Embracing Sexuality in Midlife

“Think of yourself as the main character in a novel or motion picture that is being written by the choices that you make or the roles you play, and by whether you are committed to your own story. Your parents’ positive aspirations for you, or their negative expectations, or the examples they set, may have provided you with a ready made script to follow. That prescribed path may have helped you to develop in ways that were positive or may have done you great harm if there was a major discrepancy between who you were supposed to be and your own potential and needs. Others in your life, especially any that you gave authority to, or loved, further defined you. As a result, you may see yourself in a perennial supporting role, or a victim, instead of as the protagonist in your own story. There are, as fiction writers often note, only so many basic plots, and only so many typical or archetypical characters — which is true in life as well.

“It may be that the past is but the prelude to the most authentic period of your life. Even if until now you more or less went along with the expectations of others, you can now choose to be yourself…

“Women become truer to themselves after menopause not only because they grow older, but because their circumstances change. Children grow up and leave home. Marriages often become more companionable with age. The death of a parent may bring freedom from guilt or caretaking, or provide you with an inheritance. You may become a widow. You spouse may leave you, or you him, forcing a change in circumstances. You may fall in love and change your life or even your lifestyle. Your career may be winding down. You may begin a meditative spiritual practice, or find that one has taken hold…

“When you see yourself as a choicemaker in your own life, you take on the role of protagonist in your own life story.”

This is from the introduction to Goddesses in Older Women by Jean Shinoda Bolen, MD. I love that. I love the idea of speaking to women about not only becoming a choicemaker, but becoming the protagonist in their own lives. Yes, we do know that what we choose to do, or not do, can change our lives. Choices both good and bad have the power to shape our lives and give it meaning. And taking on those choices can be the powerful and courageous act of our lives. Sometimes living is not about going with the flow. Sometimes it is about taking action – and there are times when we take action that we can feel very alone. Perimenopause or menopause, sometimes known as the “crone phase,” can be the most powerful time of all for women. Because this is the time that many of us are finally free to embrace our true selves or at least have the wisdom to finally act. This is the time that Jean Shinoda Bolen, MD calls the archetype of the wise woman and I am flipping through the pages of her book like a woman thirsting for water. But I have to admit to hating the term “crone.” I am not yet a crone in my fifties. My mother at 86 may now be a crone – but in our late forties, fifties and sixties (the peri- or post-menopause years), I think we go from mother to Queen!

You see, I have chosen to be the protagonist in my own life. And so have so many of the women that I am coaching around sexuality. They are alive, vibrant and seeking. They are taking charge of their lives and their personal kingdoms in a very new way. And I am not alone in the fact that this new hotness started in menopause. There is a lot of amazing unfolding that happens between Queen and crone, and I think we need to make room for women to have this time in their lives.

For me, and for so many other women, the path is sexuality. I was warned that embracing my sexuality in this time of my life was to dance with danger. To talk about it openly is to fall into a bottomless pit where everything I hold dear will go down with me – family, home, my flourishing career. Going public with what polite society says is best left under the covers has its risks. Truth be told, I was a little scared. But that’s a small price to pay for becoming the protagonist in my own life. Becoming my own choicemaker has been my personal evolutionary process, one that got jump started in midlife.

I was determined to find the answers. No more sublimating, overeating, overexercising or overworking. I needed to know what was going on. My pursuit of the “truth” turned me into a sexual sleuth launched on an unofficial, unexpected investigation into a subterranean world of sexuality that I never knew existed. Neither had any other person I’d met until that moment. Which is a lot of people.

The first thing I discovered is that I had a robust, juicy, and full sexual self that lives inside. The second thing is that I wasn’t alone in my desire to unearth that part of me. It was before the time when the true nature of female sexuality and desire had become the near obsession it is these days. I felt like I was wandering in a vast, uncharted wilderness even if everyone secretly wanted to go there, too.

Admittedly, there’s more information out there now. Academics and medical experts compile statistics on female sexual dysfunction – apparently a plague of epic proportions – and how to fix it. Social media sexpots, sexpert blogs, and Twitter and Facebook horn-dog diaries flood the web with virtual instruction manuals on self-pleasuring, high-tech gadgetry, threesomes, and becoming the ultimate pleasure machine.

It’s all good – part of a society-wide discussion that should be happening. But in the meantime, what’s a middle-aged mother, housewife and careerist to do? Where do real people find good role models who help us hang on to the lives and loves we cherish even as we open up our sexual sides? Who’s out shouting that we don’t have to suffer for being sexually alive? Perhaps it is midlife women who will now be leading the charge – simply because we now have the wisdom and the ability to step forward. It’s not Fifty Shades of Grey out there in the world of sexuality! What I am seeing in not only my life, but in my coaching clients is “Fifty Shades of Silver”!

