-alike costume or when you drank all those beers. You may think you deserved it because you were stoned or you went home with some guy you barely knew or you were dancing awfully close right before it happened. You may feel angry at yourself for not saying ďNoĒ more forcefully. You may have consented — or even enjoyed the attention — because you were too young to know better and sexual molestation can feel a lot like love. Only itís not. Itís abuse. And you didnít deserve to be touched that way.

You may feel guilty. Or dirty. Or slutty. You may feel like damaged goods. You may have confronted your abuser or pressed charges or told your therapist, your doctor, or your husband. Or you may have buried your secret so deep in your pelvis that youíre barely even aware of it in your conscious brain, but your body knows. And it may have shut down because of this.

You might be like Mildred, who after being molested as a child, started using her vagina like a purse — stuffing keys, pens, wads of money, and lipstick in her vagina because it had done nothing but cause her trouble so she figured sheíd put it to good use. You might have avoiding thinking about your vagina altogether. Or you might be putting it out there on display because youíre dying for someone to love you because you just canít love yourself.

You may find yourself avoiding intimacy, resisting talking about your girly parts, and cursing your feminine body. You may feel like being female is what got you in trouble in the first place. You may feel pissed off — and you would have every right to feel that way. You have my permission to punch your pillow, to scream bloody murder on a quiet mountaintop, to write a letter to your abuser that you may never send, or to seek help from a therapist or crisis counselor.

You also have my permission to live a vital, glorious, joyful life filled with mojo. I donít want to diminish anything youíve experienced in the past, but that was then. This is now. You are beautiful and whole and untarnished and perfect, just the way you are right this moment. Every single experience in your life has made you exactly who you are today, and that person is worthy of so much goodness and love.

If youíve healed the traumas of your past, bless you for doing the courageous inner work it often requires in order to move beyond such ordeals. You have my utmost respect and all my love. If these wounds still plague you, please, please, pretty please get help. See a therapist. Tell your story. Ask your body what she needs to feel healthy, vital, and joyful. Talk to those you trust. Take workshops. Attend support groups. Whatever you need to help facilitate your personal healing and growth. Life is just too short not to revel in the richness of the full experience of living a full, authentic life.

Most importantly, know that you are loved. Your body is beautiful and whole. Your vagina is precious and wondrous. You deserve to be touched, to feel pleasure, to be cherished, to know joy, to live bountifully, to radiate sparkles of a life fully expressed. You deserve to heal.

Iím a gynecologist, not a therapist, so my words might not resonate with you, and thatís cool. Take anything I say with a grain of salt. But listen to your own intuition and find your own path back to yourself. Remember, you already have all that you need to have all that you want. I swear. Itís true.

Regardless, do your body a favor and bless her now. Try doing a body blessing every day. I donít want to diminish what youíve experienced by suggesting I have some two bit cure for you — I donít. But there are so many tools out there that can help you take the next step if you feel you need it. So please — check in with yourself and find out what you need. We are here for youÖ

Related Links:
From Fear to Fearlessness
Sex, Love, Intimacy
20 Things Every Woman Should Know About Her Vagina


Mary ann S.
mary ann s.3 years ago

Great post nicely done

Dipanwita Saha
Dipanwita Saha4 years ago

Thank you so much for such a wonderful & compassionate post. I am glad that you have never been through it & I pray to God that you never have to. & who says you are not a therapist? For someone who is not a victim herself, you are very intuitive & kind. Once again a thank you & may God bless you.

Christine Stewart

It is completely unfair that the victim will always feel like the guilty one, and will often be blamed for the situation by outsiders.

Stathi Stathi
Stathi Stathi4 years ago

Read ..

Carole N.
Carole Nixon4 years ago

everything you say is true, but it is oh so difficult to take on board. when your abuser is/was someone whom you are told love us and care for us and deserve our love and respect in return, how do we process this?

June Lacy
June Lacy4 years ago


Sarah Metcalf
Sarah M.4 years ago

Thank you so very much.

Rebecca Tyree
Rebecca Tyree4 years ago

This may be an unpopular opinion, but speaking as both an abuse and recent rape victim, these are things victims hear every day. Please, I understand the need to help, but just please try to understand these things a bit more before posting articles about it. I don't need to hear what I've already heard from everyone else in my life, and the thought that it has happened to 1 in 3 women is not helpful, it frankly makes me feel even less safe. Thank you for trying to help, but maybe this article should come with a trigger warning instead of a comforting title. It's just one of those things you can't understand unless it's happened to you.

Edith Pizano
Edith Pizano4 years ago

Excelente, esto sera compartido

Hector Fuentes
Hector Fuentes4 years ago

Thank you very much for posting this. It's really good to know that there is some people taking about this in an open space without shame.