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Tied in Knots

Tied in Knots

“Man is a knot into which relationships are tied.” –Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

Life is made of moments of unraveling. There are good reasons everyday that things come undone, but perhaps none so painful as the un-doing of our most intimate relationships. It is easy to understand how living with the difficult emotions of disappointment, embarrassment and the irritation and resentment associated with loving people up close, can bring out the least attractive parts of ourselves. And how in turn this most difficult emotional space can impact our ability to stay loving and present in the relationships we have chosen.

Attributing the places where life unravels to the people we are with is a natural response to dealing with the most disquieting and ugly places we hold. More often it is a reflection of the universal experience of not being good enough. The quiet doubt of self worth has a million faces and touches people from all walks of life, regardless of educational background, income level and even family history. We are all a broken somewhere and suffer the debilitating effects of not feeling worthy of love, our own or anyone else’s during some points in our life.

What we do with this experience, defines the course of our relationships with the people we love as well as our own ability to expand and grow into the people we want to become. Naked honesty about our own unraveling, the places where we cannot hold ourselves together is a terrible reason to leave the people you love and is the reason most disguised when it comes to affairs. New relationships have a shiny glow that makes you believe that the ugly parts of yourself vanish, which explains the remarkably low success rates of second and third marriages with a 90 percent fail rate.

The truth is that relationships are our best hope for learning to live with and love the weakest parts of our character. It is in the daily work of our relationships, back in the old days, that meant working to stay alive like tending fields and creating food from the rawest of ingredients. Sharing real work was intimacy enough. Roles were born of necessity and human tribes known as families passed down values and wealth to the next generation. Life is different now and so our expectations of what and how marriage and pairing function have been altered into a fantasy that few can uphold.

The modern version of intimate partnerships is increasingly tied to how we feel about ourselves and our partners. Knowing that we all struggle with internal emotional unraveling while we grow and develop should make it off limits in measuring the worth of a relationship. Yet often the pain of looking at ourselves is so intense and the lure to escape it so powerful that we run, not realizing that it is in the capacity to stay and stay and stay that the ugliness retreats and transforms itself into peaceable acceptance.

I am no stranger to this process, both in my intimate and work life. I am regularly called to find the courage to lean in and feel the discomfort of my perceived failures as a wife, mother and business woman. I have tried it and know from the slides I have experienced that to retreat, to give up on the work, only makes it harder to come back to. There is really no way out when it comes to the work of the heart, there is only through.

Wendy Strgar is a loveologist who writes and lectures on Making Love Sustainable, a green philosophy of relationships which teaches the importance of valuing the renewable resources of love and family. Wendy helps couples tackle the questions and concerns of intimacy and relationships, providing honest answers and innovative advice. As her online presence continues to grow, Wendy has become a trusted and respected source of information on lasting and healthy relationships. “I feel like I am inventing a language to give intimacy back to the people, take the fear away and open a space for physical love to serve as the glue that holds relationships together.” Wendy lives in Eugene, Oregon with her husband, a psychiatrist, and their four children ages 11-20. 

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Wendy Strgar

Wendy Strgar, founder and CEO of Good Clean Love, is a loveologist who writes and lectures on Making Love Sustainable, a green philosophy of relationships which teaches the importance of valuing the renewable resources of love, intimacy and family.  In her new book, Love that Works: A Guide to Enduring Intimacy,  she tackles the challenging issues of sustaining relationships and healthy intimacy with an authentic and disarming style and simple yet innovative adviceIt has been called "the essential guide for relationships."  The book is available on ebook.  Wendy has been married for 27 years to her husband, a psychiatrist, and lives with their four children ages 13- 22 in the beautiful Pacific Northwest.


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8:16PM PDT on Sep 20, 2009

Antoine retired in my hometown. Do you know that? Our library has a bronze statue of "The Little Prince" in the courtyard. "What is truly essential" is my favorite line.

8:45PM PDT on Sep 12, 2009


10:13AM PDT on Sep 12, 2009

I really appreciate this article right having recently made a huge error in a new relationship. I have learned much about myself through the experience and hope to be forgiven and that we can grow together from the experience. I love the recipe by the way!

9:46AM PDT on Sep 12, 2009

One recipe for self-appreciation and acknowledgment of self worth:
(*note: this recipe can be altered to suit individual tastes.)
1 part forgiveness for one's own mistakes
1 part respect for one's own past and present learnings
1 part acceptance of differences in ourselves/others
2 parts patience
2 parts tolerance
3 parts empathy
3 parts sympathy
3 parts informative sense
4 parts common sense (found in the recesses of the mind)
A generous helping of humor

Mix gently but firmly, combined with determination, carefully removing any judgments that may surface. If mixture is too dry, add more empathy &/or sympathy, to taste. Too moist - add more informative sense and/or common sense. Adjust ingredient proportions, to taste.
Allow to marinade with plenty of love and share what you reap.
The beauty of this recipe is that it can be created without the application of heat or cold or use of any utensils.Enjoy with gusto!

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