You keep asking who you really are. If you want to know intellectually, then you are pure awareness, the changeless background against which all thoughts occur. This pure awareness is a continuum. It is not broken up by time or space–it just is, ever and always.
When you witness yourself, what you are experiencing is your real nature. This is the key to freedom. Freedom is the experiential knowledge of one’s own nature. You already have elements of this. Many times you definitely seem to be witnessing your body and your environment. You even stand aside from your own thoughts.
Far from radiating silence, most of us radiate hysteria, reflecting the mental turmoil inside. When that inner turmoil subsides, it leaves a space for change to begin. Your mind is quiet by nature, but you have to settle down to realize this. Everything sorts itself out correctly and spontaneously once you become quiet.
In the light of calm, steady self-awareness, a feeling of wholeness will wake up inside you. This wholeness is not a thought of any kind; it is simply your own mind, empty of thought but full of you. You do not have to do anything to reach this state; the process is effortless. You do not even have to consciously let go. A quiet mind is all you need.
It takes repeated dips into silence, in and out every day, for a person to accept that this immense, motionless, eternal state of being is himself. Then the door is open for an experience that truly does transform oneself and the world.
Adapted from Unconditional Life: Discovering the Power to Fulfill Your Dreams, by Deepak Chopra (A Bantam Book, 1991).