Women are waking up in midlife or what may be considered later-midlife than ever before. And they are joining me in being willing to stand up and say, “Screw suffering! I am alive and I want more sexually.”

Look, suffering is highly overrated and completely unnecessary. I’m willing – and happy – to make my personal, admittedly wonky voyage to self-discovery into a tool everyday women and men can use to pry off the lid of their desires. Because that’s the first, and no doubt the hardest step to becoming whole.

And I believe in every person’s right to acknowledge and have their desire when consenting adults are on the same page. The sticky part in my path has been the ability to talk openly about the true nature of female desire.

The recently published pioneering work of Dr. Meredith Chivers, a noted psychology professor at Queen’s University in Kingston, Ontario who specializes in female sexuality, indicates just how complex desire can be. In her own words, Dr. Chivers found that, “Women are apparently disassociated from their bodies and have greater difficulty than men in connecting their own erotic responses to what they are actually feeling or desiring.”

In other words, women’s genitals and brains operate on different tracks when it comes to sexuality. Now that is huge news – and if we are to become women in full – we need to get the tools to piece all of this together.

For me, when I stepped up into being the protagonist in my own story, I was able to reconnect my brain and my sexuality – it was my path to becoming a juicy Queen instead of going right into the crone years. I didn’t have current science to support me. All I had was the deep hunger for integration.

Shameless is my memoir about coming to terms with desire. At first I worried that maybe people were right, that opening up about sexuality would be to dance with danger. I don’t think so anymore. If it is, that’s a risk that I was willing to take. Perhaps we get braver with age. By looking at me you’d never suspect my own long overdue sexual revolution had turned me from a tremulous explorer into a courageous older sex goddess. And most of all, I think that you can do it too. I am watching women show up for more well into their seventies!

Become a choicemaker in your life. I don’t know what it will be for you, but I do believe that you can make your third trimester of life your best act ever.


Kynthia R.
Kynthia Rosgeal5 years ago

A woman is a human being. And human beings enjoy sex. Women are taught to be ashamed of sex, ashamed of their beautiful bodies, ashamed of the desires they feel.

Middle age for me was liberating, very young feminists at school accepted me as one of them, they were young, sexual, sensual, intelligent and PROUD.

We are never to old to learn, my girlfriend and I thank them every night we crawl into each others arms and share our joy of each other.

And men, you deserve a little liberating as well, lose those stupid hangups and myths you learned from "Friends" find a partner who is going to be sensitive to your body and your responses and for gosh sake, get FREE to love, not just your partner, but yourself as well, you deserve it.

Turid K.
Past Member 5 years ago

I will read you book.
The strange thing is that we have myths about women and sexuality that are totally wrong and not based on scientific facts

Obviously we are sexual being until our dying day,in one way or the other.
I really wonder why some society's wants us to belive that women above a certain age is sexless. Why is this so,when the facts prove the opposite? Tell me!

Last week in a news debate about Islam appermits a man to have four wife's ,I read the following:" a sixty year old woman has no longer any interest in sex,therefor the man need a younger wife".

Jacob S.
Past Member 5 years ago

How about just getting on Xmint - Natural Male Libido Enhancer Chewing Gum? It really works great!!

heather g.
heather g5 years ago

This article is very optimistic in it's tone, so enjoyable to read.

Magyar Girl
Past Member 5 years ago

Sex at every age!

Janey K.
Janey Kelly5 years ago

Pamela, it is wonderful that you can print this information for all to see. I am not sure where I heard it before but there is a saying that you can tell when a women is not happy sexually, she generally is overweight, and also the saying "if mama ain't happy, nobody's happy"! You are so right, most women don't have a clue and then you wonder why women are the number one users of antidepressants. Please keep sharing the "good news"! We are vibrant sexual beings and it is nothing to be ashamed of. Embrace it and live it fully!

Marianne Barto
Marianne B5 years ago

Dear Chris C. So, I should get a profile? What for? I do not believe I make sarcastic?( odd word ) for comments on other people's post...just one very annoying NEGATIVE person. I don't recall any negative remarks about an ARTICLE. Have you confused me with someone else? To say I don't exist, made me laugh out loud. What do you really look like? That's an odd photo? (A bigger, heavier, sigh.) Now that's sarcasm. Isn't your credo "live and let live"?? Is Chris male or female? No, sorry, I don't care to know.......

Siti R.
Siti R5 years ago

thanks, interesting..

Siti R.
Siti R5 years ago

interesting article.. however haven't the journey been all together true to creating ourselves besides the circumstances concerning our gender?

Abbe A.
Azaima A5 years ago