Yesterday evening, I caught myself checking Facebook and email obsessively. I had plenty to do to prepare for the upcoming yard sale and our ever-nearing move to Minnesota (and mothering and whatnot), so I paused and asked myself what was driving that rather maddening and wasteful behavior.
I realized that I’d slipped into some sort of old “rescue me” pattern. I was looking online for news that would magically lift the weight–solutions for the challenges I am currently experiencing. Yes, Facebook and email are the two places people contact me to schedule intuitive coaching and register for classes but this was much bigger than an innocent business practice.
I was looking for some kind of miracle.
Honestly, I don’t even know what I hoped to find. Maybe there was a huge invoice I’d forgotten was outstanding that a former client suddenly paid? Or maybe the lottery people would randomly email that I’d won a bunch of money. I was looking for answers to the seemingly endless line of questions bouncing around in my head.