While all of this was happening in my head, there was something else… something serene that I haven’t really been able to talk about until now. While my brain was so busy making plans, I felt as though my heart was fully engaged, too. And what I experienced in that moment, that awakening, continues to echo in my soul every single day.
I was at peace with what had come of my life.
To be clear, I was not at peace with dying. I was not done living, and I’m still not done. I was not ready to go but I was incredibly at peace.
I wasn’t thinking about whether or not my house would be clean enough when people went there to do whatever would need to be done. I didn’t feel at peace because all of the emails in my inbox had been responded to, or because all of my bills had been paid, as they certainly had not been. I wasn’t thinking about my body or the past or deadlines.
What brought me peace was almost painfully simple. My brain was calculating an exit strategy, but my entire body was consumed with the certainty that everyone I’d ever loved knew I loved them.
I am one of those people who tells people I love them on a regular basis. But even if I hadn’t told them recently, I *knew* in that moment that they knew they had been loved by me… and that was the only thing that mattered. It was love that gave me peace.
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Touching story. Thank you.
Thank you so much Christy for this article.
Why are we so thick that it usually takes personal crises, poor health or death to slow down and reflect on what is (and always was) important? Seems in our current fast-paced time shorage lives there is no quiet place to rest and reflect. Think maybe that's why these crises arise, part of life's lessons to learn from -- or not?
It's the best way to keep moving
Thank you Christy, for Sharing this!
what an intersting story!
the question that everyone asks....why are we here? love ...love is the answer and if u can love others as u would love yourself then peace can only follow....thank you for sharing
thanks for sharing !
Thank you Christy
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Those are very pretty kittens... :)
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